I waited until we were on the road to give Lucas his notebook. He snatched it out of my hand without so much as a thank-you.
“Did you read it?”
I decided to tell a fib. “Why would I?”
“You better not have.”
The plow hadn’t passed along this stretch of winding country road in hours. As I crested hills and rounded curves, heading toward Route 277, I felt the tires slide on the new coating of snow. I had a vision of my pickup bouncing like a pinball from one snowbank to another if I didn’t watch my speed.
Lucas began rummaging around the console between the front seats. “Do you got a pen?”
The inside of my truck cab was as dimly lit as a dive bar. “We can’t drive with the overhead light on.”
“Why not?”
“It makes it harder for me to see the road, and besides, it’s against the law.”
“That’s a stupid law,” he said. “Do you got a pen anyway?”
I removed the ballpoint I kept in my uniform pocket. “What are you going to do, write in the dark?”
He produced a child-sized headlamp from his overstuffed backpack. He yanked it down over his stocking cap and switched on the beam. It needed new batteries, but the grayish illumination was enough for him to begin scribbling.
His empty stomach made a liquid gurgling noise, like water being pulled down a drain.
“If you’re hungry,” I said, “there’s a Ziploc bag with some beef jerky in that pack basket.”
“Is it made out of bear meat?”
“No.”
“Moose meat?”
“No, it’s just regular meat. I bought it at a gas station.”
“I don’t like regular jerky.”
“What do you think Rogers’s Rangers used to eat?”
Lucas swung around toward me, and I was nearly blinded by his headlamp. “You did read my notebook!”
I raised my elbow to shield my eyes. “Just the part about the Ranger Code.”
“That’s how you found my fort. You followed the map that I drawed.” His voice was heavy with disappointment, as if using a map was cheating. A real ranger would rely on footprints alone.
I had been feeling that I was gaining Lucas’s trust, but now I saw how fragile the bond between us was. Not that I could blame him for being suspicious, given the men he’d grown up around.
I decided to make a fresh attempt at conversation. “My dad was a real-life army ranger, just like the men in Northwest Passage. He fought in the Vietnam War. That’s near China.”
“I know where Vietnam is,” he said.
The police radio crackled and popped. The dispatcher wanted to know my location. “Twenty-two fifty-eight,” I said into the mic, giving my call number. “I’m ten-twenty on the New County Road.”
There was some additional chatter, and I heard Corbett identify himself. It sounded as if he was on the scene of a fender bender near Bog Pond. At least his whereabouts were accounted for.
I waited for Dispatch to come back: “Twenty-two fifty-eight, disregard.”
A false alarm, evidently. It happened from time to time.
“Speaking of rangers,” I said, “here’s something you might find interesting. In Vietnam, the rangers called the jungle ‘Indian Country.’”
“Why?”
“Because it was the area controlled by the enemy.”
“Were there Indians living there?’
“No. It was a metaphor. Do you know what a metaphor is?”
He crossed his scrawny arms over his chest and slumped as far away from me as he could into the shadows. “It’s a word that don’t mean what you think it means.”
I decided not to quibble with his definition.
Once I dropped Lucas with the social worker, there was a chance I might never see him again. If his mother was sentenced to prison and his father was denied custody, if the aunt vanished into some state custodial institution in Bangor or Augusta, this would be our last conversation, and I’d barely gotten to know him at all. It seemed one more sad thing dropped onto a mountainous pile of sad things.
“Lucas, why did you steal my binoculars before?”
“I didn’t mean to.”
“You’re telling me that you accidentally stole them?”
“I was just looking at them. I put them on my neck and I forgot to take them off. That’s what happened. If you don’t believe me, too bad.”
“I don’t believe you,” I said. “And a judge wouldn’t believe you, either.”
He sat up abruptly. “You said you weren’t taking me to jail!”
The boy was certainly paranoid on that score. “I’m just trying to explain that you shouldn’t steal things. Right now, you’re just a kid, so you think the worst thing that will happen is you’ll have to apologize if you get caught. But if you steal something expensive, they send you to a detention facility until you turn eighteen.”
After I’d finished, I realized how much I’d sounded like Sergeant Rivard when he was trying to put the fear of God into Barney Beal, and I regretted bringing up the subject. I wasn’t going to change Lucas Sewall’s destiny in one interaction.
“What happens if a kid kills somebody?” he asked.
I tried to lighten my tone. “Who exactly are you planning on knocking off?”
My cell phone vibrated. I didn’t have to look at the screen to know it was Larrabee again.
“It’s just a question,” said the boy.
“Hold on a second, Lucas.” I brought the cell to my ear. “Hey, Doc.”
“I’ve been trying to reach you all night.” His words were slip-sliding into one another in a way that suggested he’d been drinking.
“I’ve been on duty.” I didn’t feel I owed him any further explanation. “What’s the emergency?”
“I have a dead animal here!”
“What animal?”
“Duchess! My dog!”
“What happened to her?”
“It’s my fault; it’s my fault. I should have-when you asked me-you need to get over here immediately.”
To do what, bury the dog in a snowdrift? The veterinarian wasn’t making any sense. “Explain to me what’s going on.”
He sounded exasperated. “I can’t explain-not over the phone. I did something I shouldn’t have. I violated my oath. Do you understand?”
I could feel Lucas watching me through those heavy glasses. “How much have you had to drink tonight?’
“Not enough.” He made a wet throaty noise that might or might not have been laughter. “How far away are you? When can you be here?”
A stop sign glowed red in my headlights. “I’m coming into Township Nineteen now.”
“Good!”
“But I’m not going to be able to get to your house for at least a couple of hours. I’m taking a little boy to the hospital in Calais.”
“Is he all right?” he asked, slurring.
“He’s fine.”
“Then you can stop on the way. My house is right on the road to Calais.”
“I can’t just take the boy with me to your house.”
“My dog is dead! Don’t you understand what that means?”
“Are you saying someone killed it?”
He must have dropped the phone. I heard a jarring, breaking noise that sure sounded like a receiver striking hardwood and then the signal cut out. It didn’t stutter or fizzle; it just ended.
“Doc? Doc?”
After a long interval of not hearing a response, I tucked the cell in the cup holder.
“Who was that?” Lucas asked.
“A friend of mine.” It seemed easier to characterize our problematic relationship in these terms than explain what a pain in my ass the old veterinarian had become.
“What got killed?”
“His dog passed away.”
“You said someone killed it.”
Despite his affected lack of interest, the boy had been listening closely. “I don’t know what happened to the dog.”
“You’re going to his house?”
“After I drop you off.”
“Can I go with you? I want to see the dead dog.”
“No way.”
But sure enough, as I left the shelter of the birches and white pines and came out into the windswept blueberry barrens, my conscience began to gnaw at me. I thought about the abrupt manner in which Doc’s call to me had ended. He’d sounded pretty wasted before, and despite his generally good health, I needed to remember that he was an elderly man. He was definitely intoxicated. What if he had fallen and injured himself? I tried his number again and got no answer. I tried his cell and got voice mail.
Doc Larrabee’s farm was just a few miles up the road. What if the old man was bleeding to death from a head wound? I took my foot off the gas and hit my blinker.
“Where are we going?” asked Lucas.
“To check on my friend.”
“The one with the dead dog?”
“Yeah,” I said. “That one.”