“Better you than me.”
“Maybe he found an old girlfriend after his audience…”
“More likely an old wife.”
I raised my eyebrows. “How many has he had?”
“By my count,” Aber said, “at last six from the Courts and two from the Beyond… though I've heard at least one wife didn't last out the wedding night, so perhaps she shouldn't count. And who knows how many in Shadows. Your mother among them, I assume?”
“Nope.”
“Bastard.”
I didn't ask which one of us; it was literally true in my case, figuratively true in Dad's, and on occasion entirely true of us both.
“When he gets back,” Aber said, “you can ask him for an exact count. Assuming he's kept track.”
I gave a snort. “He's lied to me my whole life. He's still lying to me, as far as I can tell. I can't trust anything he says.”
“True.” Aber shrugged. “Everyone in the family knows his hold on the truth is slippery at best. It's part of his charm.”
I sighed. “So we're back where we started. We don't know where he is, what happened during his audience with King Uthor, or when he might come home.”
He shrugged again. “That about sums it up. I don't think you ought to try to contact him yet, though.”
“If you have a better plan,” I said, “I'd like to hear it.”
“Unfortunately, I don't.”
After that, we ate in silence. I noticed Aber studying me from the corners of his eyes, and I began to shift uneasily in my seat. I had never enjoyed close scrutiny. It always made me nervous.
“All right,” I finally said, after putting up with it as long as I could. I set down my fork and looked straight at him. “You've been staring at me for ten minutes. What's wrong?” I patted the top of my head. “Am I sprouting antlers or something?”
“I keep thinking about that vision you had yesterday,” he said, “and how you killed the lai she'on guards. That sounds like a Logrus trick. And when the serpent knocked you back to your own body—he used primal Chaos.”
“What's that?”
“An essential force. It's dangerous to summon and hard to control, without practice and patience. It's something he would not have done except as a last resort.”
“Dangerous—how?”
“You can control it, up to a point, but it almost has a power and a will of its own.”
“Treacherous?”
“Yes. If it gets away from you, it will destroy everything and everyone it touches, feeding on death, growing larger all the while. If it gets big enough, it can destroy an entire Shadow.”
I gulped. “And the serpent threw this stuff at me?”
“Luckily your physical form wasn't there. You would be dead now.” He studied my face. “Clearly he fears you. That trick with the Pattern… what other powers might you have, I wonder?”
I gave a dismissive wave. “None that I know of.”
“Maybe you should try to master the Logrus,” he mused. “If you could control it…”
“Thanks, but no.” I shook my head. I knew without doubt that the Logrus wouldn't work for me. “I think Dad told the truth when he said the Logrus would kill me if I tried to enter it. I'm not willing to risk it.”
“I could speak with the keeper on your behalf. Maybe he has a different test. If he thinks you can safely enter the Logrus, why not try it? After all, you said Dad lied to you about everything. Maybe he lied to you about the Logrus, too.”
“I'm not ready to try it.”
He shrugged. “It was just an idea.”
“Don't get me wrong, I appreciate it. I'm just not ready to risk my life yet.”
“Fair enough.” Wiping his mouth on a napkin, he pushed his plate to the side. A serving girl whisked it away. “You look better. Are you up for a trip outside?”
“You mean here? Or a visit to King Uthor's court?”
“Here. We'll take it slowly. What do you say?”
I hesitated. Something made me want to say “No,” but I finally nodded.
“I'll give it a try.”
After all, I couldn't hide indoors for the rest of my life. If Chaos was to be my new home, I'd have to get over my fears. How bad could it be?
He gave a nod. “Good.”
I finished my own meal in a few bites, but Aber seemed in no hurry to leave. I sat back, and all the questions in the back of my mind began to pour out. I actually felt sorry for my brother as I began to grill him about the house (five floors, 186 rooms at last count—though apparently it fluctuated according to the season), what had happened those three days I'd been unconscious (not much—our father had gone out periodically to meet with friends and allies, returning only to check on me and grab a few hours of sleep), and the nature of Chaos (which seemed even more confusing the longer he talked about it).
“Maybe we should pay King Uthor a visit…” I suggested, as my questions ran out.
“He would never grant the likes of us an audience.”
“You never know. And even if we don't get to see him, we might learn something… like where Dad's being held.”
He looked surprised. “Do you think he's been arrested?”
“I don't know. We ought to find out, though. Even if he hasn't been arrested, he might be in danger. I don't think he'd abandon us here willingly.”
“King Uthor might arrest us if we go poking around.”
“Why? We don't know anything, nor have we done anything wrong.” Suddenly I grinned. “Or have you been holding out on me? Are you and Dad involved in a conspiracy against the crown?”
He pulled a sour face. “You know better than that.”