At last…someone has found the tap-in… I can feel the images flitlike shiny blue fish through the warm slush I float in… Someone…asking…so I take the hard metallic ball of facts and I break it open so the someone can see… So slowly I do it…things hard to remember…steely-bright… I saw it all in one instant… I was the only one on duty then with Top Secret, Weapons Grade Clearance, so it all came to me…attacks on both U.S. and USSR…some third party…only plausible scenario…a maniac…and all the counter-force and MAD and strategies options…a big joke…irrelevant…compared to the risk of accident or third parties…that was the first point, and we all realized it when the thing was only an hour old, but then it was too…