“I get that,” Ben said. “I trust your feelings. Just … maybe some of it comes from being away for so long. Three weeks. It’s your longest trip since …”
His voice trailed off, but I knew what he meant. It was my longest trip since the funeral. It was true. It was also true that I’d been up since six in the morning Paris time, and it was now six in the evening in Connecticut: midnight Paris time. And of course there was my propensity for Extreme Thinking.
“You’re right,” I said. “And I’m exhausted. Maybe I should take a nap.” Though even as I said it, I thought about the pictures waiting on my computer screen and knew they’d be far more likely than sleep to get my attention.
“Actual likelihood of that?” Like Rayna, Ben knew how to read my mind. I smiled at him.
“I missed you,” I said.
“Missed you, too. Welcome home.”
We moved in to hug each other, then I sprang back seconds before getting smushed against his still-sopping-wet sweater.
“Ben!”
“Ooh, poor form on my part,” he said, and peeled off his sodden sweater. He wore a thin white T-shirt underneath. The coffee spill had left the shirt a bit damp, and it clung slightly to his chest in a way that made me stare and caught my voice in my throat.
That was ridiculous, of course. Ben and I had the kind of friendship where we talked about things like that. I could tease him about his suddenly well-toned body; he’d make some kind of self-effacing joke and parry by bringing up something absurd he’d seen about me in a magazine …
But I didn’t say a word. And I didn’t stop looking. Clearly I was in a sleep-deprived haze.
“You could still try the coffee,” he offered. “There’s plenty in the sweater. I can just wring it right into the mug.”
I shook off my reverie. “Tempting offer, but no thanks. You really need to give up on the coffee thing. I’m never converting from tea.”
“We’ll see,” he said. He set the wet sweater on the hand towel, then turned to me with his arms out. “Better?”
“Much,” I said, and closed the distance between us so he could fold me into his arms.
“Hel- lo! Pleeeeeease tell me I’m interrupting something!” It was Rayna, and at the sound of her voice, Ben and I sheepishly pulled apart. Again, ridiculous. Hugging was nothing unusual for us. Granted, Ben was usually wearing more than a thin T-shirt at the time.…
“Why is it I’m hearing no one when they come into the house?” I asked.
“Big house,” Rayna said. “Come on—my mom’s throwing us a welcome home party at our place.”
“Tonight?” I asked.
“Immediately. Unless I can tell my mom there are … extenuating circumstances.”
She said the last part with a leer that lingered on Ben’s chest and made him blush. Rayna’s entire family had spent the last two years dying for Ben and me to get together. They seemed to be under the impression that my parents hired him to be my boyfriend, not my international adviser.
It’s hard to believe that I’ve known Ben for only two years, and even more bizarre that at first I wanted nothing to do with him. Mom and Dad hired Ben without my knowledge soon after I started getting photojournalism assignments around the world, including some less-than-savory locations. I was furious, imagining a brainless meathead of a bodyguard who’d hang like an albatross around my neck.
I should have given my parents more credit. Their main worry wasn’t that I’d be physically harmed. We’d had a lot of long talks, and they trusted me to avoid any obvious danger. They also reserved the right to veto any assignments they didn’t think were appropriate until I turned eighteen. So my parents didn’t hire Ben for his brawn, they hired him for his brains. At twenty, he already has a doctorate, speaks more languages than should be humanly possible, and knows something about brawn, they hired him for his brains. At twenty, he already has a doctorate, speaks more languages than should be humanly possible, and knows something about pretty much everything, though his specialties are world history and mythology. His knowledge keeps me safer when I travel than any ham-fisted tough guy.
But to Rayna and Wanda (and probably George, too, since he always follows the women in his life), Ben is my soulmate.
“No extenuating circumstances,” Ben said. “Sweater malfunction. Let’s go to the party.”
Fifteen minutes later we were all at Rayna’s house, where Wanda had created an all-American feast. Her dining room table groaned under red, white, and blue plates of hot dogs and pigs-in-blankets, hamburgers, fried chicken, mashed potatoes, biscuits, and of course apple pie à la mode for dessert. It was an insane amount of food for just the five of us, and we ate until we nearly burst. Then afterward Ben reigned supreme in a marathon game of charades. I didn’t get back home until midnight: six a.m. Paris time. I had been up for twenty-four hours. My eyes burned with fatigue, and every muscle in my body screamed for rest.
I nearly made it. I’d washed up and was about to stagger into bed … when I let my eyes drift to my computer. My screensaver flashed a slide show of my favorite pictures, but all I could think about was the tortured man from the fire and the other nineteen images I’d chosen so many hours earlier.
I sat at my desk and pressed a button to clear the screensaver. I stared a moment at the man in the fire truck again, so fascinating in his torment. I wanted to print out his image and add it to my portfolio, but I’d had to enlarge the picture so much just to see him, I’d never be able to get more than a granulated print.
I reduced the picture to the bottom of my screen and scanned the other nineteen images, waiting to see which would demand my attention first. I clicked on a picture of Rayna in front of the Parthenon in Athens. She was in a flowing white dress, her arms raised in a goddesslike pose as her long red curls blew behind her. The setting sun lit her whole body aglow, and the effect was absolutely magnificent … except for a small knot of tourists I couldn’t frame out of the shot.
Time to start cropping.
I reframed the image, but as I did I noticed something strange in the crowd of tourists. A familiar cheekbone and a hard-set jaw.
No. It was impossible.
Instead of cropping out the tourists, I enlarged them to twice, three times their size. They were six members of a single group, all in matching powder blue T-shirts that read IT’S GREEK TO ME TOURS. Every one of them stared at the monument, pointing or taking pictures.
Then there was the seventh person, who stared directly at the camera. He was obscured by three of the powder blue shirt crew, so I could only see half his face: a sweep of hair, one carved cheekbone, one piercing brown eye … but there was no doubt it was him.
My heart started thumping as I moved the Parthenon photo to one side of the screen and pulled up the Paris photo next to it, both enlarged to focus on one man. It was the same man; the man whom I now realized had been with Rayna and me not only in Paris at the end of our trip, but also in Greece three weeks before.
Panic welled up in me. How had I not noticed him? Ever since the summer camp photo incident, I’d prided myself on being constantly alert, aware, and vigilant about just this kind of thing, and yet I’d had no idea this man was stalking us through Europe. And he was stalking us. Why else would he be at both ends of our trip? It couldn’t be coincidence. That wasn’t possible … was it?
I stared again at both images. The lone civilian among the firemen, the outsider amid the tour group … this man was completely out of place in both pictures. Alone, either could easily be explained away, but together they pointed to something more sinister.
My eyes ran over the other thumbnails I’d pulled aside, and I felt a chill race over my body. If this stalker had been with us at both the beginning and end of our trip … was it possible he was with us the whole time? The very idea made my skin crawl, but didn’t it make sense? And what if these pictures had reached out to me not because of their artistry, but because I’d sensed the danger I’d somehow missed in real life?
Any exhaustion I’d felt was now gone. My skin prickled with fear as I reduced both images on my screen and pulled up another thumbnail. This one was the Sacré-Coeur Basilica in Montmartre. I enlarged it and scanned for that face. I didn’t see it, but I hadn’t seen it right away in the other pictures either. I enlarged again and kept scanning, my knuckles white as I gripped the mouse.
There.
A shadow on one of the highest parapets.
I zoomed in closer, and my forehead broke out in sweat.
He was there. His back was turned, but I saw the hair, the leather jacket, the jeans, the muscular build … it was him, and he stood in a spot I knew was absolutely off-limits to tourists.
So how did he get there? And why?
My first thought was actually comforting. He could be a government bodyguard Rayna and I weren’t supposed to have noticed. That had happened before—Mom had made people upset enough that they’d threatened our family, and there had been times when she’d put a tail on me, but kept it a secret so I wouldn’t get scared. If that’s what this man was, it would certainly explain his access to the parapet. It was still weird that I hadn’t seen him, since I’d always pegged the “secret” bodyguards before, but maybe he was just better at his job than the others.
Or maybe he’d been more careful than the others because he wasn’t there to guard me. Maybe instead of protecting me from a threat … he was the threat.
I quickly enlarged the other thumbnails, one at a time. I ran my eyes over the backgrounds, the corners, the most seemingly inconsequential parts of each photo, enlarging and enlarging until every time … I saw him. He was always there. Though the pictures were all from different parts of our trip, different parts of Europe, he was there. Always obscured, in the background, so small you would never notice him unless you were specifically looking, but always there.
I was shaking now, positive this man had wanted to harm me and possibly Rayna (kidnap us? kill us?) during our trip, and it was only by chance that he hadn’t found the perfect opportunity to do it. I was about to make an emergency call to my mother when I opened the final thumbnail: a gargoyle high on the walls of Prague’s St.
Vitus’s Cathedral. I had taken the shot with a zoom lens: just the gargoyle leaping off the balcony, with only a window and the cathedral’s facade behind it.