City of the Red Sun
So Habbili, son of Nushash, found himself alone in the world after he had
been crippled by cruel Argal. He took himself on a journey into the far
west, my children, of which only legends speak and where men have never
traveled. There it is said he spoke with his father at one end of Nushash's
mighty voyage, and afterward returned to the lands we know.
To his lordly father he said that one day he would throw down the children of Mother Shusayem, and so he did.
— from The Revelations of Nushash, Book One
F
OR A LONG TIME THE MAN wandered without a name through a forest of black poplar trees and tall cypresses that swayed in an unfelt, unheard wind. A dark stream wandered near the path, but its course veered away and vanished into the mists again as he went for¬ward. Willows curtained it, drooping and shivering like crying women, their branches dangling just above the silent waters.
The man had no strength to wonder where he was, or how he had come to this land of mist and shadow. For a long time he could think of nothing to do but walk. The sun was utterly absent, the sky a gleaming emptiness that was neither dark nor light. He thought that he had been in such a place before, a country of perpetual evening, but he also felt certain he had never been in this gloomy country. The only other thing he knew was a quiet fear that if he did not keep moving he would become as still and hopeless
as the black poplars that surrounded him might even sink into the muddy, squelching soil and become one of the trees himself.
The man wished someone were with him, a voice to sing, or speak, or even weep, anything that would pierce the unending stillness. He tried to do it himself but he had lost the knack of making words and noises just as he had lost his name. It was very quiet in this country. A few black birds walked on the branches above his head, or fluttered from tree to tree, but they were as silent as the trees and the wind and the water.
He walked on.
He had been seeing moving shadows on the far side of the stream for some time, misty figures with the shapes of men and women. Now he saw something else on that far shore which made him pause in wonderment, but he was still uncertain. He wished again he had a voice so he could ask for help from those shadow-folk, for he could see no way to cross the water, and although it seemed to move slowly he did not trust its opaque quiet.
But what do I have to lose even if the water swallows me? He had no imme¬diate answer, but he felt that somehow he did possess something, a truth of some kind he did not wish to surrender, but which the waters of the stream might wash away.
How can I cross, then?
You cannot. Or if you do, you will never return from that other shore.
A small, naked child of three or four years old stood beside him, her pale hair fluttering slowly. His first thought was to feel sorry for her, so tiny and so unprotected from the wind. Then he looked into those eyes like molten gold flecked with particles of amber and knew she was no child, or at least no mortal child.
Who are you? he asked.
Her voice was not that of a child either, or at least not of one as small as she appeared. Each word was as measured and golden as her gaze. One who remains after the others have gone. One of the elder guardians of this place-no, «guardians» is not correct. «Guides» would be better. And clearly you need guidance, little lost one.
But I want to cross the river. I need to. I… I think I see someone there that I know.
All the more reason to fear it. That is the way most of your kind lose their way in our land, by following someone they know, or think they know. You are not ready. Your time comes soon-all your kind are only a blink away at most-but it has not come yet.
He did not know what any of this meant. How could he, when he did not even know his own name? But that did not change the tilings he fell, the pull of the farther side.
Please. He reached out then, tried to take the child's hand, but it was as though she stood at the bottom of a stream that bent the light deceptively. Wherever he reached, she was not there. Please. I never told him… I did not…
Her face at first was tranquil as a marble mask, but it changed as some¬thing like pity stole across it. Then you take it upon yourself, she said at last. It is only because you have come here by mischance that it is even possible. You may cross-you may see both how things are and how things were-but you will have to be lucky as well as strong to cross the dark water a second time and come out again.
He lowered his head, humbled by his greed for something he could not even name, could not quite understand. You are kind.
Kindness is not part of these laws, especially once you are beyond my hand. The child-face was solemn. There, rules are like the paths of the stars through the great vault, fixed and remorseless. You must not eat any food or accept any gift. And you must not forget your name.
But… but I can't remember it. He looked around at the endless grove of poplars, the trunks marching away in all directions. It seemed his name was almost within reach but he still could not summon it no matter how he tried.
The child shook her head. Already? Then you are all the more a fool for tak¬ing such a risk. Only the strongest hearts can enter the city and yet live. She lifted her tiny, pale arm and a boat slid up to the bank, a thing of rusty nails and gray, weathered boards. Very well, this is the last thing I can do. I do it in mem¬ory of one like you, long ago, who also put his life in my hands. Your name is Ter¬ras Vansen.You are a living man. Now go.
And in the next moment he was upon the river. Both banks had disap¬peared and there was nothing but mist everywhere.
He was a long time on the black water. Vast shapes moved just below the surface, and sometimes the boat rocked as they passed beneath it; once or twice the things even broke water and he could see their wet hides, black and shiny as polished metal. They did not touch him or threaten him in any way, but he was very glad he was in a boat and not floundering in the dark, cold current with those huge shapes swimming beneath him, drawn to his warmth and movement.
Verras Vansen. 'Unit is my name, he reminded himsell here on the river he could almost feel it slipping away again as the mists streamed past. It had seemed so clear when the child said it, so true, and yet he knew he could lose it again as easily he had forgotten it in the forest of black trees.
How did I come to these lands? But that memory was even more lost than his name had been. He knew only that the child had said he did not come the way most men came-mischance, she had named it-and that was enough, somehow, to comfort him.
Something felt strange beneath his hands, under his feet. He looked down and saw that the boat was no longer made of gray wood, but of snakes- hundreds of dully shining shapes woven together like the twig mats old women made so their husbands and sons and grandsons could wipe the mud of the fields off their boots. But these were not twigs, they were serpents, alive and writhing. He lifted his feet and hands but it was no good: the en¬tire boat was made of snakes and there was nowhere to go to escape them.
Even as he stared in horrified surprise, the snake-boat began to unravel, those at the top and along the rails slithering free of their weave and drop¬ping like heavy ropes into the dark, quiet water. They kept peeling away, first in ones and twos and then more swiftly, until the water was coming in on all sides and he rode on nothing more solid than a blanket of cold, thrashing shapes.
He looked up, staring helplessly into the mists ahead in search of the far bank, a stone in the river, anything that might save him. The snakes fell away. The boat fell away. He tried to remember the names of the gods so he could pray but even those had been taken from him.
Vansen. I am Ferras Vansen. I am a soldier. I love a woman who does not love me, and could not if she would. I am Ferras Vansen!
And then he tumbled into the cold swells and swallowed all the blackness.
He was not in the river or on the shore, but in a twilight street. The lamps had been lit above the cobbles. They burned as fitfully as witchfire, glowing without much illuminating the ramshackle houses. It was not yet full dark but the streets seemed utterly empty.
What place is this? He thought he wondered silently, but someone heard him.
It is the City of the Sleepers. The voice of the girl-child who had given
him back his name was faint, as if she stood on the far side of the river he could no longer see. There is only one way through, Ferras Vansen, and that is always forward. Remember…!
And that was the last he heard of her. After that he could scarcely even recall how she looked, how she sounded. He stepped forward and his foot¬steps made no sound, though he could hear the noise of water dripping and a quiet wind rustling and whispering along the rooftops.
Most of the windows were dark, but a few were lit. When he looked in¬side he saw people. They were all asleep, even those who stood or moved about, their eyes closed, their movements slow and aimless. Some merely sat on stools or chairs or leaned against the walls of their drab, dusty chambers, motionless as stones or swaying like blind beggars. Some tried to stir pots under which no flame burned. Others tended children who lay like cloth dolls, limbs a-flop as their sleeping parents dressed or undressed them, small heads lolling, mouths gaping while their parents fed them with empty spoons.
After a while he stopped looking into the houses.
As he came to the center of town the streets began to fill with people, although these too moved like weary swimmers, staring into the bruised gray sky with unseeing eyes. Blind sleepers drove carts piled with shrouded bundles, and even the horses that drew the wagons slept, long jaws grind¬ing as they chewed at nothing. The crowds slowly drifted to and fro like fish at the bottom of a winter lake, standing rapt before spectacles they could not see, buying things they could not taste or use. Slumbering musi¬cians played dust-caked instruments, making unheard melodies, while sleeping clowns danced slow as snowmelt and did halting somersaults in the dirt, coming up smeared and draggled.
As he stared around him in fearful wonder, a young woman wandered toward him out of the crowd. She was pretty, or should have been. Her face was bloodlessly pale, with only the barest sliver of her eyes visible under her long lashes, but her mouth sagged like an idiot's, though she tried to curl her lips in a fetching smile. She lifted her hand to him, offering him a with¬ered flower, a reddish streak running the length of the white petals like a vein of blood. Asphodel, he remembered, the god's flower, although he did not know what god he meant.
Am I fair? she asked. Her lips did not seem to move enough for him to hear her voice so clearly.
Yes, he said, trying to be kind. He could see that she had been fair once,
and might be again, in some other place, under some bolder light.
You are sweet. Here, have my flower. She squeezed her lips together as if to keep them from trembling. It is very long since I have spoken to someone like you. It is lonely here.
Pitying her, he reached out his hand, but just before his fingers closed on the waxy stem he remembered another young woman, high and fair, to whom he owed something. His hand paused, and then he remembered what someone had told him so long ago: Accept no gift!
I cannot, he said. / am sorry.
Her face changed then, from that of a mortal woman into something older and much more hungry. Her body twisted and lengthened into a feral shape with achingly scrawny limbs and reaching claws. It snapped and flut¬tered before him like a scorched insect, writhed until his eyes blurred watching it, then smeared away into the twilight, leaving nothing behind but a thin shriek of misery and rage.
Shaken and sad, he walked on.
On the outskirts of the city, among the midden heaps and boneyards, where a few ragged sleepers huddled around flickering, smoky fires, he at last found the one he had glimpsed across the river, although that now seemed an entire lifetime ago. This sleeper was an old man, with hands that had been large and powerful now knotted with age, and shoulders that had been wide and a back that had been straight now coarsely bent, so that he had the shape of a bird huddling in its own feathers against the cold. Fer-ras Vansen could see the pale, slow shimmer of the fires through the man's substance, as if the old fellow were no more tangible than mist.
Father, he said, but he was suddenly unsure. Tati, he asked like a child, is it really you? Do you know me?
The old man looked at him, or at least turned blind eyes in the direc¬tion of the questions. His face was not merely translucent, it shifted like oil on rippling water.
/ am no one. How could I know you?
No. You are Pedar Vansen. I am your son, Ferras.
The old man shook his head. No. I am Perinos Eio, the great planet. I died and lay four days in a stone casket surrounded by darkness and distant stars. Then I awoke again into the light of what is true. He sighed and a tear escaped his tight-shut eye. But I have forgotten it all again, and now I am lost…
You died in your own bed, Tati. I didn't have the chance to say farewell. For a moment Ferras Vansen could feel tears stinging painfully in his own eyes, as if in this place to cry was to pierce the flesh and let out blood, not water. There was no stone coffin. We were poor people, and I did not come back in time to pay for even a wooden box, although 1 would have done so gladly. You were buried in a winding sheet. He hung his head. / am sorry, Tati. I was far away…
Help me. The old man reached out a hand, but where it touched him it was no more substantial than a tongue of fog, cool and slightly damp. Help me to find my way back, to learn the answers again so that I can pass on.
Anything. And in that moment, he meant it. This was a man whose im¬possible needs had pressed down on Ferras Vansen's childhood like the lid of the stone coflin he was prattling about, but the love was still stronger than any fear, any comfort. To do what his Tati asked he would break even those fading commandments, Eat no food, Accept no gifts, Remember your name! He would flaunt the gods themselves before their thrones.
But the gods are asleep, too, he remembered, or thought he did. Who told me that?
Come, he told the faded ghost of his father. Come. I'll take you where you need to go.
Beyond the city they passed into a shadowy wood and then walked down a hillside covered with black ivy and gray birches into a silent valley. They crossed a blood-colored river at the bottom of the valley on rocks that stood up through the flood like teeth. They walked on, the sky as bleak as stone, the light never brighter than a faint reddish glow in the far west, like a bloodstain that would not wash out of an old shirt.
Time passed, or would have in a different place. Vansen's father sang as he walked, senseless ritual ditties about dividing his body in pieces, endless loving verses that described the divestiture of flesh and memory, but oth¬erwise the old man said little and seemed to recall nothing of his former life. There were moments Vansen thought he had been terribly wrong, that he had seized some old man who was not his father, but then an angle of his companion's insubstantial face, an expression flitting across the thin mouth like a fish in a shallow pool, would convince him he had been right after all.
They crossed four more streams, one of moving ice, one of water that boiled and bubbled with heat, one so full of green growing things that it seemed motionless, although the streambed squirmed between the roots
with tiny, cluttering, splashing shapes, and last a torrent of which they could see nothing but moving fog in a deep crevasse, although they heard sounds coming up from it that no fog ever made, and across which they had to leap, Vansen clutching at the misty shape that marked where the old man's hand should have been.
Eventually all distinctions became one, each step the same step, each song the old man sang the same song. Shadows approached them, some of them fearful to look at, but Vansen told them his name and the old man's name and they retreated into the twilight once more. Other times the shad¬ows came in fairer shapes with offers of hospitality-sumptuous meals, soft beds, or even more intimate comforts-but Vansen learned to refuse these just as firmly, and those shapes retreated, too.
Finally they came to a wide, empty land where the dust blew always and the wind was fierce, a place where they could walk no faster than a dying man could crawl. At times in that place his father faltered and Vansen had to pull him along through the stinging, smothering dust. Once, when even the twilight was blotted out by thick clouds and they trudged forward in complete darkness, the old man fell and could not get up. As he lay, croak¬ing a song about white bracelets and hearts of smoke, Ferras Vansen crouched beside him in despair. He knew that he could rise and walk away and the old man would not see him go, would never even realize he was gone. Instead he staggered to his feet, then bent and lifted the old man onto his back. Pedar Vansen's body had no more substance than a woman's veil, but somehow he was also heavier than a great stone, and Vansen could walk only a few steps each time before he had to stop to catch his breath.
At last the dust storms subsided. They were still in the empty land, the gray expanses, but for the first time he saw something on the horizon other than more nothingness. It was a house-a hut, really, a crude thing made of sticks and unworked stones, its crevices mortared with what looked like centuries of dust, so it seemed the mound of some tremendous and slovenly insect. A man stood in front of it, leaning on his long staff like one of the Kertish herders who had sometimes come to live in Ferras Vansen's dales when driven out by a tribal feud back home.
There! It was a triumphant moment, overshadowing even the sight of an¬other being in this endless, dust-choked void. He had remembered some¬thing new: / am Ferras Vansen-a man of the dales.
The stranger wore the kind of ragged cloth around his belly that the an¬cients had worn, but was otherwise without ornament. His long beard was
gray as cobweb beside his mouth, but dust had turned the rest of it yellow. He did not move but only watched them approach, and Vansen and his fa¬ther's ghost had almost reached him before Ferras Vansen realized this bearded apparition was the first being he had seen in these lands for as long as he could remember whose eyes were open-the first who was not asleep.
Who are you? Vansen said to him. Or is it forbidden to ask?
The man's eyes seemed bright as stars beneath his bristling brows. He smiled, but there was no kindness in it, or malice either. You stand before the last river, but the place you wish to go does not exist in this Age of Sleep. You must cross instead to another side, one in which those great ones you wish to see are still in their houses to be seen.
I don't understand, Vansen told the bearded man. As they spoke, his father sat down in the dust and began singing to himself.
You do not need to understand. You need only do what you must. Whether you come through again afterward is in the hands of greater powers than mine. The dusty old man shifted his bare feet, the spread, leathery toes of someone who had never worn shoes. Unlike Vansen's father, he was as real as could be-Ferras Vansen could see every inch of his coppery skin with great clar¬ity, every scar, every hair.
You will not tell me who you are, Master?
The bearded man shook his head. Not a master-certainly not yours. A shape, an idea, perhaps even a word. That is all. Now step through the door. You will find water there. Both of you must wash yourselves.
And without knowing how it happened, Ferras Vansen found himself on the inside of the small wooden hut, but here for the first time they had left the twilight behind: what he could see through the cracks in the walls was velvet black sky and the gleam of stars. He stepped closer to the walls and peered through one of the openings. The entire hut was surrounded by stars, innumerable white sparks flickering like the candles of all the gods in heaven-stars above, beside, and even below them, as though the hut floated untethered through the night sky. Dizzied by the enthralling, terri¬fying view, he turned to see his father already washing himself with the water from a simple wooden tub as crude as the hut itself.
Vansen joined him, and for long moments lost himself in the glory of water running down his skin. He had forgotten he even had a body, and this was a wonderful way to be reminded. Even his father's phantom, no more substantial than if he were made of spiderwebs, seemed to have come close to something like happiness.
/ should haw tonic home, Vansen said. I feared you, liiti. I leared you suffer-ing.And I hated you, at least a little. Because you did not make it easy for me, when you could have.
His father broke off his singing and for a long time did not say anything. He stood up straight and let the water slide off him like rain dripping down a window.
/ was a prisoner of my own understanding, Pedar Vansen said at last. At least that is what I imagine. In truth, I cannot remember-it is all gone, drifted away like smoke…
And then, before Vansen could hear any more of these words that came to him like food to a starving man, they were out of the hut again, returned to the twilight and dust. The bearded man stood leaning on his long staff, a length of wood as gnarled and knobbed as the ancient man himself. There, the bearded man said, pointing at a pile of dull, red-orange stones lying in the dust. Crumble them and rub yourself with it so you may cross into the last sun¬set light and still retain something of yourself. Both of you. There is no difference now between living and dead in this house-all are subject to the same laws.
Vansen rubbed the red rocks together, scraping them into blood-colored powder, rubbing that powder onto his clean skin. Instead of rubbing dirt onto himself, it seemed instead as though he rubbed himself with light. When he finished, he gleamed, and even his father's phantom shimmered beneath its layer of dust and seemed more substantial.
This ocher gives life to the unloving, said the old, bearded man. And it pro¬tects the living from the dead in the place you go to now, who would otherwise cover you like flies on honey. Go.
What waits for us? Vansen called back to the ancient as he and his father walked forward.
What has always waited for you. What always will wait for you and for me, and for everything. The end of all.
And then the bearded man was gone, lost in the dust which had begun to swirl around them once more, billowing, choking. Vansen held in his breath, then a time came when he could not hold it any longer. He breathed and the river of dust entered him. He became the dust. He passed through.
And now they entered the true city, the metropolis beside which the City of Sleepers was no more than a village.
The oracles say that this greatest and most awful of habitations fills the
earth from pole to pole, so that everywhere living men walk, beneath then feet lie the streets of the City of the Red Sun. Nobody laughs in that city, the oracles also claim, and nobody cries except in thin, almost silent sobs, or sings above a whisper.
As Ferras Vansen and his father entered, a hush lay upon the place like dust lay in the streets. The sleepers all had open eyes, and every face stared hopelessly into eternity. Each step forward felt as though he lifted a hun¬dredweight of stone. Each street seemed as bleak and empty and comfort¬less as the one before.
Always, though, he and his father's shade moved toward the great, dark lodestone at the heart of the city, the palace of the Earthlord himself. Thou¬sands of other phantoms moved with them toward the mighty black gate, shadow-people of every kind and every shape. Few wore more than rags, and many were naked, but even in their nakedness some were clothed in feathers or dully gleaming scales, so that they did not look quite like peo¬ple. Vansen and his father were swept along in this silent crowd like bits of bark on a slow-moving river, the gate and the wall and the palace growing always larger before them.
Ferras Vansen looked at his father, who of all the dead throng still had closed eyes, and saw that although the old man's features were still indis¬tinct as smoke, his father had retained something of the glow of the ocher, a red gleam like fire reflected on silver. Then he saw that the other spirits had it too, and that the glow did not come from the dead themselves but from the great palace, whose every window spilled sunset-red light.
The House of the Ultimate West, his father whispered, but as though he re¬cited a prayer instead of explaining something. Raven's Nest. The Castle of Every thing-Falls-Apart. The Great Pine Tree…
But first, someone whispered, we must pass the Gate of the Pig. These words traveled through the crowd like a fire through dry grass, the whisper becoming a hissing murmur. The Gate. The Gate. They 'were groaning the words, some of them, although one laughed uproariously as he said it over and over, as though it were the first jest ever to be told in the grim, blood-colored city. After a while his laugh turned to a choked sob. The Pig's snout will sniff out every lie, every cheat, and then we will he swallowed down…
As the voices rose around him the darkness rose too, like a pall of smoke, until Ferras Vansen could see nothing. Even his father's shade was gone. He was lost in black emptiness, and the voices of the crowding dead had be¬come animal noises, braying, snorting, barking, as if the ghosts of men had
become the ghosts of beasts. It was a terrible din, harsh, desperate, and lull of terror. He could not help thinking of the farm creatures he had driven to the slaughterer. The darkness seemed infinite, empty but for himself and a choir of horrifying echoes.
But that is truly me, he thought suddenly. Herding the animals with a switch. Walking down the road to Little Stell. That is a memory of me, of my life.
I am Ferras Vansen, he told the void. I have a name. I am a living man.
Something came nearer to him then-he could feel its approach, slow and ominous as a thundercloud. It seemed bigger than the darkness itself, and it stank. It also seemed… amused?
Living man.
They were not words, not even thoughts, really, but something larger, like shifts in the weather, but somehow he could understand them. He was in the grip of something so much larger than himself that he could scarcely think. He was beyond fear-he was not significant enough to be fearful.
At last it spoke, or the weather changed, or the stars revolved in their black firmanent around Ferras Vansen.
Pass. I will speak for you and He will decide. You will die, or you will live… at least for a little longer.
And then he was in the midst of the strangest place yet-a festive hall that was also a monstrous pit, a solemnly beautiful throne room whose ceil¬ing was the vault of black and endless night. It was the crumbling root-raddled ground, a silver fantasy of towers, the slow-beating heart of all sad music, it was all those things and none of those things. He was alone, his fa¬ther's phantom gone, but a million shadows swirled around the great throne at the center, on which sat the greatest shadow of all.
The voice he had heard before spoke to him.
The master of this place says you do not belong in his dream.
I am Ferras Vansen, he said humbly. Of course he did not belong, here at the end of all things. I am a living man. I only wanted to help my father.
The voice of the Gatekeeper spoke again, slow as the slide of glaciers and just as deadeningly chill.
You cannot. It is impertinence to try. His fate is between him and the gods- which is to say, between him and his own heart. And that is why you must go. You are a hindrance, however small, to What Should Be.
Vansen quailed at the anger in that titan voice. I meant no harm! But he felt ashamed of himself for his fear. Even if it meant he must live here for¬ever, eating clay and drinking dust with these sad shadows, he still did not need to crawl. / tried to help. Surely even the gods themselves cannot condemn that?
There was a pause before the Gatekeeper spoke again. He did not seem to have heard what Vansen had said.
Be grateful you did not hear the Earthfather's voice. Even the murmur of his sleeping thought would send you mad. Instead, he permits you to leave- if you can cross the rivers and come safe out of this land once more. If not, then you will become one of his subjects earlier than you might have otherwise- but it is only a short time to lose, after all, the butterfly-life of your kind.
But why can you speak to me? Why aren't you asleep, like the Earthfa-ther?
Make no mistake. I also sleep, said the Gatekeeper. In fact, it could be that you and all these dead, and even the Earthfather himself, are part of my dream.
The voice laughed then, and the world shook.
Go now-return to the land of the living, if you can. You will not receive such a gift a second time.
And then the great hall of madness, of sleep and earth and the deep song of the globe itself, was gone. The Gatekeeper was gone. Nothing remained in all the cosmos but Ferras Vansen, it seemed, standing in sudden alarm on an achingly narrow arc that stretched above a massive nothingness, a white stripe over an abyss. He could not see an end to the slender bridge in ei¬ther direction, and the span was scarcely as wide as his own shoulders. There was nowhere to go but forward into the unknown or backward into quiet, undemanding death. His father's shade was gone, left behind in the
sunset city to lace its own late, and the living could mean nothing to Pedar Vansen anymore. His son had not been able either to save the old man or forgive him, but something had changed and his heart was lighter than it had been.
"I am Ferras Vansen," he called as loudly as he could. There was no reply,
not even an echo, but that did not matter: he was not speaking to anyone
except himself. "I am a soldier. I love Briony Eddon, although she can never
love me. I'm tired of being lost and I'm tired of dying, so I'm going to try
something different this time."
He began to walk.