Boy for Hire
"So ya wanna know why I came to you to get my head shrunk, huh? Well, that's easy I was told to come here to you, man. When I tried to get in at the public school, they jus' wouldn't take me; said I was too old for the fifth grade. Shit, I know I'm old 'nough, damn near, to be those other kids' old man, but what am I supposed to do to get on with my schoolin' and amount to somethin' besides a male whore?
"Yeah, sure, I could get myself a stable of broads or fags and take to pimpin' for a livin'. You hep to that? But that's the whole point, man; I wanna come down off that kinda life. I wanna get myself some class and stay outa jail and work at a straight job for a change. That's where it's at, ain't it, livin' legit? Jus' 'cause I'm half Negro don't mean I can't get myself some class and mix in high society I mean, the white man's high society's what I'm talkin "bout.
"Anyway, at the school I'm shuffled off onto one of them old social-worker broads and she says I should see a psy-chi-a-trist. Did I say that right? Then she gave me your name and address. Said you would be interested in my case and maybe you could help me down off some of bad habits and maybe even get me in a school. So here I am, man, flopped down on your couch, lettin' you give me a head-shrink job. If I fall to sleep on ya, just give me a hard kick in the ass. I won't mind.
"About my bad habits. I guess they started way back when I was jus’ a baby. Yeah, man, thassa fuckin' fact, it was none of my own doin'! I was jus' a innocent little baby boy, ‘bout two years old, when my old lady and old man take off and leave me with a baby-sitter, some black-ass neighbor woman. Funny, but I can remember it like it was yesterday, what that old bitch did to me. You may think I'm lyin', man, but I really can remember that far back. I guess it's because that was such a helluva experience for a two-year-old kid.
"After my folks was gone a little bit, this old bitch up and decides to give me a bath in the big tub. I don't remember her takin’ my clothes off, but the first thing I knew, there I was, standin' up naked in the tub, with her coverin' me all over with soap 'cept my face. With her hands she swished those warm soap suds over my belly, up the crack of my ass and all around my little cock and balls, and jus’ kept on doin' that for the longest damn time.
"Me standin' in that warm water almost up to my knees and her kneelin’ outside the tub, reachin' over, givin' me that sudsy rub, sure made me feel good. Man, did it ever! Then she splashed the water up on me, cleanin' off the soap, and there I was with a little hard on. How ‘bout that? I guess it was the first hard on I ever had. And I guess that was jus' what the bitch was aimin' for, to give me a hard on, 'cause the next thing she started playin' with it.
"I'll say this much for her: she really knew how to play with little kids' pricks. Maybe that was why she took up baby-sittin', so she could get her rocks off playin' with little baby-boy cock and balls, knowin' all the time they won't snitch on her. First, she jacked me off slow and easy with one hand, while holdin’ my little nuts in her other hand.
"There, now, Billy,' she said to me, ‘we're get-tin' you nice and clean all over. When I get through with you, honey baby, you'll be as clean as a whistle. Then won't mama and daddy be proud?’
"I guess I couldn't talk very good then, 'cause I don't remember sayin’ back to her. All I remember is how good it felt, and how beautiful my cock looked, standin' out like that. Shit, man, I musta had the biggest cock in the world for a two-year-old kid. Right now I got nine and a half inches, and I guess I got that old neighbor woman to thank. While she jacked me off, she kept stretchin' it out, seem' how long and hard she could get it.
"My lands, child! I do declare, you got the prettiest cock and balls I ever did see on a baby boy,' she said. 'But they're gonna be a whole lot prettier when I get through cleanin' em up real good. Yes, lawd!’
Then the bitch leaned over, at the same time pullin' me closer with a hand around my ass cheeks, and sucked my little hard on into her mouth. Oooooo, Christ, did that feel good! It really turned me on, so much I put both my hands on the back of her head and pulled hard, 'fraid if I didn't my cock might slip outa her mouth. But she was more turned on than me, man, and wasn't about to let it slip out not till she had it 'clean as a whistle.' She musta pumped away with her cock-hungry mouth 'bout fifteen minutes, gulping everything in, balls and all.
"But that wasn't all that excited me. Hell no. Lookin' over the side of the tub, I could see that the old broad had her dress pulled up 'round her waist and was finger-fuckin' herself while she sucked me off. I didn't understand what was happenin', but halfway through, she suddenly started to shake and bounce and moan sorta like she was cry in'. Man, she had herself a big climax, and she spent the next few minutes tryin' to give me one, too. Maybe she wasn't tryin' to make me come maybe she had enough brains to know that two-year-old kids are too young to come but, anyway, she kept right on suckin' my little hairless cock and balls for a while longer.
"There, see, Billy, how nice and clean you are now?' she said as she stood up. 'Now, sweetie, it's my turn to get all nice and clean. You jus' stand right there in the tub like a good little boy, and after I get clean, I'll dry you off and put your clothes on.'
"The dirty stinkin' cunt! The lousy mother-fuckin' whore! D'ya know what she did then? She got right up next to the tub with her dress still pulled up to her waist, with no pants on, and with her legs spread far apart, flashin' her big, hairy gash right in my face. 'See, Billy, I don't have a thing stickin' out like you. I have a big hole between my legs instead. Isn't it pretty with all the hair around it? Go ahead, sweetie baby, you can look at it all you want to.’
"Yeah, man, she was gettin' me started in my one bad habit and me only a little baby! The dirty bitch! I couldn't take my eyes off that big, drippin' cunt of hers. I guess I thought she was some kinda freak, or somethin', not having a cock and balls. And what a fuckin' smell! Whoooeee! But she fixed that up soon enough. I gotta hand that to her. She grabbed a bar of soap and a washcloth and in a hot minute had that gash as tidy as anything.
"Now, honey, it's your turn to finish cleanin' me,’ she said, pullin' my head towards her wide-open box. 'Stick your tongue out and lick me real good in there, then afterward I'll give you the nice bag of candy I brought with me. Aaaaah, that's right, child, put your tongue in deep and lick hard, ail up and down. Mmmmmmmmm, yeeeesssss, now faster. Faster, Billy, faster! Ohhhh, you're making it so nice and clean. Faster, faster, I'm coming, I'm coooommmmiiiinnnngggg!’
"Honestly, man, I couldn't help myself. She was pullin' my face tight up into her gapin’ snatch, and I was thinkin' all the time I had to mind her 'cause my old lady said I'd get a span-kin' if I didn't. Yeah, and I might as well cop out that I kinda liked it, bavin’ my face buried inside that hot, slippery gash with my tongue lickin' up and down over the old bitch's clit and cunt hole. I remember, it was sorta like… like lickin' the bowl my old lady made cake icin' in. Her cunt juice was sweet, man actually sweet.
"Her come was sweet, too. And I mean that old broad could really come! Her come-cream jus' poured and poured outa her snatch. And I lapped it up, every damn bit of it. Shit, I had to; she wasn't gonna let me pull my face outa her gash till I had it licked dry. Then there was that bag of candy she promised me; I sure as hell didn't wanna lose that.
"So I was on my way. The next time I got my cock sucked and ate pussy was a week later, and again and again every Saturday night that my folks went out on the town and hired that same old cunt to baby-sit for me. It kept up until I was about five, then we moved to another town, and I went without for a couple of years. When I was around seven, man, I met a girl my age from down the street and damned if she didn't go for cock and cunt suckin' as much as me. I fucked her, too, but didn't like it as well as having a good blow job. Christ, was I ever hung up on blow jobs by then! And eatin' cunt. Mainly eatin' cunt. Even at the age of seven, I was the world's greatest expert at eatin' cunt. At least, that's what they told me.
"The real turnin’ point in my loused-up career came when I reached the age of ten. Sonovabitch, why did my aunt Beulah have to move in with us then jus' when I was startin’ to get along good in school? She coulda lived somewhere else easy enough, 'cause she was gettin' a pile of alimony from her ex old man and had a shitpot of money from sellin' their house. But no, man, she hadda come to our pad and offer to pay half the rent if she could stay and live with us. And my old man, always jumpin' at the chance to let someone else pick up his tab, jumped at Aunt Beulah's offer. I think he wanted some of her pussy, too, 'cause I used to hear him braggin' a lot ‘bout what a mean cocksman he was.
"So my aunt moved in with us. And, man, I ain't jivin', she was lookin' fine, fine, fine. She wasn't very old oh, ‘bout twenty-eight, I'd say and built like a brick shithouse. She had the biggest set of tits and the broadest ass I ever did see on amp; woman. And she wasn't fat a bit jus' naturally had tits like a cow and an ass like two big, ripe pumpkins. But that ain't what turned me on most. No, man, what turned me on most 'bout aunty was her big mouth, and big wet lips, and pure white skin like my old lady. She was my old lady's older sister, but she looked a lot younger and jus' a helluva lot sexier.
"Anyway, man, she wasn't hardly unpacked at our house when I found out the real reason why she wanted to move in with us. The real reason was me. Yeah, how ‘bout that? Aunt Beulah turned out to be a freak for little boys.
"The first two days she was at our place, I noticed how she kept huggin' me up and tellin' me how sweet I was and what a nice, healthy body I had. She grabbed at every chance to watch when I took my clothes off to go to bed and to take a bath, and a couple of times, when she was sure my folks weren't lookin', she picked me up naked and held me tight up against those big, balloon tits of hers, at the same time squeezin' my ass-cheeks in her hands.
"Once when she picked me up like that, man, I could see down inside her blouse. She wasn't wearin' a bra on those big tits and I saw her nipples, stickin' out damned near an inch, like two little red cocks. My mouth watered, I wanted to suck them so bad, but I jus’ sort of pretended like I didn't see them. After all, man, she was my aunt; I didn't want to let on how she was gettin' to me 'cause she was family, and family, I knew, wasn't for little boys to have sex with. One of the kids I played with down the street got caught once by his old man fuckin' his own mother and got the shit beat out of him. I sure as hell didn't want anything like that happen in' to me.
"But you know what, man? I couldn't hide the hard on I got when I feasted my eyes on Aunt Beulah's big red nipples. It pressed against her belly, causin' her to stand me down on the floor so she could get a good look at it. 'My, my, what is this I see?' she said. 'Beautiful, just beautiful! Billy, you really are a healthy little specimen, aren't you? And we're just going to have to do something about that, now aren't we?’
"I didn't know what she meant then, man, but I sure as shit found out a little later. That night, long after I'd fallen asleep, I felt somethin' warm creepin' over my belly and down under my jockey shorts. It woke me up, and when I opened my eyes, there was Aunt Beulah sittin’ on the edge of my bed, runnin' her hand under my covers.
"Shhhhhhhh,' she whispered, 'it's me, Billy, dear Aunty Beulah. Lay real quiet and still and I'll show you how very, very much I love you. I'm going to do something real nice to you. I'm going to make you feel real, real good. But first, sweetie, you have to promise me that you won't tell mommy or daddy. Okay?’
"I won't tell, aunty.’
"Good boy. Good boy. We'll keep this our own secret and have lots of fun from now on, just you and I.’
"By now, man, she had my cock in her hand and was jackin' me off slow and easy. Then she pulled the covers off me and a second later she had my jockey shorts off. I was completely naked, spread out like a veal cutlet. On top of that, my cock was gettin' as hard as a brick, stickin' up in her hand like a fuckin' totem pole. Hey, man, did I tell you 'bout what a big dick I had even when I was a kid? Yeah, I guess I did. Even when I was ten, I had six inches, nicely circumcised, hairless, and as pretty as a picture. I ain't jivin'.
"Aunty Beulah sure as hell thought it was pretty as a picture. 'Ooooeeee!' she said real quiet like. 'You sure have a nice big prick, Billy. Why, it's even bigger than my ex husband's.' Then the next thing I knew she had the head of it buried in her big, hot, droolin' mouth. It was too dark for me to see what the bitch was doin' down there on my fuck-stick, but, shit, man, I didn't need to see. I could feel.
"The way aunty copped my joint was too much. She was expert, the best cocksucker I'd ever known. 'Go ahead and suck it, aunty,' I whispered down to her. 'I like that what you're doin'. Suck all of my peter into your mouth. It feels real, real good.’
"Man, I'm tellin' ya, that was all the invitation she needed. A hot second later, she grabbed me tight around my ass and shoved her head down all the way to my pelvis bone, takin' my hot, throbbin' prick into that yawnin' hole of her mouth all the way. I could feel the head of my prick slidin' deep into her throat, and I could hear her sort of gag on it, like she was gettin' ready to throw up or some-thin'. But the whore musta loved it jus' the same, 'cause she lifted her head up a few inches, suckin’ for all she was worth, then down again she went, takin' my cock-head even deeper into her throat.
"Sonovabitch! Did that feel good! She musta kept that deep pumpin' action up for about five minutes, milkin' my big hard on like cocksuckin' was goin' out of style. Then, man, I felt it my first come. Yeah, sure, man, I was only ten, but I really did feel some of that hot fire in my crotch and a little jism spurting out into aunty's throat. It wasn't much of a come, I admit, but it was beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. Specially the way aunty drank it down and tried to draw up more.
"Mmmmmmmmm, Billy, your' little boy come tastes soooooo delicious,' she whispered to me after she was sure she had sucked up the last drop from my balls. 'Really, I didn't think you were old enough to come! But I'm so glad, so very glad, that you are. You see, baby, come is my favorite drink. And yours is the best I've ever had. I only wish you could give me more of it.’
"I’d like to give you more, aunty.'
"You will, dear. You will after I get to sucking you off more and build up these sweet little balls of yours. Now tell me, honey baby, how would you like to do to me what I did to you?
"You mean, eat your pussy, aunty?’
"Shhhhhhh, not so loud! Yes, dear, that's what I mean. My pussy has lots of nice, sweet cream in it right now. Would you like to lick it up like I licked yours up? I'll let you if you want to.’
"I want to.’
"Hell yes, I wanted to eat out the bitch's steamin' hot box, man. Like I told ya before, I was really gettin' hung up on eatin' pussy by now. I was jus' playin' it cool with aunty, that's all. And she really bought it, man, jus' like I was for real a sweet, innocent little lamb. Before I hardly had time to tell her that I wanted to dive headfirst into that hot cunt of hers, there she was, naked as a fuckin' jaybird and flat on her back, her long legs spread wide open.
"I couldn't see her big, hairy snatch too well in the dark, but I could tell that she was pullin' the lips far apart with her two hands. 'Here, baby, eat it up,' she whispered. 'My hot, juicy cunt is all spread out nice for you, waiting for your tongue.' And I didn't need a second invite. Like her steamin' cunt was the first food I'd had in a year, I dived in. Splash! I'm tellin' ya, man, it was ten feet deep in boilin' hot pussy cream or, at least, that's how it seemed. And it was superdelicious, sweeter than honey.
"You hep to soul food, man? Well, that's what my aunty's cunt juice was soul food. And I lapped up every fuckin' drop, first drinkin' up the big lake I found there, then catch in' all that flowed out of her hole afterward. I knew jus’ what it took to keep it flowin': some good, strong suckin' and nibblin' on her clitoris. And that bitch had some clitoris, I'll tell ya! It musta stood out a whole inch, like the big cherry nipples on her tits.
"Then aunty started doin' her special thing, humpin' and buckin' and squirmin' and moanin'. Jeez, man, I've given some orgasms to broads in my day but I've never seen any gyrations like my aunt's. Or heard such weird sounds.
"Ooooooooooo! Aaaaaaahhhhhhhh! Ohhhhhhhhhh, suck, baby, suck! Stick you tongue way up, far, far in my cunt hole. Ahhhhhhhhhh, that's it, you sweet little bastard! Ahhhhhhhh, yes, yes, like that, like that. Ohhhhhhh, I'm coming, I'm coming, I'M COOOOOOOOMMMM-MMMMIIIINNNNGGGG!!! Ooooooo shit!’
"Her come-cream shot out of her hole in a hot flood, man, and I caught every damn drop. It was so sweet and good I couldn't get enough. I jus' kept suckin' and suckin' right at the mouth of her hot, spewin' hole until she had to jus' tip and kick me away. 'Stop it, Billy, stop it!' she gasped out loud. 'You're driving me out of my mind!’
"But all of that hot jism of hers had already driven me out of my mind. I ain't jivin', man, it turned me into a fuckin' tiger. After she booted me away from her cunt, I crawled up on her chest, stuffed one of her big cock-nipples into my mouth, and went right back to my mad suckin'. I didn't know that a woman had to have a kid before she gets her tits filled with milk; to my way of thinkin' then, I jus' naturally figured, man, that tits the size of aunty's had to be filled with milk good, sweet, hot milk somethin' like pussy cream or they wouldn't be so big and full lookin’.
"Anyway, I musta sucked away on those long, hard nipples for ten minutes at least. And aunty loved it. I guess it kinda kept her high goin' without givin' her pussy-cramps. She even egged me on, sayin’ nice things to me and reachin' down to pump my cock like she was rewardin' me. But the lousy bitch, she was dry as a bone! I didn't get a single drop of tit milk. I felt like layin' one right up alongside her ribs.
"Poor little darling, I'm sorry. You wanted some milk out of my boobs, didn't you? Well, I’ll make it up to you. I'll let you fuck me if you want to. Would you like that, sweetie? Would you like to put your cock in my cunt?’
"Naturally, man, I had to forgive her. At least she was sorry and willin’ to make it up to me for havin' empty tits. So I took her up on her offer. I fucked her. In fact, I gave her a real good fuckin' with my six inches; better, she said, than her last old man had done it. I even shot a little come into her cunt maybe a few drops. But it wasn't as good as gettin' blowed by her. She knew that, too, and 'bout three times a week after that first time, she snuck into my bedroom round two o'clock in the morning to give me one of her extra special blow jobs, Each time, she'd let me eat out her box afterward, givin' me lots of her delicious hot come to drink.
"Then it happened, man. My whole fuckin' world came tumblin' down on my head. Aunty was spread-eagled on her back with my face buried in her gash when the bedroom door flew open. Crash! I can still hear the sound of that door as it banged against the wall. And, man, I can still see my old man standin' there in the doorway, Јis eyes starin' wide as saucers, his black face turning purple and green and red arid about a hundred other shades. And my old lady right behind him.
"Aunty got it bad. My old man literally slapped the livin' shit outa her, then threw her, bag and baggage, outa the house. Said if he ever laid eyes on her again he'd kill her. But I got it worse. He laid a belt so hard across my back, ass and legs that I still got some of the scars. See, right there on my left leg? Then after the lickin', he had me sent to a special school for juvenile delinquents.
"Yeah, the dirty, low-down sonovabitch, he turned me into what I am today! Him and that motherfuckin' aunt of mine. 'Cause I couldn't take that school, that prison. I ran off after the first month and I've been shiftin' for myself ever since.
"So now you know, man. Now you know how I got started in my bad habits."
Here we have an extremely tragic, though not uncommon, case of a mere child being severely punished for an offense committed, instigated, or inspired by adults. Taking advantage of his innocence and childish trust when Billy was but two years old, the neighbor woman who was caring for him took undue liberties with his sex organ. In addition, she invited him, in a coercive way, to take undue liberties with her own sex center. Thus, she planted the seed of a powerful, aberrative sex hunger in him that was to lead, almost inevitably, to his later problems.
The sexual interludes with other children, while not unusual in a general sense, according to Kinsey's surveys, were certainly a direct aftermath of the successive and pleasurable experiences with the baby-sitter. Billy confesses in his dialogue that he actually indulged in cunnilingus and fellatio with a certain little girl who lived down the street from him precisely as he had been taught to do many years before by his wanton and totally selfish adult baby-sitter.
No doubt, Billy was the aggressor where the little girl down the street was concerned, not out of any malintent but out of conviction, either conscious or subconscious, that such activity was what males and females were meant for.
During the therapy session that followed his complete case-history narrative, Billy stated that he never, until his father's savage punishment, thought there was anything morally wrong with cunnilingus and fellatio, regardless of whom it was indulged with, so long as it was done in private. And, ironically, this is the exact view that many of our modern religious leaders and legislators are taking toward all but the most perverted kind of sex.
To bolster Billy's adolescent philosophy with regard to sexual license, his aunt came along and shrouded him with the excitement of her promiscuity. This, it seems, was the clincher that swept away every last vestige of moral guilt; for, if the sister of one's own mother will join in unrestrained sex, how can it possibly be wrong? Such was Billy's perfectly justifiable thinking considering the stage of his development.
But, as Billy's luck would have it, his aunt's seduction of him was a bit more than unrestrained. It included "the fetishism of pedophilia (seduction of small boys) and the aberration of incest.
Analyzing these two sexual proclivities of the aunt, it is apropos that we refer to the opinion of the noted Parisian psychotherapist, Andre X. Borandeaus, M.D., as quoted in Jay C. Fenmorr's book, Oral Love-Making:
Many young women who practice fellatio, the act of taking the male organ into the mouth, do so because the sensual pleasure this affords them springs from deeply rooted, perhaps even long forgotten psychological needs. Perhaps in extreme cases it is a subconscious urge to castrate, derived from the first childhood experience when the female became aware that the male has an appendage with which she is not equipped. Frequently when small girls discover that there is a difference between the male and female organs, they feel jealous, slighted by nature or perhaps even fantasize that something has "happened to theirs." With the bulk of an erect phallus in her mouth, the female, possibly subconsciously, realizes that it is in her power to bite it, perhaps even sever it with her teeth… Another motivating factor is presumed to be that in some childishly oriented way, the penis, at least slightly, resembles a huge nipple. It also represents the staff of life, the means by which a male impregnates a female, the means by which the life fluid is issued… In many instances, especially where there is deep affection on the part of the female for the male involved, her enjoyment comes from the obvious fact that she is giving him such great pleasure in a different way.
In other words, there are many deeply rooted and powerful psychological factors involved in a woman's reasons for wanting a male penis in her mouth, and, as we note from the observations of other authorities on the subject, these factors very often are powerful enough to override all inhibition, even that of incest.
But why are minor children so often the target of these strong sex drives of older women? Why aren't they directed toward mature men who are much more accessible, more willing, and more bountifully endowed? Various psychiatric studies have come up with a great plethora of answers to cover an equally great plethora of differing cases, but it would appear that the most compelling motivation factors are increased opportunity for domination; freedom of expression; secrecy; thrill of perversion; self-debasement; and assumed maternalism.
In other words, a woman who is sexually attracted to small boys may be motivated by one or a combination of several of these driving forces. Also, she may be an extremely intelligent and cultured woman, controlled to some degree by strong perverse impulses; or she may be ignorant to the point of having a child's mentality, controlled by a simple wish to enjoy relations with others on her own immature plane.
Whatever the reasons for the assaults on Billy's youthful innocence, they brought about quite a dilemma in his process of growing up, as we note in the following conclusion of his narrative:
"I jus’ turned twelve when I split from that school for bad boys. There was six hours, somethin' like that, before the next roll call, so I had that much head start before they'd start lookin' for me. That was all I needed, man, to hitch a ride and put a lotta miles behind me. I got a lift with an old farmer the first hundred miles, and then a rich middle-aged dame in a big Caddy picked me up. I told her I was graduated from high school and was headin' out to find work. And damned if she didn't believe me! Yeah, man, I guess I did look a little older than I really was.
"Me and Mrs. Gotlotsarocks I called her that 'cause she wore a lotta jewelry got along beautiful. She was a widow, she said, and a little lonely. She even copped to me that she couldn't have any kids, on account of some kind of operation she'd had. In fact, man, she practically told me her whole life history and I told her almost all of mine that's how much we rapped while we rode along. Some of the stuff I told her was lies, naturally, but some of it was the truth, too.
"I even told Ida that was her real first name ‘bout that business with my baby-sitter when I was a two-year-old, and what I'd done with my aunt, leavin' out the part ‘bout my old man catchin' us. Yeah, and you know what, man? That really turned the old bitch on, gettin' her all horny for me. She said, 'Gracious me, Billy, you shouldn't tell me such things. That kind of talk gets me… excited.’
"Well, shit, I was gettin' kinda excited myself, thinkin' ‘bout all the times I had my cock sucked and all the times I ate pussy. But mostly, man, I was gettin' hot from lookin' at Ida's bare legs, white as snow and plump as a Thanksgivin' turkey. While she was drivin', she didn't give one little damn how far up her dress was slippin'. Underneath her thin, lacy blouse I could see that she had big, balloon tits, and I really dug them, too. Then she told me what made her tits balloon out like that.
"Hey, man, are ya ready for this? Ida had a baby three months old. She'd left her baby with some relative when she took off on this trip. She was still fresh with milk from havin' that baby her old man had given her jus' before he kicked off. And she wasn't gonna be drivin' back to her home and baby for ‘bout two more weeks not till she finished some business across the state.
"Damn, when I heard that, my mouth started waterin' like everything! I had to swallow every minute to keep it from runnin’ down my chin. All I could think of was suckin' on those big tits and drinkin' that milk. Jeez, man, she musta had a gallon in each one! Thinkin' of all that good drinkin' milk and the good eatin’ pussy up between her fat, soft legs was gettin' my cock harder than a damn baseball bat. She couldn't help but see it, that big cock of mine, a-pushin' my pants up.
"My, my, what's that I see?' she said, lookin' down at my lap with a great big smile. 'Why, I do believe you've got a hard on, Billy. A big, big hard on.’
"Yes'm, I can't help it.’
"Oh, that's all right, dear. No need to feel embarrassed. I think it looks pretty. You know, I've been thinking; maybe you'd like to stay with me until I finish my business. My brother's wife is Spanish and rather dark complected, so I could tell people that you're my nephew. You could stay right with me in my motel. Would you like that, Billy, staying with me for the next two weeks? I'll treat you real nice.’
"Yes'm, I sure would like that!’
"Good. Then it's all settled.’
"The cunt! She was wantin' to get at my body as much as I was wantin' to get at hers maybe more. And thank God, man, we didn't have long to wait. In ‘bout another hour, we pulled into the town where she had business to do and the super-deluxe motel where she had reservations was all ready and waitin'.
"Yeah, man, and check this: As soon as we get in the motel and the door is closed, this Ida bitch turns to me and says: 'Now, Billy dear, you've been teasing me with that big bulge in your trousers long enough. You've got my pussy all hot and bothered and I can't wait any longer to see how much cock you really have.' Then she gets down on her knees, unbuckles my belt, and pulls down my pants and shorts.
"My rock-hard prick sprang out at her like a steel poker. And while she was eyein' it up close, takin' in my cock and balls like they was the Crown Jewels, I could see down her blouse most all of those giant tits, bulgin' with milk. She said I was really beautiful, or somethin' like that, and I said she was really somethin' special to look at, too. Then she said we should both strip down naked and take a shower together, to wash off the travel dust, she said.
"When Big Tit Ida said that, 'bout us strippin' down naked, I copped out that I really would dig seein’ her tits and pussy. Also, man, that I'd dig most of all suckin' her tits and pussy.
"Yes, dear,' she said after grabbin' my cock, suckin' off the bubble of cream, and helpin' me off with my shirt, ‘you can help your little sweet self to anything you want… just like I'm going to help myself to all of your delicious goodies.' A minute later, man, the old bitch had all of her clothes off the same as me and was leading me to the shower, her big pumpkin-sized tits stickin' out so far that, I swear, I didn't know how she kept from fallin' over on her face.
"In the shower I couldn't hold back no longer. Man, I had to have that milk! I woulda knocked her down and taken it if she hadn't handed it over. As soon as we got under the hot water spray in' down, I grabbed one of those big tits in both hands and shoved my open mouth up tight around the fat, red nipple, suckin' for all I was worth.
"Ah, yes, Billy dear, that's what I want you to do. Suck my tits real good. Drink all of the milk out. It hurts to have them so full. You're my baby now and all of my milk belongs to you.' Then she reached down and started jackin' me off. So I reached down with one hand and started finger-fuckin' her big, fat, hairy, juice-filled cunt.
"Man, what a scene! What a fuckin' feast! Old Ida's milk was like hot nectar, only ten times better. It was rich and sweet and it shot into my throat in a fuckin' torrent, fillin' my belly. I sucked harder and harder, till that tit was drained dry and my guts felt like they were burstin'. Then I switched to the other one, never slowin' down. Man, what a wild trip! And all the time we kept right on jackin' each other off faster and faster.
"I'd started with one finger in her cunt hole, but I soon found out it was so roomy and juicy in there from havin' her baby a little while back that I could easy shove my whole hand in. I ain't jivin', man, I could shove my fist in damn near to my elbow! But we couldn't do all this standin’ up in the shower. Hell, no. She had to sit down against the wall and bend way over so I could keep her nipple in my mouth the same time I was jammin' my fist in her cunt.
"Ohhhhhhh, Billlleeeeee, you sweeeeeet little fucker! I love you, love you, looooovwweeeee you… the way you drink my tit milk and fuck my starved cunt with your fist! You're sooooooo gooooood, baby boy, I can hardly wait to eat up your beautiful cock and balls. Oh… oh… OH, I'm coming! You're making me coooooome! Oooooo-eeeeeee!’
"Man, how that bitch could moan and groan! Then the strong muscles inside her cunt got a stranglehold on my hand and wrist and started squeezin' like the bones would crush. I could feel her come-cream spewin' between my fingers and pourin' down my arm but I kept on pumpin' her cunt hole with all my might jus' the same, whilst with my mouth I kept on suckin' and drinkin' her milk, drainin'her tits dry.
"But it wasn't ol' Ida's rocks a-poppin' off or her tits a-runnin’ dry that ended our jazzy little party in the shower. No, man, it was thaЈ fat little hand of hers pullin’ and squeezin' my cock at sixty miles an hour. 'Bout the time she slipped into high gear, puffin' and strainin' like an old steam boiler, my balls caught fire and exploded. I mean, my whole friggin' body exploded! It was the biggest come I'd ever had! Not jus' from her jackin' me off but mainly, man, from the whole way-out scene.
"I didn't shoot very much come I was still pretty young then, you know but jus' the same it made a good little puddle in the ol' girl's palm. She thought it was plenty for a good taste and licked it all off her palm like she was starved for it. 'Mmmmmmmm, your little-boy come is so sweet, so delicious,' she gasped. And, man, bein' an old come freak myself, even at twelve, I lifted my paw out of her big gapin' snatch and licked her come off, too. In fact, she even helped, me lickin' one side of my hand and wrist while she licked the other side. Out of sight, man! Out of sight!
"That broad was too much. I really got hung up on her. In the next two weeks, believe it or not, she fed her tit milk to me every damn day jus' like I was her baby. I musta put on at least twenty pounds from that sweet, rich milk. And to show my appreciation, man, I fed my cock-cream to her every damn day, too. What a blow job she could give! Ten times better than aunty. Yeah, and while ol’ Mrs. Gotlotsarocks was down there eatin' away on me, even feastin' on my asshole, I was doin' the same to her sixty-nine fashion. You hep to sixty-nine? It's a gas, man. Really a gas.
"But all the same, as much as I dug that bitch, she was my downfall. She was my downfall 'cause she was the one who really taught me how to eat pussy! I was good before, real good, but she taught me the perfect way to suck and nibble on a clit; and how to vibrate the tip of my tongue in a woman's pisshole; and how to suck up the rim of the cunt hole while squeezin' it with my lips and fuckin' my tongue down deep in the center; and a lotta other things. She made a real pro outa me!
"How could all that good schoolin’ in eatin' pussy be my downfall? Well, man, it's like this: After I left Ida with a lotta extra weight both in my gut and wallet she’d slipped me a couple hundred bills before kissin’ me good-bye I made it to Frisco. All that bread didn't last long, though, with me gettin' a lotta fancy new adult-lookin’ clothes shit, man, I even got myself some genuine alligator shoes and stayin' at the best hotels. In three months I was flat broke and out tryin' to scrounge me up a job.
"But who's gonna hire a teenage kid who's half Negro and uneducated? Sure, I looked older than I really was and I'm light-skinned, but I don't have a high-school diploma. I don't even have a grade-school diploma. Shit, man, I don't even have a trade of any kind unless you call whorin' a trade. So who's gonna hire me besides a house for male whores? When I finally got wind that there was such places as male whore houses a Chicano fag told me about them I was damn near starved.
"It was called an 'escort service,' man, and it operated in secret 'cause the heat was on, and it specialized in servicin' lonely broads. I mean, mostly broads. Dudes who liked boys could get serviced, too, but with so many fags freelancin’ in town, some for free, there wasn't much of that kind of trade. I found all that out after they hired me. One look at my tender young body and big cock and they hired me quick, without even battin’ an eye. 'The old biddies'll really go for you, Billy. Yeah, they sure will,' the headman said to me.
"And they did, too. Man, it wasn't long before I was the favorite of the horny old biddies who came to that joint. But, as it turned out, it wasn’t my tender young body and big cock they flipped over. Hell no. It was my cunt-eatin'. Yeah, man, the technique I learned from ol’ Mrs. Gotlotsarocks really blew their fuckin’ minds. Every damn night there was a dozen or more of 'em lined up in the lobby, waitin' to take me to their homes, or to a hotel, or some other pad jus’ to get my face in their gash. Man, I was gettin' rich! On the tips alone I was makin' somethin' like fifty a day.
"Then Josephine came along. She wasn't much to look at kinda ugly, as a matter of fact. I mean her face was kinda ugly. Her body was somethin' else. Nice and white, and smooth, and fat like ol' Ida's was. Only she had tits bigger than Ida's. And, man are you ready for this? those great big tits of Josephine's, stickin' out like watermelons, were plumb full of milk. I'm not jivin'! I'd actually found myself another old broad who'd had a baby a little while back and was still nursin’ it!
"Sonovabitch, was I ever in luck! 'Cause, man, if there's anything I like, it's drinkin' tit milk. And if there was anything that Josephine liked, it was havin' me drink it outa her. The first afternoon she showed at the joint, she picked me out from the other dudes, 'cause I was the youngest lookin', then drove us in her car to a motel down near the beach. Before we went into the motel, she said to me: 'Billy, I don't know if you've ever been out with a woman quite like me. You see, I don't need a young man because I'm lonely or horny or anything like that. I have a husband and a little baby who give me all the company I need. What I need is… is someone to… relieve my breasts. My baby can't even begin to relieve me, and my husband well, he's either too busy with his work or too tanked up on beer. Besides, I don't think my husband would like the idea.’
"By relievin' your breasts, ma'am, do you mean suckin' the extra milk out?' I asked. I was takin' in those mountains on her chest, already feastin’ on them in my mind and waterin' at the mouth.
"Yes, I'm afraid that's exactly what I mean.’
"I’ll tell ya the truth, ma'am,' I said to her. 'Right now I can't think of anything I'd rather do than drink the milk outa those big beautiful tits of yours.
"When she heard that, she gave me a little kiss right on my mouth, then led the way into the motel, as happy as a fuckin’ schoolgirl on her first date. Watchin' those giant tits of hers balloonin' way out and bouncin' as she walked gave me a hard on like I'd never had before, man, and when we got inside, she noticed it pushin' my pants out the first thing.
"The idea of sucking my breasts is getting you hot, isn't it, Billy? Well, that's fine. After you have taken care of me, I’ll take care of you. Now, dear, let's undress and get on the bed. It's better when we're naked, don't you think?’
"The next minute we were both bare-ass naked, man, and you shoulda seen the body on that bitch. Beautiful! Each one of her tits was as big as her head, I swear, and the nipples stuck out cherry red at least an inch. And what's more, man, there was milk oozing out of her nipples! It blew my fuckin' mind, seein' that. It got my balls to achin' and my cock to spewin' juice and my mouth to droolin' so that both of us were creamin' all over, hotter than two dogs in heat.
"Josephine sucked off my big bubble of cock-cream, sort of moan in' with pleasure, then she sat on the edge of the bed, spreadin' her fat legs real wide. Her great, pudgy cunt caught my eye then and I watched for a second while the lips popped open, puttin' on display the biggest, deepest, juiciest gash I'd ever seen in my entire life. I had a sudden impulse, man, to dive right in, headfirst, and lap up all those delicious-lookin' juices pourin' out of her cunt hole; but those two huge tits of hers, bulgin' with milk and starin' out at me from their droolin' red eyes, were jus’ too invitin'. First and foremost, I'm a tit milk freak, so, quick like a bunny rabbit, I wrap my two hands around one of those big melons and close my mouth on the nipple. Then I apply the tit-sucking suction.
"I shit you not, man; it was like takin' the bag of a Jersey cow at milkin' time. That's how full ol’ Josephine's tit was, and that's how long her nipple was. With the very first suck, her hot, sweet cream jus' shot out, like outa the floodgates of a dam. My stomach was empty from not drinkin' or eatin' anything all day, so I really gulped it down. Out of the corner of my eye, I could see the other tit droolin' cream out of the nipple, and that gave me a wild idea. Sonovabitch! I get hot jus’ thinkin' about it! D'ya know what I did? Without takin' my mouth away or easin' up on my suckin', I took that other tit in my hands and squeezed.
"Man, you shoulda seen the milk squirtin' outa that other nipple. I mean, it really squirted! The milk splashed right down on my shoulder and ran in little streams down my naked body, givin' me the damndest thrill I'd ever had. And it must've excited the shit outa ol’ Josephine, too, 'cause she grabbed my cock and started moanin' like crazy. 'Ooooooo, baby boy, you're making mama feel soooooo gooooood! Milk me, baby, milk me, milk me, milk me! Oh shit! Drink it all up! Drain my tits dry. Ooooooo, you sweet little fucker, you're driving me out of my mind!’
"That's what I wanted to do to the bitch: drive her outa her mind; get her so fuckin' hot that she'd not only give me all of her tit milk, but all of her cunt cream to drink, too. And that, man, is exactly what happened; a few minutes more of my suckin' one tit while squeezin' the milk outa the other, and she flopped back on the bed, spread her soft, fat legs real wide, and pushed my head down toward her big, juicy gash. By now, most of the milk was outa her tits, anyway, and it was high time for me to give her another kind of 'relief.’
"In a hot second, man, there I was with my face completely buried in Josey's own private Grand Canyon, lappin' up her own private Colorado River. And I ain't jivin’ when I call her spewin' cunt juices a river I actually had to gulp at sixty per to keep from drownin'. I mean, she had her hands pressin' on the back of my head, holdin' me in there tight, refusin' to let me out till her cunt was drained like her tits. But the bitch wasn't gonna get off that easy. Shit no. Yours truly was gettin' badly in need of some relief, too.
"With my hands I pulled hers from the back of my head and swung my ass around over her head, hangin' my throbbin', drippin' cock and balls smack over her mouth. She got the message. In a flash, ol' Josey opened up her yap as wide as she could, grabbed me around my little brown ass-cheeks, pulled them down hard and let my cock sink far down into her throat. Then, man, I started pumpin' my ass, fuckin' her mouth for all I was worth, at the same time jammin' my long tongue deep into her cunt hole.
"We kept that up for I don't know how long, maybe one minute, maybe an hour, suckin' each other off like it was the last we'd ever get, like we'd die if we didn't suck the guts right outa each other. Then the whole fuckin' ceilin' and all the walls came crash in' in on us, crush in' us to a pulp. We moaned and groaned and squirmed in pure agony, man but it was no use. She wouldn't let go of my cock and I wouldn't let go of her cunt hole. The bitch was literally tryin' to suck my balls up through my cock to get the last little drop of my come! And I was literally tryin' to suck her inside out, her jism was so delicious.
"Yeah, talk about soul food; that fat mama was the soul food of the gods. But you know, man, you can't jus’ go on forever eatin' away on each other like that. You'd have a fuckin’ heart attack if ya did. We finally had to stop. Josey had to go home and fix dinner for her old man and get her kid from the baby-sitter. But before she left, she told me somethin' that really got me worked up: she said if I was better educated and could support her with some kind of respectable job where I wouldn't be whorin' around with other women, she'd leave her old man and tie in with me. Honest, that's what she said! And I could tell that she meant it.
"I thought it over and the next time we got together we struck a bargain. I told her that I'd get more schoolin’ and after that I'd get a good straight job if she'd somehow keep her tits fresh with milk. She agreed because she said my suckin' her milk really turned her on and that was the whole point in wanting to shack with me.
"So here I am, man, tryin' to get myself lined up for some more schoolin'. I could make some big bread in my job at the escort service, but I really dig the shit outa fat Josey. I'd do most anything to have her all to myself."
Fortunately, it was possible to help Billy, though not in the manner and for the purpose he had in mind. After a few sessions of psychotherapy to alleviate the trauma of having been thrashed by his father and literally disowned at a very impressionistic stage of his adolescence, he was counseled effectively that his "digging" of Josephine was not true love but a purely physical attraction that could, and probably would, lead to great tragedy for all concerned, especially Josephine's child.
Recognizing that he was inviting an adversity for Josephine's child similar to the one he had suffered, Billy agreed to cut off his affair with her. And, in return, an opportunity was provided for him to enroll in a trade school where his choice of a trade was mechanical drafting. Also, the way was opened for him to obtain a high-school education via a well-accredited correspondence course.
His future success appears to be assured.