Terence woke in time to catch the setting sun. He stretched and witnessed rays cut through the church which holes which were once windows. Lead already lay awake on a nearby pew.
“Time to go?” Lead asked.
“Yeah,” Terence replied.
“Do you think New Pueblo will welcome us?” Lead asked.
“I don’t know.” Terence replied.
“I assumed you’d been there,” Lead said.
“I never said I had. I heard about it from a man I found near Phoenix some years back. He said he was scavenging farm equipment and got himself waylaid by road agents, probably Purgatory guards. I was on an unrelated hunt for a mark and just happened upon him in the desert.
I tried to save him, but he was too far gone with infection and dehydration. The road agents strung him up to a Joshua tree. Its thorns riddled his back. I cut him down, pulled him off the thorns and gave him water. He was too weak to stand. We both knew he was gone for this world. I stayed with him until he died and buried him at the foot of the tree. Before he passed, he spoke of New Pueblo, how they lived the old ways. How only the good are tolerated there, whatever that means. They live outside the shadow of the Church, hidden in the hills and brush. He told me they were south of Tucson, in the fields near Nogales on the border of what used to be Mexico.
I never went. I was occupied with the Church’s business, or by then the undoing of the Church’s business. I was afraid it was a vision, a dying man’s dream. Sometimes I spoke of it to my Dead, my escapees from the Church. A few went searching I’m sure, but I never heard from them. You understand; I have no place to go. The Church will not stop its hunt for me. Utah, California, Colorado, these places are no better than the Zona. I have nowhere to go, so it doesn’t matter what New Pueblo is like. I’ll make a home of whatever I find or die in the effort.”
“What happens if their people don’t accept us?” Lead asked.
“I guess we keep walking. Come what may we don’t have a many choices,” Terence replied.
Terence and Lead strode out the church into dusk. The lepers and virals prepared their early evening fires. They gathered innumerable scrap remains of homes to burn as though slowly cremating their city over the course years and years.
The ex-Preachers found a plastic bag with bottles of water, dried meat, and pomegranates resting against the ornate doors.
The residents of Tucson observed Terence and Lead from their shacks and tents with eyes hidden in shadows. No one acknowledge the ex-Preachers out in the open as they walked through town. Word had gone around that these were dangerous men, possibly men of the Church. They were observed from afar and fitfully ignored in close proximity. The ex-Preachers noticed the difference in civility and understood the cause.
“Come on, lets use what light we can,” Terence said.
He handed the grocery sack to Lead. The ex-Preachers left the camp of the virals and continued on their path.
“The Nineteen,” Terence proclaimed with arms raised.
By dim moonlight the ex-Preachers came upon the line of cars and hangdog signs of the Highway Nineteen. They strode silently through rows of broken relics and artifacts. They moved at a slow, deliberate pace to avoid the sharp edges of crushed automobiles and hooked vines. The night lived in a chorus of locusts and crickets.
“What are you going to do in New Pueblo?” Terence asked.
“I hadn’t thought it through. What are you going to do?” Lead asked.
“I wouldn’t mind teaching school again. I was a terrific history teacher in my better years. If New Pueblo is advanced maybe they have a school, or would like me to build one,” Terence said.
“That sounds nice,” Lead said. “For me, it seems like I’ve been holding a gun for too long, either as a guard or preacher. I don’t want to hold a gun anymore. I don’t want to take life. I don’t want to threaten men. I’d like to try farming,” Lead said.
“They will beat their swords into plowshares and their spears into pruning hooks. Nation will not take up sword against nation, nor will they train for war anymore,” Terence said.
“What’s that?” Lead asked.
“It’s from the Book of Isaiah; it’s a passage about warriors who become farmers, killers who become providers of life by destroying their tools of war and forging tools of prosperity. The passage fits; I think you’ll do well.”
Terence stopped and rummaged through his knapsack.
“Here’s something to get you started.”
He pulled a wood handled kitchen knife from his bag.
“It’s yours anyway. I pulled it from your shoulder in Havasu. I assume a jimson eater put it there.”
Lead raised the blade to the silver moon light. The wound in his shoulder still ached whenever he raised his arm above his neck.
“Thanks,” Lead said.
He slipped the knife into the pocket of his jacket.
“Thanks for saving my life. Thanks for helping me get away from the Church. Even if we don’t get to New Pueblo, I feel better now. I feel like I’ve done the right thing.”
“It’s nice to hear.” Terence said. “I didn’t do it for you, I’m paying a debt I owe the world, but gratitude is nice all the same. A lot people out there are like us, they just want to live. Good people will outlast the rule of the Church. No rule of law lasts for long, and there is nothing that can wholly destroy the good and evil that lives in man. It’s ours to own for the duration of time and whatever exists beyond.”
The ex-Preachers hiked through the evening and made camp at sunrise. They slept in the flat bed of a semi truck with Terence’s reflective tarp as a tent cover. They rose again at sunset and ate what remained of their pomegranates in silence.
“We should make it to the outskirts of Nogales before early morning if we walk through the dawn.” Terence said after they finished their meal.
They continued on Highway Nineteen, accompanied by the taps of their boots and the thirsty chirps of locusts and crickets. They progressed slowly and methodically through hills of rubble. The rubble eventually gave way to somewhat intact blacktop road.
“If no one contacts us we’ll make camp in the ruins of Nogales,” Terence said.
The morning sun revealed dense thickets of trees on both sides of the Highway Nineteen. The highway slimmed from eight to four lanes. Wind blew through the trees, filling the air with twirling purple flowers and seeds gliding on wings. Lead and Terence stopped and stood in flowers like rain. Lead plucked a spinning seed air out of the air.
“It’s beautiful,” he said.
The delicate wings crumpled in his fingers.
“Jacaranda trees; they grow all over these parts. The seeds float to their homes on fairies wings,” Terence said.
“Is that true?” Lead asked.
Terence looked at Lead incredulously.
“Not all of it.”
The ex-Preachers continued down the road through the shower of seeds and flowers.
The rising sun forced Terence and Lead to hike in the shade of the Jacaranda forest. The ex-Preachers searched for signs of active men and civilization, foregoing their usual daytime sleep. Miles ahead a tower of light stood inexplicable. The men walked towards it, though neither speculated as to its cause or material. On approach the source of light became clear; it was a telephone pole displaced to the center a pasture and coated in shards of reflective mirror. It stood fifteen feet over the men and fired the morning’s light in a thousand directions.
“This has to mean something!” Lead said.
Terence observed in thoughtful silence, as was often his way.
The ground erupted into clouds of dust. The ex-Preachers were suddenly surrounded by men coated in mud and dead grass. Terence and Lead turned back to back, Lead gripped the handle of his knife and Terence pulled his Van Cleef from his knapsack.
“Stay your hand, Preacher,” a strong voice commanded.
Six men stood around the ex-Preachers and light tower as though summoned from the very earth. The leader swung a charged crossbow to his shoulder in a rifle stance; another man leveled a rust-speckled revolver to Lead’s face. The wild men reeked of soil and looked more animal than human. Each was brimming with stone-tipped javelins and belt clubs to augment the threat of homemade or antiquated firearms. The leader was ornamented by a string of human ears around his neck. Each ear held a jeweled earring, which twinkled in the sun to match the light tower.
Terence pointed his gun at the ground.
“We’re no Preachers,” Terence said.
“Who are you, then?” The leader asked.
“My name is Terence Wood, this is Lead. Have you heard of me?”
“Aye,” said the leader, “I know of you, there are people in my city who have spoken your name.”
Terence smiled in relief. He released the hammer of his pistol and slipped it into his knapsack.
“Can you take me to New Pueblo?” Terence asked.
He looked to Lead and remembered his omission.
“I’m sorry. Can you take us to New Pueblo?”
The leader lowered his crossbow. His men lowered their arms.
“It is an honor to meet you and any of your company, Terence Wood,” the leader said.
“Please follow us into the trees, we must talk in cover and we have not much time.”
Terence and Lead looked at each other, the unanswered question hung heavy between them. They followed the wild men into the darkness of the forest, the winged seeds crunched under their feet. Two of the wild men stayed in the pasture to collapse the light tower.
“Can you take us to New Pueblo?” Lead asked.
The party stopped. The leader turned to Lead. He peered through the ex-Preacher with eyes like gun metal.
“No,” the leader said. “You cannot enter New Pueblo.”
Terence and Lead moved to speak but were silenced by the leader’s raised hand.
“We’ve been monitoring you since last night. You were followed here. There are two men on foot, armed and armored, three miles up the highway. A third man keeps their horses further back.”
Terence balled his hands into fists.
“Those men are hunting us, you must give us sanctuary!”
“I’m sorry, Mr. Wood. I understand your concern, but you have brought dangerous men to my house. You will not enter New Pueblo in the eyes of Church agents.”
“What do we do, then!?”
Terence punched the side of his leg.
“What do we do!?”
The leader kept his calm demeanor.
“That’s up to you. You are not coming to New Pueblo with followers. My people will not be endangered. You will not lead trackers to New Pueblo. I’m sorry.”
The leader cut the air with his palm and the wild men silently retreated into the forest. The leader grasped Terence’s shoulder.
“I know you are a good man, Terence Wood. I will accept you and any friend of yours into New Pueblo.”
The leader nodded at Lead.
“But to enter here is to enter clean; you must be free of the world outside. Resolve your problems, or leave forever.”
“I understand,” Terence said.
Terence’s face was a red mask of rage. His eyes were murderous.
“We’ll come back clean,” Terence said.
The leader grasped Terence’s wrist, nodded, and then silently vanished into the forest.
Terence walked back to the Highway Nineteen, to the center of the road. He closed his eyes to the afternoon sun and faced north. Terence stood motionless. He opened his eyes and scanned the distance for movement, for signs of trackers.
“What do we do?” Lead asked.
Terence sat in the road and crossed his legs. He pulled his Van Cleef from the knapsack and removed each of its four bullets. He took to polishing a barrel with the scrap of an old shirt.
“What do we do?” Lead asked again.
“I don’t know, Lead! What are our options!?” Terence’s voice was tired, angry. “What are our options? Walk more? Let our bodies run out of moisture while we eat bugs and drink cactus pulp? Wander into New Mexico and pray we don’t stumble through a radioactive zone? I’m an old man, Lead! How much time do I have?
“I don’t know,” Lead whispered.
“I don’t either, so I’m going to sit here and wait for them. And when they come, I’ll convince them to go away, or let them finish me, or add the sin of more killings to my soul!”
Terence tilted sunlight through the four barrels of his pistol. He reloaded the bullets and clicked the barrels back into place. Lead walked from the tree line to the middle of the road. He sat next to Terence.
“You’re welcome to leave,” Terence said. “If we divide they may be forced to divide as well. Even if they don’t split up, one of us could occupy their group while the other gets a head start, maybe a couple hours.”
Lead smiled for the first time in a long time. He saw the futility of their situation. Once more, he was without real choices.
“You know, I don’t really have anywhere else to go.”
Lead took the last piece of jerky from his plastic bag. He set the bag on the street and watched the wind take it away.
“You think we’re going to die here?” Lead asked.
“I’d say there’s a pretty good chance of it.” Terence said.
Terence’s lips drew tight and colorless. “I guess here’s as good a place to end as any.”
Lead chewed his jerky. The salt stung the malnutrition blossoms in his mouth. The wind slid the grocery bag down the street; winged seeds took to the air again and floated past the ex-Preachers.
“If you could choose, where would you die?” Lead asked.
“That’s easy,” Terence said. “The day the tsunamis hit San Diego, when I lost my wife and son. I wish I had taken the day off from work. I’d wake up first and watch them rise. I would surprise them with breakfast at the Park Café, near the zoo. Christine loved their banana and brown sugar pancakes, which she would have ordered and shared with Johnny. I would have ordered eggs over medium with wheat toast and coffee with cream and sugar. We’d eat breakfast together and walk home. The café was only a block away, but it was a lush, grassy part of town. It’d be raining, so Christine and I would be holding each other while we walked under my umbrella. Johnny liked the rain, so he’d be splashing puddles in his blue galoshes, and we’d have to towel him off when we got back to the apartment. Christine and I would get settled in, turn on the television, and share a glass of shiraz. You know, I haven’t found a single intact bottle of shiraz in all my journeys since the Storms. We’d share a glass and we wouldn’t talk. We’d just hold each other and watch Johnny play on the carpet, and let the television talk to itself. Sometime near noon, we’d all go to my king sized bed and lay down for a nap. I’d fall asleep holding Christine and Johnny and the three of us would drift into the oblivion together. We would never wake, or if we did, it’d be together in the hereafter.”
Terence took a deep breath and slowly let it out.
“I should have gone with them and skipped all this fucking nonsense.”
Terence rose to his feet and yelled to the north.
“Did you hear that!? This is all fucking nonsense! The Church, the Zona, the Preachers and goodmen, sins and laws, it’s all fucking nonsense!”
Terence sat back down in the street. He shoved his pistol back into the knapsack and rubbed his sleeve across his nose. He looked self-consciously at Lead.
“Sorry,” Terence said.
“Where would you die if you had the choice?”
Lead was thoughtful for long minutes. His mind drifted in the formation of his narrative.
“I think I would have died with my mom in the fugee camp. Not how she died. She died burning with plague and seeing men and shapes that were not there. I would have liked to have died with her, but with me having the pneumonia. A healer in Flagstaff once told me dying of pneumonia is like slipping into a pool of warm water. That sounds alright, as far as dying goes.
Maybe I should have died in Vegas. I’ve seen things that I wish I’d never seen on the road, crucifixion, butchery, men feeding on men. The fugee camp was a horror show too, but I had never been part of anything as ugly as Vegas. Everything changed with Vegas. If I’d been closer to downtown, the nukes would have dusted me. I imagine that’s a relatively quick and painless way to go.”
“I like my answer better.” Terence said with a smile.
“Yeah, I like your answer better,” Lead said.
Terence scavenged the trees for dry wood and tinder. He dug a fire pit between slabs of asphalt.
“Do you think they’ll come tonight?” Lead asked.
“I don’t know. They’ll come at us at night; I just don’t know which night.” Terence dumped his twigs in the pit and went to collect more.
Eliphaz observed the ex-Preachers with his field glasses. He handed the glasses to his assistant.
“They know about us. The wood Indians must have tipped them off,” Eliphaz said. “I suppose there’ll be little surprise in our confrontation.”
The assistant placed the field glasses back in their case. He knew better than to speak to Eliphaz.
Time shifted in its constant worldly crawl. The sun drifted behind the trees and blessed the earth with color and receded to darkness, leaving the ex-Preacher’s campfire to take up the burden of providing light. Terence and Lead sat in front of the fire and waited. The moon had yet to make its appearance and the darkness outside of their fire was absolute. The ex-Preachers sat in silence, listening for the inevitable.
Lead woke to the sound of gravel popping underfoot; he suddenly realized he’d been asleep. Exhaustion and the stillness of night and the hypnotic hum of locusts had turned his body against his will. He had drifted off and now the camp fire was burning low. Danger was present.
Lead scanned the darkness for the source of the noise. He saw Terence slumped over onto the street, the firelight reflected off the tarp wrapped about his body. Terence breathed the shallow breath of sleep. Lead heard another pop from the darkness. He reached into his jacket pocket and gripped the handle of his knife.
A chunk of asphalt whistled in flight and struck Lead above the eye; he yelled as a camouflaged soldier leapt out of the darkness and tackled Lead to the ground.
Terence threw off his tarp, grabbed the soldier by his collar, and yanked him off of Lead. The soldier whirled around, pulling the cord of his Van Cleef. Terence caught his wrist and pressed the barrels of his gun against the young man’s nose.
“Let that Cleef hang, Crusader,” Terence said.
The young Crusader dropped his cord.
“Raise your hands and turn around,” Terence commanded.
Terence spun the soldier and pressed his gun against the back of his head. Clapping sounded from the darkness.
“Congratulations,” Elipaz said from cover. “My assistant assumed Lead would have put up the better fight. He doesn’t understand, when attacking two marks you must spend more time assessing the situation. Lead, though younger, was obviously asleep until a minute ago Terence, though older, was obviously faking sleep and waiting to ambush us. The older man was craftier, and thus should have been taken first.”
Eliphaz strode into the edge of light. He was dressed simply in a flak vest and camouflage pants. Both hands gripped a Browning Hi-Power. Terence turned his hostage to face the Crusader.
“I’m willing to barter if you are, Crusader.” Terence said from behind the assistant.
“I do not want to shoot your man, but I will.”
The Eliphaz pointed his gun at Lead, who was on the ground clutching the gash over his eyes, blinded by blood.
“I don’t want to kill your man either, old Preacher,” Eliphaz said. There was joy in his voice, Eliphaz relished confrontation.
“We’re at a stand-off. One man gets to shooting and none us of will live,” Terence said. “You turn back, everyone here lives.”
“You assume too much, old Preacher,” Eliphaz replied. “I see things differently. I’m holding a Browning loaded with armor piercing shells. You’re holding an Engholm four-pipe. Assuming your gun is not a toy replica, they haven’t made one of those since the eighteen hundreds. You might shoot my assistant in the head, or you might blow up your hand, or you might misfire. Even if you’ve taken care of that gun, and it was in firing condition, I’d be shocked if it was even loaded.”
Eliphaz took one hand off of his pistol and reached into his backpack. He pulled out a blanket and threw it on the ground. He then pulled a bundle of yellow nylon rope and tossed it next to the blanket.
“You know the routine. I present the question to both of you, blanket or rope? I’ll see you to Purgatory or I’ll see you to your grave.”
“It doesn’t have to…” Terence started when Eliphaz fired his gun at the assistant.
Two rounds tore completely through the young man and pierced Terence’s stomach and chest. The assistant yelped in confusion and collapsed on the road. Lead jumped to his feet at the sound of pistol fire. He pulled the knife out of his jacket and lunged for Eliphaz. The Crusader twisted into a fighter’s stance. Lead drove his knife into Eliphaz’s forearm. The Crusader hissed and clubbed Lead in the face with his pistol. Lead fell to all fours. Eliphaz clubbed Lead again. He collapsed in a heap.
Before blacking out, Lead looked into Terence’s yellow-blue eyes. They showed the embers of the dying campfire. Terence’s breath was short and labored, his lips streaked red. His hands clutched wounds that bled out into the dirt and sand and road. Eliphaz put his knee on Lead’s back and pulled his arms behind him; rough nylon rope wrapped around Lead’s hands and wrists.
“Like I said, old man. You assumed too much.”
Eliphaz pulled Lead’s knots tight. Terence struggled to breath. Blood roared in his ears like waves against rocks. Terence closed his eyes and saw things that were not there, or perhaps had always been. On the Highway Nineteen, outside of New Pueblo, Terence Wood took his last breath.
“You shot me!” the assistant screamed in panic. His hands gripped his wounds, his fatigues showed dark and wet with blood.
“Boo hoo,” Eliphaz said sarcastically. “Maybe if you’d done a better job, I wouldn’t have had to shoot you!”
Eliphaz gagged Lead with rope.
“Say a prayer for healing and another for forgiveness. If God can find it in his heart to forgive a shitty Crusader, maybe you won’t have to die of blood loss.”
Eliphaz finished tying Lead and struck him again with his pistol. It was unnecessary. Lead was already unconscious.