But for some reason, I knew she would understand. It took me a moment to comprehend that the tears that were now running down Diane's face were because of Nate.
"Oh, Penny, I'm so sorry. that's horrible! You trusted htm, and he. Penny" — she made sure I was looking at her — "you did nothing wrong."
Although so much time had passed, I hadn't completely forgotten this Diane. the Diane who always knew the right words to say, the Diane who supported me no matter what. this Diane was the reason we had been best friends.
I tried to smile. "Yeah, well, I'm not making that mistake again, ever. I've decided that I'm basically done. You know, with guys." I tried to laugh, so she wouldn't think I was mental. "I just.. I'm sick of it all. Look at us, both in tears — and for what? Because we decided to trust a guy. Big mistake- I actually formed a little club."
"A club?" Diane leaned in. "What club? Who's in it?"
"Me, myself and I — the Lonely Hearts Club. I bet you think I'm pathetic huh?"
Diane grabbed my hand from across the counter. "Not at all. I think you've been through a lot, and you've got to do what you need to do to get through it. if only you would've thought of this years ago, imagine the trouble you would have saved both of us.
But., there's only one problem." Diane started to smile.
"What?"
"You can't really have a club with one person."
I laughed. "Well, I know that, but. ."
"So how about adding another member?"
I looked at her in shock. "What?"
"Penny!" Diane wiped away her tears and looked genuinely happy. "Do you really think the next thing I want to do is date again? I'm so done, too. I just need to figure out what's next for me. Not me and Ryan. ME."
A surge of excitement rippled through me. "that's exactly what I've been thinking!"
"You have to let me in. I know I have to earn your trust back, and I will. But for now, can you at least consider forgiving me?"
She reached her hand out to me. I didn't even hesitate.
Now, there were two of us.
WHEN I LEFT MY DINNER WITH Diane, I felt truly happy and hopeful for the first time in weeks. Having a partner in crime, especially one who was also going through a breakup, was exactly what I needed, I reached for my phone and saw that I had three texts. the first two were from Tracy: Has she started crying yet? if she does start sobbing, take a picture for me! And the third was from Nate: I'm going to keep txting you until you reply.
I ignored Nate and called Tracy.
"Spill it," she answered.
I tried to fill her in, but she wouldn't let me get a word in edgewise.
She kept making fun of Diane, which started to frustrate me.
"Tracy, stop it." My voice started to rise. "You know, this has been hard on her. Imagine what she's going through. She feels lost — " "Oh, please," Tracy interrupted. "Do you hear yourself? Next thing you know, you're going to be inviting her to eat lunch with us."
Dead silence, Tracy sighed. "Are you kidding me? Please tell me this is a joke."
"Tracy." I spoke slowly, choosing my words carefully. "Everybody is being really mean to her. Consider it an act of charity."
"I already gave at the office," Tracy deadpanned.
"Please. For me?" I didn't even try to hide the desperation in my voice.
"Fine, But you owe me."
I got off the phone with her before she had a chance to change her mind.
"You do realize that I am going to kill you for this?" Tracy reminded me for the fourteenth time as we headed to lunch the next day.
"Just please give her a chance," I begged.
"Highly unlikely. I don't know — call me crazy, Pen, but I'm just not very excited about watching my best friend get used."
"I know what I'm doing." I headed toward a small table in the corner In case there was any hair-pulling or biting. I told Morgan and Kara it was better for them to eat elsewhere today; I didn't want to make them an accessory to any violence that ensued.
"Yeah, I think you said the same thing at the start of the summer."
I froze in place.
Tracy grabbed my hand. "I'm so sorry, Pen — that was an awful thing to say."
I tried to shake the thought from my mind. This was going to be hard enough without having to think about. . him.
"Just please, Tracy. For me. Be nice."
Tracy sat down and didn't say a word.
"Hey, guys." Diane sat down at our table. "thanks so much for having me!"
Tracy forced out a smile.
"Oh!" Diane set a small cardboard box on the table. "And as a thank-you. . cupcakes!" Diane placed two fancy cupcakes on the table, "thanks." I grabbed the bigger one and started licking the pink frosting. I glared at Tracy.
"Yeah, thanks."
Diane beamed, probably because that was the first positive thing Tracy had ever said to her. "You know, Penny, after last night, I feel so much better. Swearing off boys was the best decision ever. the Club is going to be awesome."
Uh-oh.
Tracy looked between us. "What club?"
"Um, you see. ." this wasn't going to be good. "You know how I pretty much declared that all guys are scum?"
Tracy rolled her eyes. "Yeah."