It had been perhaps a chime, if that, since he had last looked, but there was nothing left alive. The body parts of the men and the horses had been mixed together into one red jellylike mass. It covered the ground evenly around the fountain. In places blood had pooled in a declivity in the meat, and the blood sparkled in the sun.
It was hard to imagine that men and horses had been here and been killed. Looking at this strange mess, too horrible for the mind to make sense of, it seemed so much more logical that they had just vanished, somehow, and this… stuff… had been transported out of some other reality to take their place.
Then Cilarnen saw a hand, perfect and unmistakable, still clutching a cavalry sword, and it took all of his training to hold his emotions at bay.
He managed.
Master Tocsel would have approved.
His father
No.
Cilarnen forced himself to watch, to note every detail, to record all he saw and not to care. Not yet. Strength, insight, dispassion these made a High Mage. He would master himself. He would master his Gift.
For the good of all the land.
The Demons were playing amid the… mess, jumping up and down in the remains to see the blood splash, just as a child would play in a mud puddle.
They thought it was funny, Cilarnen realized, with a distant sense of discovery. They thought mortality was amusing, they thought pain and death and suffering was entertaining. It was obvious from their behavior that they didn't think of the humans who had died here today as enemies, nor did they even grant them the basic dignity that the Wildlander farmers gave to the animals they slaughtered for their dinner tables.
No.
The longer he watched, the more obvious it was to Cilarnen that the Demons thought that anybody who died was simply stupid. Because if they weren't stupid, they'd be both immortal and invulnerable, as Demons were. And obviously the feelings of something stupid enough to get itself killed weren't even worth considering.
He felt bile rise in his throat, and swallowed hard, willing himself to have the detachment he needed to maintain the spell.
Control. Detachment. Power.
One of the four that had been in the houses stalked out into the square. It had resumed its own form.
It wore a human skin like a cape.
It looked upward, to where the Glyph of Far-Seeing was. And smiled, baring long bloody fangs.
It knew I was here all along they all knew! They wanted me to watch or let me watch because because
It was, at last, too much. With a cry of horror Cilarnen struck out at his worktable, knocking it sideways. His wand, a jar of incense, the small brazier, the Elvenware bowl, were all swept from its surface. The vision vanished like smoke as the bowl spun to the ice. The sound it made when it hit and shattered had a horrible flat finality, like snapping bone.
The terrible spectacle Cilarnen had forced himself to watch unfeelingly came cascading back into his mind, and this time he did not have the needs of the spell to protect him. He staggered out of the ice-pavilion, and the unaltered light of day struck his eyes like a blow. The normalcy and familiarity of his surroundings should have been soothing, after what he had watched happen in Nerendale, but they were not. Cilarnen looked at the wide expanse of gray sky above, the luminous white of the untouched snowfield below, the green-shading-to-black of the forest's edge in the distance, and he could see none of these things as themselves, only as what they were not.
Not the sky filled with Demons.
Not the ground soaked with blood, covered with fragments of men and horses, each piece reminding him, as if a story were being spoken aloud in his head, of how some living thing had died in agony at the hands of Demons.
Not the houses that had become killing-pens for the last of the villagers, who had died at the hands of those they thought were their own kin.
Knowing these things at all was like poison. To know the Demons had let him see them…
It was as if he had been a willing participant in what They had done.
Cilarnen fell to his knees in the snow, gagging. Of course he had fasted in preparation for the spell, so there was nothing in his stomach to bring up, but that only made things worse. He felt as if while he had been watching the Demons, somehow They had been looking into him as well. He felt unclean Tainted and try as he might, he could not spew up that foulness, make it a thing outside himself.
He felt the old pain return behind his eyes as he scrubbed at his face with snow. Tainted. Somehow he was Tainted, in a way none of them could find the answer to. No one could see it not Shalkan, not Vestakia, but more than ever Cilarnen was certain that somewhere deep inside himself there was a trap cunningly laid by Master Anigrel when he had sent Cilarnen's Magegift to sleep.
The thought dissolved before he could fully grasp it, swept away by exhaustion and urgency. The others would want to know all that he knew, and he must tell them immediately.
He forced himself to his feet, shaking with cold and everything he had forced himself not to feel while the spell was running. Tears froze on his face as he stumbled across the snow toward his sleeping pavilion. He would need his warmest clothes for the walk back to the main camp.
* * * * *
MENERCHEL and Hindulo were the ones that found him. Hindulo had scented strange magic on the wind, which was what had brought the two of them so far from their assigned patrol area in the first place. The chestnut unicorn lowered his golden horn to touch the fallen body in the snow experimentally.
"This is not good," Hindulo pronounced, as Cilarnen stirred only sluggishly. "We need him."
"Fool of a human and a child!" Menerchel burst out in exasperation, going to his knees beside Cilarnen and lifting Cilarnen to his feet. The boy blinked at him groggily, obviously unaware of how close he had come to death out here in the cold. Cold stole one's wits, encouraging even adults to believe that they could lie down for a few minutes rest in the snow and arise safely. "Though even children know better than to wander in the snow at night," Menerchel added.
"Proper children do not come from the Mage City, where they do not have weather," Hindulo reminded his rider.
"I wasn't wandering," Cilarnen protested. His voice was hoarse and slurred. "I must see Redhelwar. Or Idalia."
"An odd selection of choices," Menerchel observed. "But Idalia you must certainly see. And quickly, I think."
"Come I shall carry the two of you as close to the main camp as I can, and you will take him the rest of the way. Be sure and find out what he thought was so important that he forgot everything he'd learned about weather," Hindulo added.
"I can hear you," Cilarnen said, sounding faintly irritated. It was still difficult to understand his speech, but Menerchel could tell he was making a great effort to be understood. "I could tell you now, if you like." He took a deep breath and began to cough.
Menerchel picked him up and set him on Hindulo's back, then mounted up behind him. Cilarnen slumped forward against the unicorn's neck before he could stop himself. He struggled to sit upright; the warmth Hindulo radiated was enough to thaw him to the point his teeth began to chatter violently.
His shivering passed after a few minutes, and Cilarnen began to talk, his voice stronger now, and clear. His speech was as blunt as a sword-cut, but Menerchel was not offended. It would be foolish to hold Mages especially young human Mages to the same standards of conduct as his own people. Different peoples had different customs, after all. And Mages were different from everyone.
"There is there was a village called Nerendale in the Delfier Valley, where the Mountainfolk come came to trade with the City. The They came there, and killed them all. And the men and the horses They took the Mages away with Them Juvelira and Thekinalo I knew them I worked with them at home… " The boy's voice faltered, catching on a sob.
"How could you see this?" Hindulo demanded, not pausing in his easy trot across the surface of the snow. "The Wildmages have not been able to see what goes on in the City."
"I am no Wildmage. The High Magick does what I tell it to do," Cilarnen said, his voice going hard. But Menerchel could feel his body shaking beneath the heavy cloak with something that was more than cold.
"No further," Hindalo said regretfully, stopping.
The edge of the main camp lay just ahead. In the darkness, the pavilions that had their lanterns lit glowed as if they themselves were enormous colored lanterns, and the sound of laughter and even music could be heard across the distance. Near the camp the deep loose snow had been cleared from the ground so that the Centaurs and the various mounted units could drill; what remained was hard-packed and easy to walk upon.
"Menerchel will wish to know if he must carry you," the unicorn added for Cilarnen's benefit, tossing his head.
"I can walk!" Cilarnen said instantly. "But… I will be grateful if you will come with me, Menerchel. And I thank you both for being there tonight."
"It is a small matter," Menerchel said. "Do not think of it."