There were no delays on the return journey, but the waterbus paused before crossing the checkpoint, bobbing patiently in a swell. Vikram heard the music first, then the roar of the engine. A patrol boat streaked down the waterway towards them and he averted his eyes. The patrol boat bombed with music. Within its beat he heard the sound of laughter, present and past. He shut his ears against it. The boat flashed past. Its noise faded. The skadi would be joyriding up and down the border all night.
When the waterbus crossed the lane into the west, the squalor struck Vikram with something akin to surprise. Graffiti looked stark and lewd on structures that must once have shone. The clamour of traffic was phenomenal: Boat horns, collisions, gulls screeching, yells of abuse. Even the sea smelled saltier. For a few seconds his head swam with sensory overload and then it was normal once more.
In normalcy he saw, stretching out like the sea itself, the dreary march of the days ahead. Each washing over him as relentless as the currents. He saw how every day would be a new fight; to keep free of the gangs, the manta wars and the insurgent games; to find food enough to survive the winter and clothes to keep from freezing. He saw the riots that would come as surely as would the storms. He saw friends beaten by the skadi. The tank towed back to the border packed with swollen corpses. He saw the winter freeze ravaging the old, children hardened into crime until they wore unkindness as a resin on their skin. He saw the slow thick bleed of anger. He saw that it would take him apart, bit by bit, until he was an alien even to himself.
The outline of the invitation was sharp in his pocket. They were leaving the City behind. There was no sign of the woman who had been detained earlier.
The air seemed to quake. When he looked back, a twelve-year-old Mikkeli was perched on top of the border net. She weighed less than a tuft of pine and her voice was a fingertip brushing bark.
“Truth is, Vik, I come back here a lot,” she said. “All the time. Just like you used to, over and over and over again.”
She stuck her ankles through the mesh and hung upside-down, pulling faces.
About fifty metres away, the brown curve of a human arm broke the water. As the waterbus grew closer, the hump of the body was discernible under the wash of the waves. It had long been stripped of clothes. Not far from the body, a seagull rested, wings furled. It eyed the corpse speculatively. Each time the sea brought the bird closer, it uttered a squawk, as though fearful the dead thing might suddenly spring to life; a cheap trick for a hungry gull.
Just over a week ago, whilst the gas dispersed through the western crowd, the skadi had drained the execution tank. They dragged out Eirik’s body by his feet and stuffed it into a plastic sack. Then they took the body away.
Vikram watched the seagull coasting on the waves. As though sensing his surveillance, the bird cocked its head and seemed to look directly at him. He would have ignored the look, except that many gulls were the carriers of dead souls, the souls of sailors and sea folk. They were all sea people in this city, and he felt in that moment the shiver of a connection across the gulf. Were the dead reprimanding him now?
He thought of Linus’s feathered coat, wondered how it felt to keep the birds so close, and if they minded. The gull’s head swivelled. Its beak dipped, pecking at its own feathers. It was still a bird, and it had to eat. A wave moved it within a metre of the corpse. The beak snapped up. Vikram turned away, unwilling to see the moment where it conquered its fear.