It was a smallish room – about half the size of my office – and fitted up as a chapel. There was a silver crucifix on the altar and icons of Saint Peter and of the Virgin covered the plain walls. At first I thought the man praying by the altar was Demetrius. He was about the same age and had the same bald patch.
It was hard to tell in that light whether the man was naked or partly clothed. The wide circle of darkness on his back might have been a piece of cloth, or it might have been some peculiarity of the skin. His outer clothes lay beside him in a crumpled heap. He knelt on the plain wooden boards, his arms raised in a prayer of intense devotion.
The man held himself so still that he might have been a statue. I watched him awhile, then grew bored. I hadn’t risked my life to see someone saying his prayers. And the withered flesh of his back and buttocks was about as diverting as an empty wineskin.
Just as I was about to pull myself back on the ledge, the man groaned. ‘O sweet and merciful Mother of God,’ he cried softly, ‘take this cup of bitterness away from Thy servant.’
He repeated the prayer, and again. Then, still on his knees, he twisted round to his left. It was now that I saw his huge erection. Throbbing, foreskin retracted from the swollen glans, it jutted upwards from the dark tangle of his crotch.
It was Antony, the legal official. But for the fact that he would tell us bugger all about the set-up in the rest of the Legation, he’d been about the friendliest of the officials. Now, I could see a wild gleam in his eyes.
I resisted the urge to pull myself out of sight. Unless he was looking, it was doubtful if he’d see me. He’d more likely notice the sudden movement. For the moment, I held still.
Antony stretched over to his clothes and took out a pouch of polished but very soft leather. It was about the size of a small correspondence bag. He kissed it reverently and turned back to the altar. He held it up before the crucifix and prayed again.
‘Lead me not, O Lord, into temptation,’ he said over and over, an edgy, fanatical note coming into his voice.
At last, he untied the bag. From it he produced a small corded whip. He held this up for Divine Inspection. It was one of those nasty things with sharpened iron triangles that you use as a last resort on your slaves. He kissed the handle and, with a melodramatic flourish, pulled himself upright on his bended knees.
‘Sweet Virgin, give me strength to resist and endure,’ he snarled through clenched teeth. With a sudden hiss of leather, and the staggered smack! of iron on flesh, he took the whip to himself. With wild force, bearing in mind his awkward position, and obviously much practice, he struck again and again. His prayers rose to a loud babble as he tore lumps out of himself and the blood ran freely down his back.
It was now that I realised the dark patch on his back was the scabbed-over effect of previous devotions. Those vicious bits of iron had the scabs off in an instant, and were ripping into already raw flesh.
Well, this had made the trip worth the effort! I’d not be telling Martin about it for fear of imitation, but I watched in fascination.
Indeed, as I watched that frenzied performance, I felt myself coming up in sympathy. For all he was no looker, the man was putting on a fine performance. You’ll pay through the nose to see anything half so good in a brothel.
I unclamped my left hand from the gutter and pushed it under my belly, down towards my crotch. With a horrid fright, I found myself sliding forward. One moment, I was as stable as if back in my bed. Another, and I was in free movement. I tightened my right grip on the gutter, trying to stabilise myself with brute strength. That stopped the sliding. Instead, I began to roll on to my left side. With my head and shoulders already hanging over the ledge, I was barely an inch short of rolling straight into the darkness. If the lead guttering held, I might be able to swing myself into the chapel.
Otherwise, it was the darkness.
Just in time, I got my left hand back on the gutter. My body pitched to the right. I was stable again.
I pulled myself up and lay flat along the ledge. What had looked wide and solid from my balcony now felt like a tightrope. The hundred or so yards back to the balcony stretched into as many miles as I lay shaking and sweating. For the first time, I wondered how I’d get back. Crawling on hands and knees had been easy enough. How to stand up again and turn with nothing but a blank wall to steady myself?
But I forced the thought from my mind. So long as I kept my nerves steady, I’d find my way back. I’d just have to be more careful.
Looking back into the room, I could see that Antony had given up on the scourging. He was now lying on his back, scrubbing the boards with his tattered flesh. A real enthusiast, I can tell you, would have had a dish of salt handy. As it was, those boards must have hurt like dry buggery.
Gasping with passion and at the terrible pain, he smashed hard with the whip handle on his balls and his continuously throbbing erection. It was all to no effect – or it was to none he might have admitted. With a despairing but subdued wail, he went off like an enema syringe. It was an impressive sight. Then, with a convulsive heave, he was over on his front. He buried his head in his clothes and sobbed disconsolately.
‘Oh, filthy, filth of filthiness,’ he mumbled into his clothes. ‘How shall I ever look back from the Jaws of Hell?’
Still erect and throbbing, his cock poked out from beneath his body.
‘Yes,’ I thought to whisper into the room – ‘Get out more often!’ But I resisted the urge. In his present mood, he’d probably think it was the Virgin herself giving him advice, and there was no telling what mischief I’d inflict on the streets.
I could have stayed to watch more of the tears and broken prayers. But I was still getting over my fright, and Antony had turned to slobbering over some relics. It was plain I’d seen the best he had to offer. Time to move on.
I continued along the ledge. The other rooms I passed below me were dark and silent. It was beginning to look as if that singular wank was all I’d see tonight.
But no – from the very last room before the right-angle turn to the left, I could see a flood of light. That was surely what I’d seen from my balcony. I positioned myself above and prepared to look down.
Before I could get my head down to look in, I pulled sharply back.