It was a clear summer afternoon. Carrie was beautiful and the world seemed alive in new and wonderful ways to her. She was just beginning to feel the first tingles and twitches of her awakening femininity. She had let Robbie Carter, her neighbor and sweetheart, do a bit of exploring. She had let him take off her dress out by the apple orchard and feel her all over. She loved the feeling of hands running over her body, loved the tickling sensation as his fingertips moved up and down her sides. She giggled uncontrollably every time Robbie touched her after her experience with him out by the orchard.
Robbie didn't really know what to do with her, of course, although he had some vague idea. Nobody had told Carrie that it was wrong to take off her clothes in front of a boy. Her parents were quite liberal about sex and had no intention of making their little daughter a prude by telling her to stay away from boys. They preferred to let nature take its course and let her learn from experience. She was learning a lot from Robbie.
Carrie was on her way out to the swimming hole that afternoon to see Robbie. She had promised to take a swim with him – she knew that he wanted her to swim naked with him, and she thought she would probably go along with the idea. She walked jauntily through the meadow down to the woods, toning her long blonde hair behind her, skipping playfully. Her short frilly dress blew in the breeze, exposing her pretty leg. She didn't think that there was anyone to see her leg, and she didn't have any idea that Jake the hired hand was watching her intently from a hiding place in the bushes.
Carrie's father had hired Jake two weeks earlier when he had drifted through and stopped in at the farm to ask for work. He lived in a vacant room upstairs and hadn't bothered anyone at all. Carrie liked Jake. He gave good horsey back rides too, and, although she was fast outgrowing such things, there was still enough of the little girl in her to have fun with him. He was a big strong man, even bigger and stronger than her daddy, but he had always treated her gently.
Jake was waiting for her when she reached the woods. The man waited beside the path, his cock jerking in his Levi's, his head swimming with excitement.
Jake had been eyeing the little beauty ever since he had come to stay with them. He loved to watch her move with a kind of youthful and natural grace that drove him wild inside. He knew that she was completely unaware of the maddening effect she was having on him, but that did nothing to dampen his desire for her. He longed to take her dress off, longed to tear it off if necessary. He longed to see what her glowing young body looked like beneath her crisp dress, longed to lay his hands on her naked flesh.
As the horny hired hand watched her skipping over the grassy meadow, he reached down and rubbed the long hard bulge of his cock. The enormous thing stuck at least ten inches down his leg already, and it was getting bier and harder by the minute. In fact, one of Jake's problems in finding woman was their reluctance to let him fuck them with his foot-long length of dick. He could always manage to get a woman to let him feel her up and undress her, but as soon as she saw the monster he had in his pants it was the end of the road.
Jake we tired of being turned down because his cock we so huge. Little Carrie wouldn't turn him down. He had no idea whether or not she had actually been fucked yet, but he did know that she had taken off her clothes in front of a boy. He had seen them down by the orchard the other day. He hadn't really been close enough to get a good long look at the girl's naked body, but he had seen just enough to whet his appetite. He knew that he could get her to take her clothes off. Whether or not he could get such a huge dick into her tight cunt was another question. His cock almost tore a hole in his Levi's when he thought about sinking his meat into such a tight hole.
Little Carrie was whistling and thinking about how refreshing a nice naked swim would be when she saw Jake walk out of the bushes and stand in the path.
Jake looked down on the lovely little girl and took her offered hand. Jake bent down and kissed her hand with a flourish the way he always did when she offered it to him. She giggled when she felt his lips on her hand, the way she always did when he kissed her there.
"Hi, Jake!" the pretty little lady smiled.
"What's my favorite little girl doin' out in the woods this afternoon?" the big strong man asked, still holding her delicate hand.
"I'm going swimming!" she said.
"Who with?" Jake asked, getting on his knees in front of her and looking up at her with glittering eyes.
"With Robbie," she said.
"I don't see any swimsuit," Jake said. "Are you wearin' it under your dress?" He pulled her frilly dress and peeked beneath it.
Jake's dick throbbed when he looked beneath the little beauty's dress and saw her little panties, panties that barely covered her young cunt. He drank in the silken beauty of her delicate legs, letting his eyes run up her legs to where they came together at the spot he wanted so desperately to explore with his fingers, lips, and tongue.
"There ain't nothin' under there your panties, Carrie," he said in a throaty voice.
"Silly! I don't swim with clothes on!"
"Does your boy friend swim like that too?" he asked.
"Sure!" Carrie answered.
"Won't your mom and dad shit when they find out?"
"They don't care. Anyway I don't think they do," Carrie replied.
"So you swim all naked with this kid Robbie?" he asked, his balls aching in his tight pants.
Carrie nodded.
"I bet he likes that! Damn! I sure wish I had a pretty girl like you to swim with me, Carrie," the horny hired hand told the girl. His cock was almost burning a hole in his jeans.
"I'll swim with you some time, Jake!" Carrie said.
"Naked?" the thirty-five-year-old man asked the little beauty.
"Sure!" she said.
"I'd sure like that a whole lot, Carrie," the man said. "How about right now?"
"Robbie's waiting for me down at the pond now, Jake," she said. "Can't we go swimming tomorrow?"
Jake's cock and balls were too hot to listen to reason. He knew that it would be a lot easier to get what he wanted from her if he took his time, but he just couldn't wait. He had to have her now. He we amazed that she was cooperating so well. He knew perfectly well, however, that her cooperation would come to an end when he really got into the act with her.
"Would you mind gettin' naked with me right now?" Jake asked, his heart beginning to beat harder.
"Here? But what for?" she asked in an innocent lift le voice.
"Just for the heck of it, Carrie. I mean… you gotta take your clothes off anyway when you get to the swimmin' hole. You might as well take 'em off here and carry 'em down there. Right?" The hard-cocked man was getting ready to rip her clothes right off her if she didn't go along with him pretty damn soon.
"But I might scratch myself on the bushes if I do that!" she said, still not afraid of the man.
"I won't let you hurt yourself, baby," Jake said in an overly tender voice.
"Well… all right…" she said, getting ready to take off her dress.
"Wait a minute, Carrie! Uh… let me take your shoes off for you," Jake said. "Here. Sit down on this stump over here."
Carrie sat on the stump and crossed her silky legs. Jake stared at her honey-tanned legs, drinking in her fresh youthful beauty. Carrie was beginning to foci that there was something kind of funny happening. No gown-up man had ever asked her to take her clothes off.
Jake felt her foot tremble just a bit when he laid his heavy hand on her. He slipped off her shoe and caressed her little foot, running his eager fingertips over her silken ankles and tickling her toes until she giggled uncontrollably. The man took off her other shoe and ran his hands up her smooth legs.
Carrie didn't know why he was touching her that way. Nobody had ever touched her that way, except Robbie, and he had done it sort of nervously, Jake wasn't nervous at all. She couldn't imagine why he we touching her that way. He was a grownup after all, and grownups didn't touch kids that way. Jake wasn't treating her roughly, but there was something about the way he touched her that made her tingle all over.
"I gotta get your dress off, baby!" the horny male rasped, his nuts aching in his tight Levi's.
Carrie was beginning to feel less sure of what she was doing, but she let him take her dress off anyway. The next sensation she felt, and a pleasant one it was, we the breeze blowing gently over her naked flesh. She sat there on the stump covered only by her wispy little panties. She glanced up and saw Jake standing over her, holding her dress in his hand and looking at her strangely. She had never seen such a look on a man's face before. His eyes were roving over her body, making her feel all goosepimply, making her somehow feel that it was wrong to be out in the woods with her clothes off.
"I've got to go now, Jake," she said in a quavering little voice. "Robbie's probably waiting for me down there by now."
"But you ain't finished undressin' yet, Carrie," the burly man said, putting his heavy hand on her shoulder.
"I can take my panties off down at the pond," she said, wondering why he was squeezing her shoulder so tightly.
"You can take 'em off right here too!" he rasped.
"But I don't want to!" she said, trying to get away, but failing.
"Why the fuck not?"
Carrie gasped when she heard the man say that dirty word. She had heard a boy say that word once and her daddy had told her that it was a very nasty thing to say.
"You said a nasty word, Jake!" she said, her eyes wide.
"Who gives a shit?" Jake growled.
Carrie put her little hand to her mouth, staring in amazement.
"Get those panties off!" he ordered.
"But… I… I don't want to! I don't think it's nice!" she said in a trembling voice, beginning to feel the first surges of fear course through her.
"You didn't we before, little lady!" Jake said, letting his hand run downthe front of her naked body to her fine little breasts. "You was gonna strip down right here in front of me!"
"I don't want to now! You're… you're looking at me… so funny!"
"I'll look at you all right! And you're gonna give me somethin' to look at too! Now get 'em off!" he growled, staring at her flimsy little panties.
When Carrie refused to remove her last remaining garment, the man hooked his fingers beneath the waist band of her panties. Instead of pulling them down gently he tore them away from her. She cried out when the material dug into her sensitive young flesh. The frightened little girl looked up at the muscular giant with pleading eyes.
"You hurt me!" she whimpered.
"Yeah? You do as you're told, little pussy, or you'll get hurt a hell of a lot worse!"
"But… what do you want me to do? Can't I… can't I go now?" she sobbed.
"Go? Fuck no! You stupid or somethin'? You're gonna stay right here for a while, baby!" he said in a husky voice. "I'm gonna get what I want before you walk away!"
"But what do you want!" she cried, squirming in the man's powerful grip.
"Right now I just want you to sit there and spread your legs!" he said, staring between her silky little legs at her pussy.
"I don't want to! It's not nice!"
"You shut up and spread 'em!" he barked, getting to his knees at her feet and putting his hands on her knees.
The big man pushed against her knees and made her open her legs widely. He stared at the lightly-haired cunt he had longed to lay his eyes on. Her body was even more beautiful than he had imagined. Her little boobies were handfuls of golden-hued flesh, her tiny nipples just begging to be licked and sucked. Her little belly looked softer than silk. He felt like running his tongue from her tits to the patch of down between her legs, tickling her navel with the tip of his tongue. He could be gentle with her, he knew. He could take his time and tease her until she shivered with delight, but he wasn't in the mood for slow and gentle sex. All he wanted at the moment was to sink his rod into a hot, tightly-clenched cunt and fuck until he shot his heavy wad into her. But first he had a few other things in mind.
The man laid his heavy hands on her breasts. She struggled, but he quickly grabbed her shoulders and held her tightly. He warned her not to move at all and slapped her across the cheek, not hard enough to hurt her badly but hard enough to let her know he meant business. She began sobbing.
Carrie trembled when she felt his hands spreading her legs. She felt so naked and exposed. She wanted to jump up and run away, wanted to run to her daddy and let him hold her, but she was afraid to move now that the man had hit her. She had never been slapped in the face before, but she knew that if she didn't do what he told her he would hit her again and again.
She shivered slightly when she felt his lips pressing against the flesh of her inner thigh. He kissed her legs in a trail that moved closer and closer to the secret place between them. No one had ever touched her there, much less kissed her. He was getting so close to her pee-pee with his lips, so close that he would touch it pretty soon if he wasn't careful.
Jake gazed at the little girl's cunt. He knew that a few carefully-placed kisses would drive both of them wild with lust. He had to taste her virginal cunt. He had to lick her tiny downy twat. He had to press his eager tongue between the lips of her cunt.
Carrie's body jerked involuntarily when she felt his hot wet lips press tightly against her pussy. His lips tickled her, but they did something else to her at the same time. Every time he kissed her there, she felt a strange little tingle inside of her. His kisses came faster and faster, and so did the tingle between her legs.
Jake sucked harder and harder on the lips of the girl's cunt. His cock pounded in his pants. The fresh scent of her young cunt drove the man wild. The feel of her cunt-flesh between her lips made his nuts throb with depraved pleasure. He ran his hands up and down her silken legs while he sucked her twat, thrilling to her softness and warmth.
Carrie felt the man's face pressing tightly against her quivering cunt. It wasn't long before he was licking at her pussy, running his tongue up and down between her legs, making her feel a strange warmth there that seemed to spread over her. She couldn't understand why the big man liked licking her so much, but she had to admit that the sensations she felt were pleasant. It was her fear and her feeling of helplessness that made her feel so bad.
Jake's tongue raced up and down the tight crack between Carrie's legs, running around her rubbery twat-lips, making her writhe with youthful passion, passion that she had never experienced before.
"You like that, Carrie?" the man asked, licking his lip and looking up at her lovely blue eyes.
"I… I don't know… why are you doing this to me?" she moaned, wishing that he would go away and leave her alone, and yet still feeling the plant warmth between her legs.
"It's makin' you feel good, ain't it?" the man asked, standing up and putting his hands on his hips, spreading his legs and looking down at the trembling girl.
"Sort of…" she moaned. "But I want to go home!"
"When I'm done with you, little girl!" the man growled. "You ever seen a man's cock?" His prick jerked like a jackhammer down the leg of his tight pants.
"A man's what?" she asked, vaguely remembering hearing the word at school.
"A man's cock! A man's dick!" the horny giant said impatiently. "This!" he growled, reaching down and rubbing the enormous bulge of his rock-hard meat stick. "Well? You ever seen one?"
Carrie shook her head. She stared at the big bulge that extended almost a foot down his pants leg. It almost looked as if he had a big hard billy club or something stuck down the leg of his pants. He rubbed the bulge with the palm of his heavy hand, and when he rubbed it, it seemed to make him feel good. He had a wide grin on his face when she looked back up at him.
"Well, little lady, do you wanna see it?" he asked. "You look kinda interested!"
"I… I guess so…" she whimpered, afraid to say she didn't want to see the big thing between his legs.
"Why don't you fed it first?" he said, stepping up to her. "Go ahead, damn it! Foci that cock!"
She watched the big strong man slap his cock with the palm of his hand. She thought she could see it throbbing in his pants. She knew that he wanted her to put her hand on it, but she couldn't quite bring herself to. When he saw that she wasn't about to touch him there unless he made her, the hard-cocked hired hand reached out and forced her hand onto his throbbing cock-bulge, holding it there.
Carrie felt an incredible heat soaking through the man's tight pants. The bulge in his pants was as hard as it looked, and it jerked just the way she thought it would. She felt it kicking in his Levi's as if it wanted to escape. She wanted to take her hand any at first, but the longer he held it there, the better it felt. Before too long she was interested in exploring the mysterious bulge.
"It's so… so hard! Is this your pee-pee?" she asked in amazement.
"Yeah, Carrie, that's what it is!" the man gasped, his balls aching when she began moving her hand slightly over the big bulge of his hard organ.
"Does it hurt? It's all… all swollen!" she said, her fingers squeezing nervously yet curiously at his turgid dick.
"It don't hurt, Carrie! But what you're doin' to it sure makes it feel a hell of a lot better! Keep squeezin' it like that! Rub it too," the man ordered in a gruff voice.
"I don't think I want to!" the little girl protested.
When the man raised his big hand again and made ready to slap her, she winced and then put her hand back on his cock, rubbing with her palm and stroking it with her little fingers. Carrie was thoroughly amazed. The more she rubbed it, the hotter it seemed to get, and the harder too. She looked up at the man from time to time and saw the look of naked hut for the first time in her innocent life. It was a look she would never forget.
Jake reached down when he could no longer stand the cramping of his heavy nuts in his pants by his enormous hard-on and opened his Levi's. The horny hired hand boldly tore his pants open and tugged down his zipper. He reached inside his pants and tried to haul out his cock, but without success. The hard thing was so firmly stuck down the leg of his tight pants that he was unable to pull it out.
"Take my fuckin pants down, Carrie!" the man ordered in a rough voice. "Do it!"
The frightened girl reached up and pulled down his pants for him, all the while wondering what he was going to do to her. When his pants pulled down over the long hard post of flesh, the thing snapped up against his shin, splattering it with preseminal fluid. The man pulled his shirt off and stood before her with his pants down around his ankles, his huge pecker hard and ready.
Carrie stared wide eyed at the towering post of the man's naked cock. She had never seen anything like it in her life. She had seen her daddy's cock a lot, but it had never been hard the way Jake's was. It was as thick as her wrist and it looked as hard as a baseball bat. She stared at the swollen purplish knob on the head of it, wondering why so many droplets of fluid kept oozing from the end of it. The stuff dripped down the shaft of flap man a cock and run into the curly black hair between his strong legs.
"Ever see a dick that big, baby?" the man smiled wickedly, pulling his hands on his hips and letting her have a good long look at his enormous hard-on. "Wanna touch it, little baby?" he rasped, stepping out of his pants and kicking them aside.
Carrie shook her head, but then she reached out timidly and brought her tiny hand close to the head of his dripping cock. She felt the incredible animal heat of the horny male radiating from the swollen head of his cock. She let her hand hover close to the man's organ, not daring to let her trembling hand make contact with his cock, even though she was curious about the feel of it. It looked hard and yet soft at the same time. She had never touched anything like that before.
Jake reached down and took the girl's hand in his, pushing it toward his jerking rod until her fingers touched him. She felt his body jerk involuntarily then her fingers touched the head of his cock. It had been a long time since anyone had touched his rod, and the sensation of her fingers on it drove him wild inside.
Carrie let her exploring fingers run over the slippery head of the man's dick, from the piss-hole all the way to the rock-hard shaft. She took a droplet of the fluid that ran from his cock and moved her fingers around in it.
"It's slippery!" she said, daring to look up at the tall muscular man.
"Taste it, baby!" he rasped, longing to feel her little trembling lips wrapping around his dick-head.
The curious little beauty touched her sweet lips and tasted his free-flowing preseminal fluid.
"It's… kind of salty or something…" she said.
"You like it, don't you? Don't you?" he growled.
"I, I guess so…" the little girl said, not wanting to get slapped again.
"Glad to hear it, baby! Since you like it so much, why don't you get down on it and suck it for me?" he rasped, his balls on fire.
"Do… do what?" she asked in a quavering voice.
"Suck it! Come on, bitch! Get down on it!" the man said, pushing her beautiful face up against his cock. "Suck on that lollipop, little girl!" he rasped.
Carrie felt the big man's heavy hand behind her head, pushing against her and rubbing her face against the shaft of his slick cock. Her cheeks were soon covered with his slippery fluid. His rod rubbed up and down against her lips and cheeks, the head of it resting hot and swollen against her forehead.
Jake flexed his naked buttocks and thrust his rod hard against her face. He held her pretty head back a bit and reached down with his free hand to grab the jerking shaft of his dick. He pressed the thickly-swollen head against Carrie's lips and began rubbing it against her teeth.
"Open your mouth, baby!"
Carrie did as she was told. As soon as her mouth was open, it was filled with jerking hot cock. She felt the huge head of his organ pushing between her lips and stretching her jaws. It bulged her cheeks as it pushed farther and farther into her face. She began to gasp for air as he filled her mouth with his rampant erection.
"Breathe through your nose!" he ordered. "You can do it, baby! Now suck that cock! Suck it good too!"
Carrie did as she was told, although it was awfully hard to suck his cock when it filled her mouth completely. She felt the hard thing moving down her throat, almost making her choke each time the end of it touched the back of her throat. His prick seemed to get harder and hotter the longer she sucked it. It wasn't long before she felt it moving in and out, moving faster and faster.
The rough man punched his cock harder and harder in and out of her mouth making his hot hairy balls slap against her silken chin with each wild thrust. Tears streamed from the little girl's eyes as she coughed and sputtered. She tried desperately to pull away, but he held her tightly, face-fucking her like a wild animal.
"You're gonna get it up the cunt now, baby!" Jake roared after he had fucked her face for a few minutes.
He pulled his rod out of her. She looked up at him with pleading eyes filled with tears. He grabbed her delicate little shoulder and pulled her up off the stump, holding her trembling body against him and feeling her tits rubbing against him. He had to sink his enormous cock into her tight unfucked cunt, no matter how much it hurt her, no matter how depraved it was to fuck such an innocent little girl with his huge poet of flesh.
"On your back! Right now!" he roared, stroking his cock with one hand and pushing her to the ground with the other.
Carrie fell into some thick grass and sobbed uncontrollably as the man fell on her. She felt his enormous dick rubbing against her little belly, felt it moving closer and closer to her trembling twat. When she felt the hot head of it rubbing between her legs, she tried to struggle, but it was no use. He had her where he wanted her and he was going to take her cherry no matter how hard she struggled.
"Take that, fucker! Take it all the way up that little cunt!" the wild man shouted, pushing his cock-head into her tight little cunt.
"Don't! Please! It… it hurts! Take it out! Oh please!" she sobbed, feeling her cunt stretching as he shoved his prick mercilessly into her twat.
"You'll get used to it, little lady! You might even like that fucker up in there! I'm gonna fill that little cunt with meat, baby! I'm gonna fuck the livin' piss out of ya!" he rasped.
Carrie felt his enormous dick pressing up inside her, pressing against something that kept it from going any farther into her. She felt him grasp her shoulders tightly and buck his hairy hard ass, shoving his rock-hard all the way up her virginal young cunt.
Carrie cried out in pain when she felt his cock tear into her. Her body stiffened against the horny hired hand. He held her down against the grass and began ramming his cock in and out of her, making her cry in agony as he stuffed her cunt with hot jerking meat. He grunted and groaned, his muscular body sweating as he fucked her. He breathed heavily against her cheek. His heart pounded hard as his nuts grew hotter and hotter.
Carrie was in great pain and discomfort for a long time, but then something strange began happening to her. For some strange reason she began to feel something that approached pleasure as he rammed his cock in and out of her. She felt him filling her completely with hard meat, felt it kicking deep inside her belly, felt it stretching her young cunt. She felt his cock-shaft rubbing against the lips of her cunt and against a spot that made her entire body tingle with pleasure. She closed her eyes and began to moan, not as much in pain now as in pleasure.
"Take that dick! Feel that in there, little lady?" he rasped. "Sure you do! You're really gonna feel it before I get through with ya!" He punched his cock into her cunt.
The man fucked Carrie hard and fast. His nuts slapped against her dampening crotch with each wild thrust into her. Her nipples were stiff against his hairy chest as he rubbed his hard body against her. She felt the grass and leaves against her back and her naked ass as he pressed her to the pound.
The sensation of burning and tingling deep inside her cunt continued to grow more and more exciting.
The girl kicked her legs, trying to keep him from her. The more he fucked her, the less she kicked, until eventually her legs were wrapping around his. Carrie didn't know what exactly was happening to her, but something strange certainly was. She suddenly felt waves and waves of pleasure rushing over her. She felt the tension in her cunt suddenly discharge all over her body. She cried out in a little shriek of pleasure and pain when she flashed with her first hot orgasm.
It wasn't more than a second or two after her orgasm rushed over her when she felt him shooting up inside her. Blast after blast of hot semen squirted into her cunt, spraying inside of her, filling her so completely that the thick stuff ran out of her pussy and trickled down her honey-hued legs.
He panted, his heart racing wildly as his rocks shot off inside the little girl's tightly-clenched cunt. He thought he would never stop shooting his wad up her cunt. He lay there on top of her, gurgling deep in his throat, listening to her cries of pleasure and pain. When he had rested a moment or two, he stood up, pulling his fat cock out of her cunt so hard that it made a loud slurping sound between her legs.
"Suck it now!" he growled, kneeling over her and pushing his still-hard cock against her lips.
The frightened girl did as she was told, pressing her trembling lips against his cock-head and sucking the dribbling cum out of his cock. The stuff ran down over her lips and chin, running in rivulets down her throat. Jake was about to shove his cock into her mouth and face-fuck her until she got him hard as a rock again. He intended to fuck her in the cunt again at least one more time and then maybe even shove his prick up her ass.
"My God, Carrie! What's goin' on?" they both heard a young boy's voice ask in shock and amazement.
Carrie looked into the bushes and saw Robbie standing there, his eyes wide, as if unable to believe what he was watching in the woods. Everyone froze for a second or two.
Then Jake jumped up and made for the boy. Robbie bolted and darted through the dense undergrowth, followed closely by hike.
Carrie remembered fleeing blindly, not knowing where she was running, but running as fast as she could. She remembered falling to the ground, and then everything went black.
The next thing she remembered was waking up in the hospital with her mother and father at her side. Robbie had managed to escape Jake and get to the farm. The man had managed somehow to elude the authorities for a few days, but was eventually picked up and taken in. She had been nursed back to health in a short time, but the emotional scars had not yet healed.
Now, as Carrie sat in her room and relived her traumatic experience, her cunt heated up. Whenever she relived the experience, her passion became uncontrollable. She wanted desperately to call Mark and toil him that tonight was the night, but she was unable to conquer her fear of cocks. She kept her fingers working against the lips of her cunt, tickling her hot little clit, making her juices flow.
She shuddered when her wildly flashing orgasm rushed through her. Her body stiffened in every fiber, tingling, twitching, shivering with pure delight. She breathed deeply and foil against her vanity table, resting her head and relaxing in the flood of post-orgasmic bliss.
When her orgasm had passed, she began to feel the all too familiar feeling of futility that had plagued her for so long. She knew that it was degrading for a woman of her beauty and vitality to spend her life masturbating and reliving her only sexual experience when she could be enjoying a happier sex life.
Perhaps if she let herself go, if she let herself get away from Bentonville for a while, she could find the answer to the questions about herself that had bothered her and stood in the way of her sexual satisfaction for so many years.
Carrie went to sleep that night feeling better than usual. She would do it. She was resolved. She would get out into the world and see what it had to offer in the way of answers. She had always told her students that experience was the best teacher. Now it was time to try practicing what she preached. She had very little to lose and everything to gain, after all. The new sense of purpose made her days much happier. She told Mark about her plans, and, although he was sorry to see her leave town, even temporarily, he was supportive. She would come back, of course, and when she did, she might be a new and responsive woman.