“Come on, keep up!” are the words she leaves trailing over her shoulder to me as she plunges into the hive.
Weaving between shoulders and hands grasping plastic cups that drip alcohol, I follow my blue-haired friend into the center of the vortex.
She moves and bops from one side to the other with the smack of the snare drum that so defines ‘80s music. She effortlessly becomes a part of the crowd like a drop of water added to a pool. I feel like a rock clumsily plunked in, making an unwanted wake.
Thank God—she reaches the exact epicenter of the dancing, turns, and extends her hands out for me to join her, giving me some visible reason for being out here on the dance floor with the graceful and the cool.
The song ends, and I nervously hold my breath, waiting to hear what’s coming next that I’m supposed to dance to. The sound of a keyboard playing the intro to “I Just Died in Your Arms Tonight” brings out a cheer from the crowd and raises hands in the air. I love the song, but I’m petrified, cold fear spreading through my body.
Ambrosia spins herself around, spattering the people around her with tiny droplets of her colorful drink. I sip my Coke, stalling having to dance for another moment. Surprisingly, no one minds that she’s sprinkled them—they all smile at her like she’s ‘80s Girl, saving them from the evil clutches of an ordinary night and dousing them with her magical ‘80s juice, sharing her supernatural cool with them.
She turns her bright, yellow eyes away from her admirers to glance at me quickly.
Swiftly grabbing my free arm at the wrist, she yanks me forcefully toward her, causing a tiny bit of my Coke to run down my other hand. She pulls my wrist back and forth, forcing my body to move with the rhythm of the song.
This is why Ambrosia is a wonderful friend. She’s forgotten to meet me places when we’ve made plans—dated guys I thought I liked, but she wouldn’t let me stay home on my birthday and now won’t let me drown of humiliation in this pool of coolness. She’s going to hold my wrist until I learn to swim—or at least tread water.
Lets go of my hand…body keeps moving…still breathing.
Two drinks plop down on the bar in front of me. I’ve switched from Coke to the hard stuff—energy drinks. The other cup is full of Ambrosia’s too-sweet-smelling, bright-colored concoction she’s been downing all night.
She keeps begging me to try her drink like it’s some all-powerful elixir that’ll wash all the dorkiness inside me right out of my bladder. That’s just not me—I’m a sober gal. Can’t let go of control of myself—barely have a decent grip as it is. Besides, if I drank like Ambrosia, I’d only be an epically bad, clumsy version of her.
A chiseled arm in a tight-fitting metal-gray t-shirt rests its elbow down on the bar next to my drinks, followed by the most arousing male scent to ever tickle my nostrils. Two female bartenders smile and wave as soon as they notice him. He waves in one fast, straight motion. One of the bartenders blows him a kiss; the other makes a jealous face at her.
A hand lands on my back just as the last note of “Space Age Love Song” rings out the speakers.
Ambrosia must have known the song so well that she started walking to come get me with just enough time before the next song started.
Thinking of taut muscle wrapped in thin, gray, short sleeves, I say to her, “Hang on, I think I might get something else.”
When I return my focus to masculine beauty, I see long, red-tipped female interlopers running down the back of his shirt and up to his shoulders.
Interrupting my dislike of the long-nailed intrusion on my hunk is the beginning of “99 Red Balloons” and an excited Ambrosia voice shouting, “No! Go! Now-now-now!”
She pulls me behind her into the fray, clearing us a path with her hips. You wouldn’t think hips as average as hers could part the sea of inebriated dancers, but she puts a lot of energy behind their swaying.
Once we’ve reached a spot she deems acceptable, she raises her free hand straight up in the air and begins twisting her body to and fro.
I start dancing without any worry. Once the first few songs were over, I relaxed and have actually been having a pretty great time.
There is something so sweet and childlike about how much Ambrosia loves each and every one of these songs. She’s smiled, cheered, and waved her free hand in the air at the start of every tune so far. Her wildness does clash with the innocence, like a little girl in a white dress and polished Sunday shoes chugging Tequila. Maybe she’s just wild because she’s wounded, and she’s childlike trying to have a youth now that she missed back then. Maybe. Maybe not. But, she’s happy now, and it’s as contagious as a plague of joy.
Her face turns oddly serious as she stops dancing, grasps my shoulder, and talks into my ear.
I can smell and feel the hot alcohol on her breath as she speaks.
“He’s here.”
I wonder how she could have noticed my attraction to the guy with the gray shirt at the bar, but I grin anyway, his image still fresh in my mind.
She nudges her head in a direction behind me, and my vision helplessly follows her. I see him—my smile vanishes.
It’s Lyle, and there’s nothing “gray” about him. Damn it—what the hell is he doing here? Oh. Dang it. I mentioned in the faculty room that I was coming here tonight when they asked where I was going for my birthday.
Lyle walks closer to me, smiling so hard that I think his mouth may rip open at the corners. My stomach sinks in a pool of awkwardness.
Lyle’s actually not that bad of a person—he’s a dedicated, anal-retentive geometry teacher who pushes his students hard, but they learn a lot. He’s smart and basically a nice guy. And as he makes his way over here now, he’s not a bad dancer. Definitely not bad for a schoolteacher with an unhealthy obsession with the teachings of Euclid.
He’s just bad for me.
Just old enough to have his hair starting to thin and recede, recently divorced which has left him insecure and desperate—making him awkward and persistent, quite an unattractive combination. I’m only at Riverview High for one student teaching class a day—and I’ve only been there for a little over a month, but he’s tried to sell me his undesirable combination every day I’ve been there. Looks like he’s going to be making another sales pitch in 5…4…would it be rude if I screamed?…3 how much would a hitman cost?…2 ahhh! just aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!…1 and the nightmare begins…
“Ruby, Happy Birthday!” he says raising his cup for a toast.
I tap my cup against his as gently as possible.
He moves closer raising his free arm as if he is going in for a hug. My stomach threatens to revolt if my brain can’t save me from this onslaught. Mind is frozen like it’s stuck in an alien tractor beam. Stomach grows more belligerent. Hell is upon me, and my wits are nowhere to be seen.
Blue flashes in front of my face as Ambrosia rushes between us and pulls me along with her for a quick 180-spin, placing me a little further away from Lyle when we stop.
He dances as if nothing’s happened. No embarrassment. No signs of rejection. Denial runs strong in this one.
The walls behind him are textured in a rich and exciting maroon color; people in flashy outfits dance all around him; 16 Candles is projected silently on the giant screen behind the stage—everything seems magical around him—everything’s downright fantastical except him—a colorless minnow in a tropical sea. Sounds like me. But not the me I want to be.
Not even the wisdom of Molly Ringwald, the eternally cool teenager, and Long Duk Dong up on the screen can penetrate the wall of buzzkill that is Lyle.
Desperately needing something to shine some light inside the dark pit into which I am rapidly sinking, I look for gray shirt. As if my desperation has summoned him, he steps down the two steps from the bar area to the dance floor.
Before now, I’ve only seen him from the waist-up at close range at the bar. I didn’t get to see his tight, black leather pants, and might I say, Yowza!
His smooth, pale, white skin tucked inside the gray shirt and black pants truly is a light piercing the darkness that surrounds me.
Buzzkill steps in front of the view of my Adonis.
“Ruby, I should get you a birthday drink. What’re you drinking?”
“No, it’s okay. I still have plenty left.”
“Oh, come on—it’s your birthday.”
“No, really, I’m fine.”
“A shot? Sex on the beach?”
“No, thanks.”
“Gotta tell me what you’re drinking, or I’m just gonna pick something for you.”
“I’m drinking an energy drink.”
“Oh, energy drink and vodka. You’re a girl after my own heart,” he says downing the last of the liquid in his cup.
“No, Lyle, just an energy drink.”
His eyebrows furrow, “Oh, but you’ve gotta try it. Nothing like it for a party!”
“I don’t think so.”
“I’ll just go get you one,” he says as he takes a step toward the bar.
“Lyle!”
“What-chu-need-sweetie?”
“Just an energy drink. That’s it.”
“All right. All right,” he says shaking his head, “It’s your birthday—anything you want.”
He turns and heads toward the bar. Suddenly I feel bad for the expression that must have been on my face. Lyle’s annoying, and he’s shamelessly trying to weasel his way in with me—but maybe I was a little harsh. Think I saw a hint of hurt on his face, but his unrelenting persistence should help him forget all about it in a minute or so. He’s certainly ignored every not-interested signal I’ve ever sent to him, and there have been plenty. Would be nice if he remembered my anger until one second after tonight’s over. Don’t want him hurt for long, or at all really, but I’d love for him to stay away for the rest of the night. Would be nice for me anyway. I was having a fantastic time dancing in public. What are the odds that’ll ever happen again? Heck, the odds are staggering that it even happened once.
Now, where is Gray? Scan the dance floor. Group of girls. Drunk guy stumbling. Drunk girl unknowingly flashing everyone a clear view of her underwear while she tries to climb up on the stage—not sure if anyone’s supposed to go up there. Well, at least she’s not wearing a thong. On second thought, in this place, thank God she’s wearing underwear at all. Bouncer rushes to her area—guess no one is supposed to go up there.
There is a pack of girls who are all dressed up ‘80s style with lots of rouge and blue eye shadow—clips and bows in their hair. They look authentic. Almost wish Ambrosia and I would’ve dressed up too, but then again she’s always dressed as her own character.
And there she is. Looks like she’s made friends and is dancing with a group of people. She likes Lyle less than I do—didn’t even tell him hello. No wonder she’s set up camp elsewhere.
Not much dance floor left. My heart starts to sink—maybe he’s gone.
A heavy guy, who’s been leaning on the stage all night watching girls dance, makes his way back to his usual spot. As he moves along, revealing people he was blocking from my view, Gray appears.
Perfect skin clings tightly down the steep slope of his imposing cheekbones. Lips so beckoning that the air around them fights in jealousy to slide over them. Piercing eyes. Blue and lit up like a fire. They’re on me. Oh my God, they’re on me.
Three girls dance around him, but he looks over their heads to me. Can’t look away.
He steps forward, girls sliding to the side as he passes them. Weaves through the crowd rapidly, despite his broad, muscular frame.
Eyes on him—his on me, paying no mind to the people he passes, even a girl who slides her fingers across his chest. His hair floats with his steps, just touching his shoulders, flowing like a black sea parted in two directions, a mane like a crown, untamed and setting him apart.
A few feet separate us now. Too embarrassed to speak. Too hooked to look away.
Inches. Inches away from touching me, he steps in synch with my dancing.
Quick glance down his body—slim waist, steel-tipped cowboy boots. My God, how does he move so well in them? Like some sexy ninja.
I step back and then forward toward him. See if he follows or lets me slip away. Does he want me, or is he just making his way around the floor?
Boy’s on my every move. About two inches from me no matter what I throw at him—swear he knows what I’m doing before I do it. Throw my arm out like a snake—he follows. Move my head back—moves his forward. Reflexes like an animal. Smooth, fast, beautiful…scary, almost.
So close, his tight gray shirt drapes over his rippling shoulders and chest like a sheet of water rolling over a cliff.
He starts leaning down. Blue eyes feel like they’re entering my green ones. Teal sounds like a delicious mix. Precious lips getting closer to mine.
What is happening to me? My God, I don’t even know his name. Don’t think I’ll pull away.
An elbow pokes at his left arm—he turns sideways, instantly bringing his dancing body upright, snarling, and fists clenched.
Excitement faces Buzzkill.
“Hey, buddy, she’s with me,” grumbles Lyle with a tremble in his speech.
Gray’s voice slides out his throat, “She didn’t say anything, friend.” Powerful, but smooth, with a hint of rasp. If it were a color, it’d match his shirt.
“I’m saying it for her. She’s…with…me.”
Shooting out of my mouth, “No, I am not!”
Gray looks at me and smiles.
“Hey, big man, this conversation’s between you and me. Not the girl.”
Still locked in on me, Gray pays him no mind. Neither do I. Lyle taps Gray’s shoulder roughly.
Looking back to Lyle, anger flaring in his face for a moment—Gray’s teeth flash before he pushes the emotion away, “Hey, friend, no reason to get ugly in here tonight—lots of girls in here. This one’s got a right to dance with whoever she wants, but so can all the others. Maybe you’ll find someone else you like.”
Dropping one of the drinks from his hands, energy drink spilling and spreading, cup bouncing on the floor, Lyle says, “Maybe, I should just beat the hell out of you.”
“Say that you could beat the hell out of me—then the night’d end with both of us in a jail cell together.”
Ambrosia pulls one of her new friends by the wrist, a blonde with a single ponytail, plenty of curve, and little of it covered by her low-cut exercise t-shirt and stretch pants with giant, pink leg warmers. They dance around Lyle. When he continues to stare at Gray, Ambrosia’s friend bends over very far and dances in that position right next to Buzzkill. Lyle’s eyes drop down and take in the shape of her butt. A smile sneaks over him.
Gray continues speaking to Lyle, his voice sending a tingle through me, “Wouldn’t you rather end up with someone prettier than me? Someplace better than a jail cell? God knows I do.”
Lyle looks at me. Then at the strange girl’s butt. Back to me. Strange butt. Then to Gray and says, “Look, I already told you…”
Ambrosia grabs Lyle’s hand and places it on the strange girl’s waist. Now standing, the girl moves in close and slides her arms around his neck. She pushes her body to him, rubbing against him, slowly leading him away from us. Lyle doesn’t look back.
Ambrosia bows at us, then resumes bouncing her body to the music.
Gray moves closer to me. We start dancing again. Still in synch.
“Sorr-” the first words out my mouth to him are interrupted.
Another man taps Gray’s shoulder. Long blonde hair pulled back in a ponytail, pointed nose, almost the same size as Gray.
Gray doesn’t look pleased, but shakes the man’s extended hand.
Ambrosia blindsides me with a girl huddle, and whispers urgently, “Bathroom break.”
Is the whole world conspiring to keep Gray away from me?
Start to shake my head no.
“Now!” she demands.
Before I can respond, she pulls me away.
Gray stares at his friend who is talking to him. Don’t think Gray likes him much.
My head turns away from them to watch where Ambrosia is dragging me. Everything is gloomy and mean and coated in despair. Not because anything I see deserves it, but because it’s all a part of pulling me away from him. How odd that everything pales in comparison to a guy with such pale skin.
Nothing registers but a longing to be back on the dance floor with Gray until she pulls me into the bathroom, spinning around to face me once we’re inside.
“Ruby, that guy is a psycho!”
Suddenly feeling offended and hostile—how dare she say this about my wonderful Gray, I ask, “What are you talking about—you haven’t even talked to him?”
“We hooked up a few weeks ago here. He’s crazy.”
My heart sinks, and I feel my smile float away to the land of sadness.
“Oh, no,” Ambrosia laughs, “Not your guy—gray shirt. I’m talking about his friend with the blonde ponytail. His name’s Roderick. Complete psychopath—we gotta leave.”
My heart jumps at her last word, “‘Brosia, you say that about every guy you date after you break up. They’re all psychos or freaks. You wind up dating half of them again. And sometimes, again and again and again.”
Shaking her head and not smiling at my little joke, “Look what he did to my neck!” she says pulling her collar to the side.
At the base of her neck are two fiery dots.
“Psycho bit into me like I was freakin’ Buffy or something.”
“Oh, my God!”
“Yeah. And that was weeks ago—the marks are still there. Let’s sneak right out the front door—now.”
“What about your tab?”
“I’ll get my card from them tomorrow. I’ve forgotten to close out a few times before. No big deal—they all know me here.”
“But, the guy…”
“Told you he’s psycho.”
“No—”
“Oh, gray shirt!”
“Yes!”
“Don’t want to leave?”
Shake my head.
“Ruby, I don’t like this.”
Never heard her say that about anything but studying.
“Ambrosia, I really like this guy.”
“Really?”
“Completely.”
She rolls her lips tightly inside her mouth, thinking. “Okay, you go get your man, chica, but don’t get so focused on Gray that you forget to look out for your crazy Blue friend too. This Roderick guy’s sketchy.”
“You got it, girl.”
Walk toward the door.
I ask, “Hey, how did you get that blonde girl to go for Lyle?”
“Well, I told her he’s a trust fund kid, and…”
“And what?”
“Let’s just say we owe her free drinks for…well, forever.”
The walk back to the dance floor is nothing but a meaningless maze of people and objects. The only person to make me feel like my skin pulses with electricity is on the dance floor, and anything between here and there is a cruel torture that could never measure up to the Gray one whose name I don’t even know.
My God, I’m losing my mind, and I’m loving it.
I don’t see that Roderick guy, but I don’t see Gray either. Hope they haven’t already left—my feelings hurt just at the thought of it. Don’t even know him. Just know how I feel around him. Those arms. Those eyes…so different for me.
Lyle’s head is buried in the blonde’s neck. Same sights on the dance floor. Ambrosia starts to dance. My knees move with the beat, but with little energy and no enthusiasm.
Song ends and “Right Round” starts playing. It’s hard to imagine feeling dead on the dance floor with this song playing, but I don’t feel very alive right now—definitely nothing like how I felt dancing with him.
I feel movement close behind me. Step forward to get out of the passerby’s way. The movement follows me. Step forward again. Still feel someone there. Anger races through me—no Gray and some jackass trying to rub up against me.
“What’s wrong, Bright Eyes?” whispers the voice over my shoulder.
Like a leaf in the breeze, he spins around me. Facing me, Gray doesn’t smile—his face rigid and serious, but his eyes welcome.
My heart awakens at the sight of him, so quickly shifting from deflated and angry to elated. Completely elated.
“What was bothering you?” he asks, his breath tickling my ear.
“Kinda thought you were gone.”
“Well, I’m right here right now. What else do you need?”
Struggling to say something that doesn’t make me sound so pathetic, “Little Red Corvette.”
“You wanna hear it?”
“Sure.”
“Let me borrow your phone.”
“What?”
“Just for a moment.”
Take it out my tiny purse and hand it to him.
“Hang on,” he says.
After pressing send, he looks to the DJ booth on the balcony that runs along the length of dance floor. We can see something light up, but the DJ takes no notice, talking to a girl who sits on the table next to his equipment and is dressed as Borderline-era Madonna—stockings, short skirt, and hairstyle.
Gray sends the message again. Lights up. Still no notice.
Taking a few quick steps toward the balcony, Gray flings my phone at the DJ, which smacks him in the back and lands on his mixer. The DJ picks up the phone and looks down at the dance floor furiously. He spots Gray looking up at him. DJ smiles, reads message, nods head, and tosses phone back down to Gray.
Before he can get all the way back to me, the song stops abruptly, and the crowd roars in disapproval. Apparently they like “Right Round” as much as I do. I hope no one notices the guilty look on my face.
Cheers rise as the lights dim and “Little Red Corvette” begins—the natives weren’t restless for long, and I think I’m safe from their pitchforks and torches for the moment.
Gray moves perfectly, starting slow with the intro, speeding up a little when the snare kicks in, and building to a peak at the chorus.
His hand reaches out a little closer and closer with his movements. I swear I can feel the heat coming off his hand into the space between us. Closer. Warmer.
His fingers reach my waist with a smooth slide. Don’t know if my skin has ever felt so much, even through the shirt.
He keeps it there, swaying me in our rhythm, slowly working his body a little closer. Feel sweat break at my brow. Crowded and sweaty—been that way all night, but it feels so much warmer now. Didn’t even notice the heat earlier. Maybe I only notice it now because the hot air matches my sizzling emotion, when before it had no connection to me.
Or, the heat’s really intensified with the heavenly body holding my waist and filling my senses with visions of lovely things that I thought would never be for me.
Never believed in auras. Always nonsense to me. But I swear the air around him is like nothing I’ve ever known. I can feel it my chest—it tingles over my skin, almost tastes in my mouth.
Song ends and the first piercing note of “How Soon Is Now” cuts through the air. Even a song of painful loneliness seems to be about the beautiful feeling of him dancing so close to me—everything tinted in his electric energy. Still just his hand on my side.
He raises one corner of his mouth in the sexiest sneer, inviting me to experience more of him. My smile isn’t a thought or a choice, but an inevitability. He sees it, and I know he likes it—his eyes profess it.
Hand slides to the small of my back and waits. I’m not about to pull away. Watching my reaction, it’s his turn to smile, showing me those shiny, white teeth.
Pulls me to him. His torso touches me. Slide my arms up the delicious contours of his arms and to his neck. Strange territory for me, but it feels as natural as if I’ve lived here my entire life.
Song ends and gives birth to “Dancing with Myself.” The faster tempo gets the crowd bouncing. Sadly, we pull apart a few inches—the quicker beat makes dancing so closely difficult.
His hand still at my side, the air charged, my emotion redlined. Never been better…Ever.
I catch smiles cracking through the tight, pale marble of his face. A vista of male beauty. Blue eyes shining.
We start stepping back away from each other and then forward into the close, blazing warmth of the last few inches between us.
Long, red fingernails dive up Gray’s short sleeve and squeeze his bicep. Beginning to dislike everything red.
“Hey, gorgeous,” says the girl from the bar earlier, tickling his upper arm with those striking nails and rolling the “r” in gorgeous, purring so smoothly that she makes me feel like I’m missing something feminine that she has an abundance of. “Wanna split this thing one more way?” she asks while stretching her neck, placing her face close to his.
“Sorry, Maxine, I’ve never been good with fractions.”
“Well, what about sharing resources? You’re an athletic boy.”
“Not tonight.”
Her face flashes into something still enviously pretty but enraged like a screeching feline. A tall one, she looks down at me, wrinkle-nosed, and says, “A week ago you bit me so hard you made my neck bleed, and now you’re blowing me off for freakin’ Little Miss Mainstream?”
Okay. So she wants to play cute, little word games and mock me—mean, hateful words as angry red as her fingernails. I’ve got a riddle or two for her in my boiling, red thoughts.
Feel a girl’s hand at my elbow. Must be my blue-flaxened friend. Turn to see. Wrong. Strange.
A tall, redhead sways her head with the weight of one drink too many and talks into my ear way too loudly.
“I have a gorgeous friend who thinks you’re hot.”
“What?” I respond—too much on my mind for this nonsense to make any sense.
“His name is Jake,” she says pointing near the stage at a boy with spiky, thick, gelled, black hair that points in many directions, “He’s hot—thinks you’re hot and wants to dance with you.”
The boy raises his head in the air, pointing his nose at me like a wolf to the moon as if he can hear what we’re saying. He dances with a brunette and a blonde in front of him.
The redhead says in a quick slur, “That’s just our friends—they’re not his girlfriends.”
Don’t care if they’re his wives. Nothing wrong with the boy, except for two rubber bands bouncing atop each of his shoes around his ankles. Any other girl would go to him—he’s already dancing with a blonde and a brunette and has a redhead matchmaking for him—he’s surrounded by a Neapolitan girl entourage, but not me. He might as well be a smelly animal, some furry werewolf or something, for all my heart cares. I’ve seen the beginning of love, felt it shoot through me, and it doesn’t look like him.
My eyes have already chosen what my love looks like.
Song ends. The ceasing of music makes me panic that it’s not all that’s ending.
Mumble no thanks or something that sounds like that to the redhead and turn away quickly.
Gray stands with his hands at his sides, not dancing, so much energy, so beautiful, and standing like a statue, warmth frozen over, waiting for me.
Glance at Jake, then to Lyle, and back to my Gray. Gray is to men what men are to children. They’re all male humans but are so far apart in development that they require different names.
He waits. For me. Could jump right into his arms, but I grasp his hand and put it against my waist.
His eyes flash awake. Energy floods back into him. Through him it tingles into me.
His voice seems to run down my spine, “The whole world tries to tear us apart.”
The truth of his words sparks a wave of fear that makes my lips twitch. Lyle. Jake. Ponytail boy. The redhead girl. Fingernails girl. Even Ambrosia. Right—they all pulled us apart. Only boy I’ve ever wanted this way. So unfair.
“They won’t win.”
His words warm me, melting all worry, lighting me up from the inside.
Closely-shorn sideburns run from underneath his shoulder-length hair; giving way to angular, sculpted cheekbones; smooth skin clinging to them even tighter than his gray shirt stretches over his pecs and down toward his small waist. He’s a beautifully torn edge, equally full of the savage and the tantalizing. He could send a wolf pack reeling away in fear or bring any woman to her knees with the same confidence-soaked right-side sneer of his upper lip, and right now it’s focused on me.
His smile-sneer raises a little higher as he dances, and I wonder not if I’ll run from him or step even closer to him, but I only ponder if he is aware he is doing it or if it is beyond his control. I think I’d tingle even more if I knew his unique smile was uncontrollable around me.
My head barely reaches his shoulder, but I leave it there. Cheek pressed against him. My eyes close. Face overtaken by smile.
Such a wild place. Never thought I’d be happy here. So odd that I found him in this strange environment. I feel like I let Ambrosia lead me into hell only to find someone who doesn’t belong here any more than I.
Open my eyes, and for the first time while we’ve been dancing, he looks away from me. Toward the stage. Ambrosia. Dancing.
Lots of guys watch her dance, but his face grows disgusted.
I ask, “What is it?”
Shakes his head.
I squeeze his forearm. He looks in my eyes—still silent. I say, “Tell me.”
“Your friend really shouldn’t be drinking.”
“Why not? This is a bar, isn’t it?”
“Na-nevermind,” he says, looks away from me, and shakes his head to wipe the topic clear, but he still looks very annoyed.
Did I say something wrong? Heaven a moment ago—so perfect. Now he’s angry. What’s his problem all of a sudden? Wish I knew. Then I could decide if I’m irritated or if I just want to help him solve it.
God, let it be the latter.
He looks at me—intent eyes and strong lines of his cheekbones offer no clues to his thoughts.
“You’re gorgeous.”
My bottom lip quickly finds its way behind my top teeth, feeling like it’ll burst.
His hand reaches my chin. I release my lip—hold back blushing—lift my head. Pulls me in. His lips come together. For me. So close.
Colorful drink splatters all over a face near the stage.
Furious, Ambrosia shouts at Roderick who drips with her sweet drink. Roderick’s nails dig into her forearm.
“Help her!”
Before the words are gone from my lips, he’s on his way.
A wicked smile comes over Roderick’s face as Gray approaches. Still grasping her forearm, he tugs Ambrosia roughly to the side.
Gray stops directly in front of him, stares him in the eye, and in a flash squeezes Roderick’s forearm that holds Ambrosia. Veins in Gray’s arm throb like raging rivers. Ambrosia’s hand slips out.
Blood runs from the nail marks left behind. Roderick snarls at Gray as her hand slaps him on the bridge of his nose, leaving a smear of her blood on his face.
I can read Gray’s lips as he tells Ambrosia, “Walk away.”
She obeys and turns toward me.
Roderick licks at the corner of his mouth. The two keep staring. Never budging.
Gray flings Roderick’s forearm back at him, pushing his body back a step.
Roderick sneers and puts both his open hands in the air.
Gray turns back toward us, his steps very fast, reaching us in no time.
He touches my elbow, but looks directly at Ambrosia.
Fifteen feet behind him, Roderick climbs on the stage.
Gray says in a desperate voice to my scared friend, “You know what he is—get the hell out of town and don’t come back!”
She nods, eyes watery.
Two tall guys push their way past the DJ table to the end of the balcony and drop down on the stage with two loud thumps. The three of them stand in the center, casting their shadows on the movie screen. The two hired dancers on the pedestals on each side of the screen quickly flee the stage into the crowd.
Gray sees it all, looks to me with a whirlwind in his eyes, and turns away toward the bar. He pushes Lyle and the blonde who were leaning on the bar kissing out of his way. With one motion he jumps to the top of the bar, toppling drinks, spilling their liquid across the old, stained surface. Grabbing two wooden barmaid stools from the other side, he places them atop the bar a few feet apart.
It looks as though the bartender, who earlier blew him a kiss, now asks him what the hell he is doing. Gray says something to her, his face hard as stone. She nods and throws two towels on the bar, beginning to clean up the mess and console the irate customers.
Gray jumps down and starts walking back to me. Lyle follows, shouting after him. Gray ignores him.
In front of us, Gray looks sternly at Ambrosia and says, “Wait for it.”
He turns from her toward the stage.
She calls after him, “For what?”
He doesn’t turn around. His eyes don’t glance at me, but his hand quickly brushes over my wrist as he passes.
Lyle comes barreling up to us, “What the hell—”
Ambrosia holds up her forearm bearing the bloody nail marks and cuts him off loudly, “The guy on the stage did this to me. He’s going after them.”
Lyle stares at her arm. Then looking at Roderick and the two goons on the stage, his face becomes angry. He starts after Gray.
“Lyle, no!” I shout, following behind him with Ambrosia in tow.
Gray motions to the DJ. He makes a fist and flings his hand out as if imitating an explosion. The DJ nods. In a blur, Gray jumps on the stage.
Roderick meets Gray, stopping an inch from him, face to face, just two inches shorter than my hunk, his two friends an inch or two shorter than that, one on each side of him—all three staring harshly at Gray.
Lyle grabs the stage and awkwardly tries to pull himself up, banging his shin on the edge. Without even looking in his direction, Gray reaches down and pulls Lyle to his unsteady feet.
I can hear bits of their conversation as we stand about a foot from the stage, some words buried in the noise of dance, music, and party. People have cleared back a few feet from the stage or left the dance floor altogether.
“You can ta— her trampy friend home with y— and do what you w— to her, but Ambrosia stays.”
Red-faced, Lyle shouts, “She’s no tramp, you son-of-a——she’s a schoolteacher at Riverview High for God’s Sa—”
Still not looking at Lyle, Gray’s hand slaps tightly over Lyle’s mouth—forcing it shut.
“A f——— schoolteacher?” blasts Roderick, laughing without smiling—his lackeys chuckling on cue, “Nice choice, Sim——.”
Gray says something slowly, his face stern. Lifting his hand from Lyle’s mouth, Gray puts both of them together and holds them right in front of Roderick’s face as if praying. The wicked expression that the gesture brings to Roderick’s face is something terrible that I wish I couldn’t see.
Gray says something else I can’t make out, nodding his head yes.
Give about anything to get the bits I can’t hear.
Finally something reaches my aching ears—Roderick saying, “Two minutes.”
He puts his hand right at the bridge of Gray’s nose with two fingers extended.
Lyle still rubs over his mouth as he’s done since Gray released him. Gray grabs him by his shoulders, lifts, and drops him down to the floor.
The bitter-sweet “Voices Carry” begins playing through the speakers.
Gray jumps to the floor, looks at Lyle, and points to the front door. Gray spins Ambrosia around and pushes her toward the bar. He grabs my hand, pulls me in front of him, places his hands on my shoulders and guides me in the same direction. Lyle regains his balance and starts walking.
As we approach the bar, without turning his head all the way around, Gray glances back to the stage. The three remain huddled together, Roderick watching us, the other two with their backs to us, facing Roderick.
Before I realize he’s taken his hands off me, Gray leaps to the bar, grabs the stools, spins round and flings one zinging through the twenty-five feet from bar to the stage, crashing into the back of the man at Roderick’s left, the other stool right behind crashing into the other goon’s head and neck, sending shattered bits of wood into the crowd around the stage. Both goons fall to the ground.
The remaining people rush toward the bar and the front door.
Not looking at his friends who’ve fallen at his feet, Roderick stares at Gray who has leapt back to the floor—standing between me and the stage. Roderick stares with both hatred and a look of crazed amusement at the chaos that has just begun.
The look of amusement flees his face, his upper lip rises like a curtain unveiling hell, fangs shining—he rushes forward, stepping on the back of one of his friends. Sparks and flame shoot the length of the front of the stage, trapping Roderick. The DJ—the last person on the balcony—sprints for the exit, panic screaming across his face.
The flames make a wall of orange and yellow, casting a glow on Gray as he turns to look at me.
Fire rages in the background, but I don’t care if the whole world burns. His azure irises swirl—coursing with emotion. His kiss takes me. Sparks run through my lips. His tongue so intense, desperately trying to tell me the things he no longer has time to say.
Eternity in a moment. Together whole. The same energy racing through both of us.
Damn this world that makes him release me.
I look into his eyes, waiting for the word that will sustain me or break my heart.
His blue eyes quake, yearning to say I’ll come for you, but he pushes his lips tightly shut, holding back the promise. Suddenly, the word falls from his lips.
“Run.”
“Voices Carry” fades away. No sound. Just the hissing of the pyro flickering at the stage.
A hand reaches through the flames, an accusing finger points, flesh burns and singes, and a tense, charred fist forms.
Feeling like I’m fading away with each of his steps, I watch my Gray dream turn from me, possibly for the last time, walking into the fire so I can escape its wrath.