"May I speak with you, Adrah-kya?" she said softly.
Adrah looked at her as if seeing her for the first time, then at his fa
ther. He nodded toward the shadows of the alley behind him, and Idaan
followed him until the noises of the street were vague and distant.
"It was Otah," she said. "He did this. Iie knows."
"Are you about to tell me that he's planned it all from the start again?
It was a cheap, desperate trick. It won't matter, except that anyone who
doesn't like us will say we did it, and anyone who has a grudge against
our enemies will put it to them. Nothing changes."
"Who would do it?"
Adrah shook his head, impatient, and turned to walk back out into the
street and noise and light. "Anyone might have. There's no point trying
to solve every puzzle in the world."
"Don't be stupid, Adrah. Someone's acted against-"
The violence and suddenness of his movement was shocking. He was walking
away, his hack to her, and then a heartbeat later, there was no more
room between them than the width of a leaf His face was twisted,
flushed, possessed by anger.
"Don't be stupid? Is that what you said?"
Idaan took a step hack, her feet unsteady beneath her.
"How do you mean, stupid, Idaan? Stupid like calling out my lover's name
in a crowd?"
"What?"
"Cehmai. The poet boy. When you were running, you called his name.
"I did?"
"Everyone heard it," Adrah said. "Everybody knows. At least you could
keep it between us and not parade it all over the city!"
"I didn't mean to," she said. "I swear it, Adrah. I didn't know I had."
He stepped hack and spat, the spittle striking the wall beside him and
dripping down toward the ground. His gaze locked on her, daring her to
push him, to meet his anger with defiance or submission. Either would be
devastating. Idaan felt herself go hard. It wasn't unlike the feeling of
seeing her father dying breath by breath, his belly rotting out and
taking him with it.
"It won't get better, will it?" she asked. "It will go on. It will
change. But it will never get better than it is right now."
The dread in Adrah's eyes told her she'd struck home. When he turned and
stalked away, she didn't try to stop him.
FELL ME, HE'I) SAID.
I can't, she'd replied.
And now Cehmai sat on a chair, staring at the bare wall and wished that
he'd left it there. The hours since morning had been filled with a kind
of anguish he'd never known. He'd told her he loved her. He did love
her. But ... Gods! She'd murdered her own family. She'd engineered her
own father's death and as much as sold the Khai's library to the Galts.
And the only thing that had saved her was that she loved him and he'd
sworn he'd protect her. He'd sworn it.
"What did you expect?" Stone-Made-Soft asked.
"That it was Adrah. That I'd be protecting her from the Vaunyogi,"