After a moment I sighed. 'Perhaps I see far too many deaths.'
'So how do you stay humane?' he demanded.
'When I look at a corpse I remember, he must have parents somewhere; he may have had a wife. If I can, I find them. I tell them what happened. I try to be quick; most people want time to react alone. But some of them come back to me afterwards and ask for the details all over again. That's bad enough.'
'What's worse?'
'Thinking about the ones who want to ask, but never come.'
Gordianus still looked hunted. I could see that once he had drummed up the grit to oppose Vespasian, failure utterly deflated him.
'My brother and I,' he explained with a struggle, 'believed Flavius Vespasianus was a Sabine adventurer from an untalented family, who would bring the Empire into ruin and disrepute.'
I shook my head. 'I'm a staunch republican-but I won't run Vespasian down.'
'Because you work for him?'
'I work for the money.'
'Then opt out?'
'I do my duty!' I retorted. 'My name is on the tax roll, and I never fail to vote! More importantly, here I am, trying to reconcile you and Vespasian to give him breathing space to rebuild the ruins he inherited from Nero.'
'Is he capable?'
I hesitated. 'Probably.'
'Hah! Falco, to most of Rome he'll still be an adventurer.'
'Oh I believe he knows that!'
Gordianus went on staring out to sea. He had slumped like a sea anemone, a soft grey blob clinging to the stonework, weakening as the sun moved onto us.
'Do you have any children?' I asked, fumbling for a way to reach him.
'Four. Plus my brother's two now.'
'Your wife?'
'Dead, thankfully-' Any woman with much about her would want to kick his anklebone; I was thinking of one in particular. Perhaps he saw it in my face. 'Are you married, Falco?'
'Not exactly.'
'Someone in mind?' When the people who asked were not entirely cynical, it was easiest for a bachelor to pretend. I paused, then nodded. 'No children then?' he went on.
'Not as far as I know-and that's not flippancy. My brother had a child he never saw; it won't happen to me.'
'What happened to your brother?'
'Casualty; Judaea. A hero, they tell me.'
'Was this recent?'
'Three years ago.
'Ah… you can say then: in this situation, how do we cope?'
'Oh, we tolerate the crass intrusions of people who hardly knew them; we set up expensive memorials which fail to impress their real friends! We honour their birthdays, comfort their women, make sure their children grow up with some parental control-'
'Does this help?'
'No, not really… No.'
We both smiled grimly, then Gordianus turned to me.
'Evidently Vespasian sent you because he considers you persuasive,' he sneered. I had won his confidence, though what happened to my brother in the desert was nothing to exploit. 'You seem to be genuine; what do you recommend?'
Still thinking of Festus, I did not answer at once.
'Oh Falco, you cannot imagine what has been going through my head!' I could. Gordianus was the sort of tormented defeatist who could easily put his whole brood to the sword, then persuade some loyal slave to butcher him too. I imagined it clearly; everyone sobbing and making a mess of good floor rugs with their pointless blood-his type should never attempt treachery. If he brazened this out, he had done no worse than many senators contemplate every day over lunch.
Of course, that was why these people mattered. That was why the Emperor was treating them so carefully. Some plots are dreamed up over Tuesday's cold artichokes but fade out by Wednesday's anchovy eggs. Curtius Gordianus displayed a mad insistency. He had ganged up with amateurs who were pressing on in defiance long after self-preservation would steer anyone else back to respectable pastimes like drinking and gambling and seducing their best friends' wives.
'So what alternatives are left, Falco?'
'Vespasian will not object if you withdraw to your private estate-'
'Retire from public life!' A true Roman, the suggestion shocked him. 'Is he ordering that?'
'No. Sorry-'
Caught out by my mistake, I was starting to lose patience. He shot me a quizzical look. I remembered his brisk attitude when he first greeted me as Chief Pontiff; I decided this squashed pillow needed plumping up with a public role.
'The Emperor was impressed by your adopting a religious post, though he would prefer you to accept a more demanding place-' I sounded like Anacrites; I had been working at the Palace far too long.
'Such as?'
'Paestum?'
Now Gordianus sat quiet. After exile on this bleak shore, the mighty complex of temples at Paestum represented sheer luxury. 'Paestum,' I continued seductively. 'A civilized city in a delicate climate, where the violets are the sweetest in Europe, and all the perfumers' roses bloom twice every year…' (Paestum: on the west coast in Campania-well within Vespasian's reach.)
'In what position?' Now he was talking more like a senator.
'I have no authority to confirm that, sir. But during my journey here I did learn they have a vacant post at the great Temple of Hera…'
He nodded at once.
I had done it. Everything was over. I had hooked Curtius Gordianus back from his exile, and with luck earned myself a contract bonus. (Or, being realistic, I would earn it if Vespasian agreed to the solution I had suggested, if we ever managed to agree what that solution was worth to the Empire-and if he paid.)