It’s Friday, and I am glad to be out of that damn office and in my car, driving home. I am so preoccupied with sex, and dick, and having my guts dug out that I almost run a red light. I slam on my brakes, clutching my chest. I can smell burning rubber.
“Whew, that shit was close,” I say aloud, wondering which one of my sex charms I want to come through to fuck me tonight. I already know I’m not in the mood for Mitchell’s drunk ass. Besides, he’s on the verge of being terminated early from his pussy and ass-eating duties for coming to my house unannounced the other night. I don’t feel like seeing Wade or Jamil. And I’m not up for Garrett or Ian either—particularly not Ian.
I think for a minute, then decide to call Nelson, a dude I met a few months ago at Livingston Mall. He’s a six-foot-four, two-hundred-twenty-five-pound, milk-chocolate man with a wide nose, thick neck, and big, round brown eyes. He’s not officially one of my sex charms since I haven’t fucked him yet, but I promise you, if he performs as good as he looks, he will be before daybreak.
He picks up on the third ring. “Hello?”
“Hello, Nelson?” I ask, not sure if the voice on the other end is his or not since this is my first time calling him. My phone number flashes as private, so he will not know who I am. I never allow a man to have my phone number until after I ride his dick at least once—and then, only if I decide to fuck him again.
“Speaking,” he answers. “Who’s this?”
“It’s Janaye…”
Don’t give me that look. I know that’s not my name, geesh! I’ll explain later. But, for now, simply go with the flow. Oh, alright, already! Janaye is my middle name, and one of my aliases. So, depending on the nigga I’m fucking at the time, it may be Janaye or Briana, another alias. That’s who I am to them. Please. Why would I give any of them my real name, especially when I know they’re creeping? Now when a chick does try to check for me, she’s looking for either one of the two, not Bianca, trust me. The ones who claim to be unattached, well, I take my chances and give ’em my real name. And that depends on whether or not I think they’re trying to run game on me.
“…I’m not sure if you remember me,” I continue, “but we met at the mall a few months ago.”
“Oh, yeah,” he says, sounding excited. “I know who you are. You were the one talking real slick that day. Had my dick all hard ’n shit. What’s good with you? I didn’t think you were gonna call.”
“I misplaced your number,” I lie. Hell, men do it all the time. “I was cleaning my car out this morning and found it stuck on the side of my passenger seat so I decided to hit you up to see what you been up to.”
“Oh, that’s wassup. For a minute there I thought you mighta got scared or something.”
I laugh. “No, baby, I’m a grown woman. I don’t scare easy.”
“Don’t start talking too fast. I don’t wanna have you running from me.”
“And I don’t run easy. You got me confused, big daddy.”
“Oh, yeah…is that so? So, what you getting into tonight?”
“The question is: What do I want getting into me tonight.”
“Oh, it’s like that? I can dig it. So tell me, then. What do you want in you tonight?”
“A stiff dick,” I say, getting right down to business. I have no time to waste going around in circles. Either you want to fuck or you don’t. “Can you handle that?”
“Oh, word? That’s what it is. You think you ready for me?”
“Neeegro,” I say, laughing. “I was born ready.”
“Yeah, right,” he replies, laughing with me. “I betcha can’t take no dick.”
“Think what you like, baby. You’ll have to get up a little earlier to get me to fall into that mind trap. Not gonna happen. Make no mistake, I’m skilled at what I do,” I tell him, veering off onto Route 280 west. “You can savor on that for a minute, then decide in what area you believe I’m talking about.”
“Yeah, okay,” he responds. “So when you tryna get this stiff dick?”
“Tonight,” I answer, smiling to myself. For some reason, tonight I’m in the mood to role play. I want to pretend I am having an anonymous pump and dump session with a thick, chocolate dick. I want this faceless man to walk in and find me naked on my bed, on my knees, face down, all wet and ready. There’ll be no words exchanged. In my fantasy, he comes in, drops his pants, rubs his dick up and down the crack of my ass, then slides it into my hot hole and fucks me. He pounds and pumps away until he dumps his thick load of cum deep inside me. Then he gets up, zips up, and leaves me with his nut dripping out of my aching pussy without me ever seeing his face. But in reality, he will pull his dick out of me, remove his condom and toss it on the side of the bed next to me, then walk out.
I tell Nelson this, and it gets quiet on the other end. For a moment, I think he’s hung up on me. “Hello, you still there?”
“Yeah, I’m still here. I’m taking it all in ’cause you really fucked me up with that. Whew! I ain’t never heard no shit like that before. I see you a real freak.”
I grin, imagining him squeezing and pulling at his dick. “You got a problem with that?” I ask coyly.
“Nah, baby. Not at all.” He pauses, I’m sure to think over what I have said. I allow him his moment. “So, let me get this straight,” he says, making sure he has heard me clearly. “You want me to walk up in your spot and take the pussy from the back without saying shit to you, then bounce.”
“Exactly.”
He chuckles. “Damn, you’re really something else.”
“And there’ll be a face mask on the glass table next to the door for you to put on. Now tell me. Exactly how much dick you holding?”
He laughs. “Eight and three quarter inches.”
“Is it thick?”
“Most definitely,” he states.
“Mmmm,” I moan softly. “And are these real or imagined inches?”
“I’m real with mine, baby.”
“We’ll see,” I say, speeding past a confused-assed driver who seems to enjoy riding the brakes. I hate that shit!
“Are you cut? And do you know how to use it?”
“No doubt.”
“To which question?”
“Both,” he says, laughing again. “Damn you ask a lot of questions. Are you taking a survey or something?”
“That’s right, I ask questions. Inquiring minds want to know. And if a man can’t answer them honestly, then I ain’t beat to fuck with him. So if you can’t get with that, then you can’t get any of this tight pussy. You dig?”
“I can dig it,” he quickly says. “Ask all the questions you want, baby.”
“Good. So…are you down with role-playing with me or what?”
“Yeah, it’s all good. So that pussy’s tight, huh?”
“Yep; clamps around a cock like a vise.”
“Oh word? What time you want me to come through?”
“At exactly nine-thirty. Not, nine-thirty-one; not nine-forty. Nine-thirty on the dot. If not, then forget about coming. I’m not the kind of chick who waits on a man or his dick, so if you can’t be on time, then let me know now.”
“Nah, nine-thirty is cool. Let me know where you rest at.”
After I give him further instructions, and the directions, I hang up.
On the rest of my ride home, I anticipate tonight’s adventure. The whole idea of role-playing causes me to twitch in my seat and my pussy to overheat. As I stop at another light, I start to fantasize about being gang banged; screwed every which way until my hot cunt is sore and tore open. Until my asshole aches and burns. Until my lips are chafed, jaws locked, and my throat is raw and overflowing with cum. Yes, I am being driven and ridden like the Orient Express. I find myself going from one extreme to the other. Then my fantasy turns to having a man on his knees with his dick and balls hanging, and I have his dick in my hand stroking it while I’m licking the crack of his ass. Not that I’d really do it, ’cause some men don’t know how to wipe their asses right. But at this very moment, my overactive imagination takes me there. I close my eyes, bringing the act into clear view. There’s something about licking a man’s ass from the back while stroking his dick that gets me off every time.
A blue Acura in back of me blows its horn, snapping me away from my thoughts. I speed off, visualizing myself walking up to a complete stranger (well, hell, I do that now). Anyway, I walk up to him and beg him to let me suck his sweet, black dick. When he says I can, I grab him by the crotch, rubbing and kneading the front of his pants, feeling him stiffen. Then I drop to my knees, unzip his pants with my teeth, and pull out his dick, sucking and licking and kissing all over it right in the middle of Times Square while other men surround us, pulling their dicks out and jerking off, watching and lusting, for a feel of this deep, pulsating throat. And as I’m gulping down my stranger’s dick and swallowing his thick nut, they all cum in unison, spraying their man cream all over the sidewalk. I get up off my knees and strut off, swinging my hips and licking my lips, with a beautiful smile on my face.
The sound of my ringing cell startles me and snatches me from my series of fantasies.
“Hello,” I say into the receiver.
“Hey, beautiful, how’s my favorite sis doing?”
The voice has me grinning from ear to ear. It’s my oldest brother, Terrance, calling from San Diego. Terrance is an eighteen-year veteran with the San Diego Police Department. He’s forty-one, married, and has three children. “Fool, I’m your only sis,” I say, laughing.
“Well, I’m glad you realize that. I was starting to wonder if I even had a sister. Now why haven’t we heard from you?”
Oh my God. I realized it’s been over a month since I’ve spoken to him. I’ve been so busy with work and getting my back knocked out that I’ve completely forgotten to reach out to him. Of all my brothers, I’m the closest to him. To me, Terrance is—next to my father—the epitome of what a man should be. He is hard-working, compassionate, and deeply devoted to his wife and children. Interestingly, they say a woman can always tell how a man will treat her by watching how he treats his mother and sisters. Well, I agree that may be the case to some extent. However, that doesn’t always mean shit. My six brothers all treat me and my mother like queens and will do anything in the world for us. But when it comes to women in the streets, three of ’em (Tyrell, Lamont, and Trent) treat women any kind of way, cursing them out, putting them out on the highway, sleeping with their friends, doing all types of crazy shit to ’em. And these dumb chicks come back for more. Humph.
Then there are Terrance and Tyler, who are happily married and give their wives the utmost respect. My youngest brother, Thomas, who’s thirty-one, has four kids with three different baby mamas (who all have men) and he’s still sleeping with all three of them. They’ve let him know he can hit it anytime he wants it, no matter who they’re with. And on top of that he has a chick whom he lives with. Now what kind of shit is that?
Basically, I have four brothers who have some serious issues when it comes to women and commitments. So you can’t always go by what you see, believe that. But Terrance is definitely an example to the rule.
“I’m so sorry. I’ve been meaning to call you, but things at work have been keeping me busy, and I keep getting sidetracked. How have you been? How are my nieces and nephew doing?”
“We’re all doing good, thanks for asking. How ’bout you? What’s been up with you? I don’t need to fly out there to choke anyone up, do I?”
I laugh, knowing he’d be out here in a heartbeat if he thought some man was trying to disrespect, or God forbid, hurt me. If my father didn’t kill him first, Terrance would be next in line to put him out of his misery. Followed by my brother Tyler, who’s the second oldest. He’s a New Jersey state trooper, which is how I met Garrett.
Anyway, growing up in a house with all boys definitely had its advantages. Not only did they spoil me, but they were extremely protective of me. Sometimes it was suffocating, but I know it was all out of love for me.
And the beauty of growing up with brothers is that you get to listen, learn, and experience the inner workings of a man firsthand. See, my brothers taught me very early how a man is supposed to treat a woman, and how he shouldn’t. There are some things that they instilled in me that have stuck with me through life, such as: Never let a man put his hands on you, never let him disrespect you, never let him lay up on you, never fuck with a man you have to clean up, and if he’s a liar or cheater, get rid of his ass. And I live by that.
The disadvantage of having them around growing up was that they were always cock-blocking me. A sista couldn’t even get her fuck on. At one time, I had two brothers in college, three in high school, and one in junior high, so I couldn’t get away with shit. If a dude even thought about looking at me, they’d yoke him up and beat him down. So dudes weren’t trying to check for a chick with six overprotective brothers. And the ones who were bold enough to try ’n holla, I had to sneak in through my bedroom window, then hide in my closet or under my bed until it was safe to fuck. The crazy thing is the first guy who split this pussy open was my brother Lamont’s best friend, Derek.
Every night around eleven, I’d open my window so he could climb through it. He’d come in, take off all his clothes, and fuck me with his long, fat, black dick. He was eighteen, and I was fourteen. Yes, I was hot in the ass. I had been fingering and rubbing my pussy for almost two years and knew what it was like to experience an orgasm. But the first time he spread open my legs and kissed the inner part of my smooth brown thighs, then pulled apart my slick pussy lips and softly blew inside of me, forcing warm currents to flow throughout my body, I knew I’d never be the same. He slid two long, thick fingers inside my tight pussy, twisting and stroking the inside of my walls, causing a fire to ignite within me, preparing me for his entry before climbing between my legs and pushing the head of his thick dick between the hungry, wet, shivering lips of my pussy. He entered me, stretched me—forced himself into my tightness, inch by inch, introducing me to a pleasantly intense, painfully sweet, more satisfying orgasmic experience than I ever knew was possible.
Over a two year period, everything sexual I had witnessed down in my basement watching my brothers, I performed and practiced with him. It was there on my canopy bed that I experienced the rites of passage into freakhood. And I’ve been chasing dick ever since.
“No, I’m good,” I say, pulling up into my garage, getting out of the car, then gathering my things. I open the door leading into the kitchen, then deactivate the alarm. “Just working, and keeping the peace. How’s the weather out there?” I drop my keys and purse on the granite island, then remove my heels. My damn feet are throbbing. I let out a sigh.
“It’s beautiful. Eighty-degrees with deep blue skies. What’s the weather like there?”
For October it’s been seasonably warm, almost like spring. And I’m glad ’cause I can’t stand it when it’s too hot, and hate it even more when it’s cold. “Gorgeous. It was sixty-five degrees today.”
He laughs. “Yeah, well too bad it’s not year round.”
“Yeah, yeah, yeah,” I snap playfully, “rub it in my face, show off.”
“Well, whenever you ready to trade in that cold weather for beautiful San Diego, you know we’d love to have you. And you know Mom and Dad would be thrilled.”
I smile, knowing they’d love nothing more than if I packed up and moved out there. I miss my parents, dearly, but I know I’d miss the east coast even more. There’s nothing like that east cock.
“I know ya’ll would. But you know I’d be bored out of my mind way out there. I need to be able to have access to the hustle and bustle of the city life,” I state, going upstairs to my bedroom, then removing my clothes. I’m hoping to take a quick nap before Nelson gets here and digs my guts out. I glance at the clock. It’s already quarter to six. “Besides, if I moved out there, you’d have no reason to miss me.”
“I’d always miss you, baby. And you being here would give me more reason to spend time with you.”
“Awwww,” I say, smiling. “I love you.”
“I love you, too.”
“So, how’s life as a detective?” I ask, running water into the tub, then pouring in bath crystals. I can’t wait to put on my Conya Doss CD, lie back in the tub and relax.
“It’s great. I couldn’t have asked for a more rewarding experience. But, I’m looking forward to retiring in two more years. I’ve been thinking about teaching a criminal justice course at San Diego State.”
“And you’d be great at it,” I say. “I’m so proud of you.”
“I’m proud of you too. You know Cherelle asked about you the other day,” he says, causing the hairs on the back of my neck to stand up. I cringe at the sound of his wife’s name. “She wanted to know if I had heard from you.” Yeah, I’ll bet she did, I think, rolling my eyes. Fucking bitch!
When Terrance and Cherelle first got married, I really thought she was the one for him. And on the surface she was. She appeared really grounded and into my brother, but everything isn’t always what it seems. ’Cause that bitch showed me who she really is. And the one thing I learned in life is that when somebody shows you who they are, that is exactly who the fuck they are.
And, last year while I was in San Diego visiting my family, that ho did exactly that. She dragged me out to a male revue down in the Gas Lamp district at one of the many dance spots on the strip. Anyway, I’m not really into watching male dancers, strippers or whatever else you wanna call them. But she is, so whatever floats her boat. So, we’re in this club, and she’s drinking and drinking and getting looser by the moment; then somehow, she gets pulled up on the stage and allows this dancer to practically fuck her on the floor, and when he lifted her up and acted like he was fucking her standing up, she had the audacity to lick his damn face. I was too damn through! But I kept my cool, ’cause I’m thinking, “Okay, she’s simply letting her hair down a bit. No biggie.” The whole time something told me to take a damn picture of her ass, but against my better judgment, I didn’t.
Finally, around midnight, we leave that spot and go to another place to dance. Well, this trick starts grinding and kissing all over this dude whom she apparently knew. Or maybe she didn’t; who knows? The one thing I did know is that he had his hands all over her ass and she was fucking disrespecting my brother behind his back and all up in my face, and I didn’t like it one bit. And when it was time to go, the bitch said she was going to ride with dude. I snapped! Drinks or no damn drinks, this went waaaay beyond letting your hair down as far as I was concerned. I snatched her ass and dragged her to the car, and reminded her drunk ass, that she was a fucking married woman.
Long story short, we get back in her car, and she’s too drunk to drive so that means I’m doing the driving. Well, lo and behold, this heifer starts feeling on my titties and trying to stick her hands between my legs, almost causing me to swerve off the damn road. I had to actually fight this bitch off of me while trying to keep my eyes on the road and one hand on the steering wheel at the same time. I couldn’t believe her ass. This freaky bitch was saying shit like, “Let me eat your pussy…I bet you got some good pussy…You need to let me rock your box…I won’t tell if you won’t…c’mon, let me taste that sweet pussy…”
Needless to say, I was shocked, appalled and too fucking through. The problem is, I never told my brother about it. And it has been killing me ’cause I know how much he loves her. He’s a damn good husband and father. And he worships the ground this nasty trick walks on. But since that incident, I can’t stand her ass. And she knows it. Terrance has asked me several times why my attitude towards Cherelle has changed. And I tell him that I’m not feeling her anymore. I want so bad to tell him the real reason, but I don’t know how to without hurting him. I love him and my nieces and nephew too much to see any of them get hurt. The last time I was in San Diego, I decided to pull her to the side and confront her. And do you want to know what she had the nerve to tell me?
The bitch told me to stay out of her marriage. Then she had the fucking nerve to ask me if I wanted to be the one responsible for causing problems in her home or breaking up her family. I actually slapped her damn face, which only pissed my brother off because the only thing he saw was me assaulting her. The only saving grace in this whole mess is that I was smart enough to take pictures of her ass all over that dude she was slow-fucking on the dance floor. The problem is, what do I do with them?
I mean, if I break down and tell Terrance and he leaves her, then the kids suffer and he’s hurt. But at least he knows the truth. However, if he stays with her and it backfires in my face, then I’ll be the one looking like the meddling fool. This shit has been eating away at me. My loyalty is to my brother. But, I’m so fucking confused. Every time I talk to him, my stomach knots. And, at the end of this month, I’ll be out there again for another family adventure. I really hate being around her phony ass. Smiling and kissing all over my brother like they’re a picture-perfect couple when I know what time it is with her slutty ass. I’m so fucked up over this. I thought about telling my mother, but I don’t want to get her all caught up in it.
It’s a damn shame that some of these chicks out here are just as lowdown and trifling as some men are (including my sneaky ass sister-in-law, bitch!). And these are the first ones to say/ complain that there are no good men in the world. Hell, I guess not. Dumb-ass bitches like her have fucked ’em all over to the point of no return. They’ll go as far as punching holes in condoms to trap a man (now what kind of shit is that?), will fuck his boys, and anyone else she can give her pussy to behind his back. It’s sickening.
There are some chicks who have really good men (and I do believe there are some out there, no matter how close they are to extinction). They’ll have hardworking men who are committed to their families. They don’t run the streets, don’t blow their money on bullshit, and don’t cheat. They cook, clean, help with the kids, have never raised a hand to their wives, have never lied to them, and will try to do anything to make and keep them happy. Yet, nothing the man ever does is right. His woman will nag and nitpick about every little thing. She’s always looking for shit that doesn’t exist. Complaining about and accusing him of everything under the fucking sun. Then she got the nerve to want to ration the pussy. Now, tell. What does this mountain coon think is going to eventually happen? Humph.
My advice to these silly, grimy-assed women: How ’bout you learn to shut the fuck up, appreciate what you have before a ho like me comes around, and gives him what a nagging-ass bitch like you won’t. Some steady pussy, a good dick suck, and some damn peace of mind.
So when he ends up in some other woman’s arms (and, more than likely, between her legs) you’ll have no one else but yourself to blame. Granted, a man is going do what he wants regardless, but if you aren’t treating him right at home, what the hell you think is going to happen? Duh, he’s going to bounce (or creep) on your ditsy ass. So, play your position, and knock off the bullshit. Now, don’t say you haven’t been warned.
“…I told her I thought you might be kidnapped or something ’cause you would never abandon your big bro, or let weeks go by without calling me. Speaking of which, you are still coming out here for Thanksgiving, right?”
“You know, I apologize. I promise to not let so much time go by. And, yes, I plan on being there for Thanksgiving. Unless I get a better offer,” I say half-jokingly. Between you and me, I love San Diego. The weather is beautiful and I enjoy the scenery, but outside of that, it is boring; on top of the fact that my father and brothers watch me like a damn hawk. You would think I was still twelve or something. I swear I wish I could get a hotel room whenever I’m out there ’cause being up under my family the whole time, there’s no fucking or sucking going on—whatsoever, which is why I only stay a few days at a time, then flee back to the comforts of my own home, and bed, where I can suck, fuck and be merry.
He laughs. “Don’t have me send the S.W.A.T team out on you.”
I chuckle. “You know I wouldn’t let anything keep me from being there. It’s the only time we all get a chance to spend time together.”
“Good. Now, let me get back to work. I love you.”
“I love you too. Give the kids big hugs for me.”
“I will. And make sure you call Mom and Dad, too. They miss you.”
“I will,” I say before hanging up. I lie down for a quick nap before I begin my preparations for Nelson’s arrival.
An hour later, I awake, feeling refreshed and ready to get this party started. I take my bath. Then when I’m done, I use scented oil to moisturize my body. I slip into a black-laced teddy. I light the candles and incense that are situated around the bedroom. The music is playing. The stage is set. Now all I need is Nelson’s thick tongue lapping my asshole and the back of my pussy, before he slides his dick into me.
I know leaving my front door unlocked and inviting an unknown man into my home is extremely risky—hell, it’s downright dangerous. The thought of being beaten and raped, robbed or—worse, crosses my mind for a fleeting moment. Yet it has not made any lasting impression on my decision. I enjoy living on the edge. Sometimes fucking in places that I might get caught makes my pussy hot. Like the time I fucked this dude in a park. It was like eleven at night, and I was out on dick patrol when I pulled up alongside his black Volvo. I blew my horn, and immediately knew the minute he rolled his window down that I had found my prey for the night. I gave him a seductive smile, then asked him if he would mind pulling over. He was more than willing to. We talked for about fifteen minutes, exchanging basic information. Finally, I got right down to business and told him what I wanted. I pulled two condoms out of my designer jacket for effect.
At first, he was shocked. Then he declined. But the way I was talking, real freaky and nasty, had turned him on. So he changed his mind, which is what most of ’em do. Twenty minutes later, he was following behind me with a brick hard dick to a nearby park. We stripped down, got butt naked, I pulled my ruler out of my bag, measured his dick, smiled, then rolled the condom on, and mounted his eight-and-a-half inch thickness. I rode his ass bronco style on a blanket under the stars. The thought of being caught had my pussy juice oozing out, dripping down his dick, wetting up his hairy balls. When we finished, he went his way, and I went mine. And yes, I had an ass full of mosquito bites.
Another time, while on a seven day Southern Caribbean cruise, I fucked this dude I had met a few days prior outside on the Lido Deck of the ship. It was like two in the morning. I leaned over the railing, hiked up my skirt, directed him to slide his dick inside of me, then used my pussy muscles to milk his dick until he filled the condom with his man juice. And the whole time I knew there was a white man sitting on a bench a few feet away watching us. Oooh, just knowing the old pervert was there made me want to scream out at the top of my lungs in ecstasy.
Basically, the thrill of the unknown turns me on. I know danger is always lurking in corners, waiting to strike, particularly since there are so many psychos out here in the world. But the excitement of it all is far greater for me than worrying about what may or may not be lying in wait. So I fuck, and I fuck, and I fuck.
But as I wait, and think, and consider, I decide that tonight isn’t the time to trust a complete stranger with walking up into my home without being properly supervised. So I will greet my guest at the door, lock it behind him, then escort him upstairs. Then when he’s done, I will walk him downstairs, and escort his ass out the door, locking it behind him. The only person I can honestly say I’d trust to walk in and serve me the dick the way I initially requested is Garrett. Don’t ask why. I’m not sure if it’s because he’s a State Trooper, or because I have some strange connection to him that makes me feel safe with him.
Whatever it is—no matter how much I enjoy taking risks, I’m not chancing having this man I only met once come up in here with some of his boys and doing me in. And yes, getting killed…now that has crossed my mind on more than one occasion.
Granted, if I invite a man into my home, it is usually with the sole intent to get at his dick. The only thing I’m interested in at that moment is how well he can work this pussy over. So if he’s in my home, he’s going to get fucked. And that’s the bottom line. But, I know there are some psychos out there, and you can never be too careful. Oh, trust me. I know every time I let a man into my home, I am increasing my chances of being put in harm’s way. What can I say? I enjoy gambling and riding a stiff dick at the same time. And knowing me, I will continue dancing along the edges of fate. Yes, I am aware that playing Russian roulette with my life, and men, is a very dangerous game. Well, so is driving or walking through certain towns or cities. At least I control what risks I take. So I’ll keep rolling the dick, I mean, dice, and take my chances.
But not tonight. So I am sitting downstairs on my sofa with my right leg draped over its arm, rubbing my clit and playing in my pussy, imagining him coming in and finding me upstairs blindfolded with my ass up in the air waiting for him to stab my hole from the back.