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We married when I was 28 and she was 21.
Terence Fitzbancroft
Memoir of a Young Gentleman Pervert
Afterword
I must emphasize that Ineverforced any girl to participate. I may have asked, persuaded, entreated, cajoled or bribed etc but in the end they were willing participants or not at all. If, after my best efforts, they were not interested, I never forced them. I did know of boys who did and some of my school friends would brag how they had screwed this girl or that. Frankly, for me, my main aim had been for them to enjoy the experience so I could do it again. If they enjoyed what I did, they would continue, and I could repeat the experience for weeks or months, where as forcing them would certainly not achieve this. Also I was well aware that if I upset them, they would tell their parents and this was to be avoided at all costs.
It is over 50 years since the start of the described events and at the present day.
My sexual interest: no change. I am a husband and father and believe it our not; I have been completely faithful and we eventually had two healthy children both of who are fully-grown and leading productive lives of their own. Of course I have fantasies and where necessary, I relieve the urges with Masturbation and some pornography but my wife has no knowledge of this.
On voyeurism: no change. I still get a real kick from unexpected glimpses of female genitals, panties etc but that is as far as it goes or ever will.
On exhibitionism: More or less gone. Being nude in the right situation such as free beaches is now quite enough.
On pedophilia: Once I passed the teenage years, I do not, nor have ever touched any under-age girls. I suspect that it is like being an alcoholic, you are never really cured but you are fine provided you are aware that you have a problem. I still enjoy the sight of young naked girls in controlled situations but that is as far as it will ever go. I realize what I was doing was wrong and can now accept what I did, so will never allow myself to be in a situation where I could loose control.
So ends my sexual history.