TAMARA
Horace called the office again at one thirty.
“Tamara, listen to me, please. I didn’t sleep much last night, haven’t been able to stop thinking about how we left things yesterday. I can’t stand the idea of you hating me, after everything we had together. Can’t we-”
That was as far as she let him get before she banged his ear.
She thought about putting the answering machine on in case he called back. Didn’t do it. Didn’t want to hear his voice again. Damn the man! He’d gone and hooked up with Mary from Rochester, he was through with Tamara from San Francisco and she was through with him, why couldn’t he just leave her be so she could get on with her life?
Until his call, some numbness had started to set in. Hadn’t been an easy morning with Bill hanging in the office, giving her the kind of looks Pop used to-you couldn’t keep anything from that man, not for long. Word! What she needed today wasn’t paternal understanding, what she needed was to be left alone. Better after he went on out. Not as much trouble concentrating, able to throw herself deep enough into her work to keep her mind off Horace and the sorry state of her love life. Everything was humming along on the professional side-they’d have to hire another investigator if their caseload got much heavier-and then all of a sudden the personal side turns to shit. And wasn’t that always the way with her? Get one part straightened out and running smooth, and bang, something else screws up. Like she was cursed or something. Like somebody somewhere kept making voodoo Tamara dolls and sticking pins in them.
The phone didn’t ring again.
Yeah, but Horace wouldn’t give up. Fool would call again, here or at the apartment, and keep on trying to punk her. She knew him so well
… that side of him anyway. Stubborn. Once he got an idea in his head, you couldn’t yank it out with a pair of pliers. And the idea now was to get her to say okay, sure, I forgive you, big guy, let’s be friends, and then he’d feel better about himself and what he’d done and go on doing the nasty with his Mary from Rochester with a clear conscience. Well, it wasn’t gonna happen. No way. She’d keep right on banging his ear until he let her be, no matter how long it took.
Now she was restless. She paced around her office and the anteroom, stared out through the windows at South Park, paced some more. Lord, she wished she’d gone through with her plan last night, made the club scene and picked up some guy and humped the night away. Sexual frustration was part of her problem, no question about that. But she hadn’t been able to do it. Got all the way over to the Mission, drove around looking for a parking place, and the next thing she knew she was on her way back home. Hadn’t even thought about it, just drove back to the apartment and dragged that ice cream cake out of the freezer and ate half of it in about two minutes flat. And then she’d gone into the bathroom and puked it up like some bulimic teenager.
Too soon after the Dear Tamara call, that was one reason she’d blown off the club crawl. A knee-jerk reaction to sudden trouble wasn’t like her; she’d outgrown the impulsive behavior that’d gotten her messed up more than once when she was younger. Another reason was that maybe she’d outgrown casual sex, too. As much as she wanted to get laid, she didn’t really want it to be with some stranger who didn’t have a clue who she was or care any more about her than she would about him. Being with one man for so long had changed her outlook, turned her into the same sort Bill was and Jake had been when his second wife was alive. Monogamous. Wanting more than just an orgasm out of a sexual relationship-needing closeness and caring and understanding and some mutual respect.
Like she’d had once with Horace.
Like he was having with Mary from Rochester.
Then go find somebody else, girl. Easy as pie, right? Put an ad in the newspaper, sign up with an Internet dating service, join a church group. Mr. Right’s out there someplace, just waiting for Ms. Right to come along. Can’t take more than a few weeks, a few months, a few years at the outside.
Got a better idea, she thought. Go out tonight after work and buy some new batteries for that vibrator of yours. May not be the perfect solution, but at least Mr. V’s an old and caring friend and besides, you won’t have to talk to him afterward or look him in the eye when you wake up in the morning.
Behind her, the phone bell went off. Fax line this time; the bell made a different sound. She stayed by the window, watching a group of young kids playing on the swings and slides on the little playground below, until the transmission was finished. Then she went over and gathered up the half-dozen sheets from the tray. SFPD computer printouts on the Erin Dumont rape-murder, no cover note.
She’d just finished going over them at her desk when the phone rang again, main line. Boss man checking in.
“Jack Logan came through,” she told him. “Homicide inspectors’ reports and coroner’s report, both.”
“I figured he would. Anything that didn’t get into the media?”
“Plenty. Erin Dumont wasn’t attacked and killed where her body was found. No forensic evidence at the site or on her clothing. Lacerations and a few fibers on her buttocks and legs consistent with rough upholstery material, like a car seat.”
“Forced into a car and driven somewhere else.”
“Or got in willingly with a guy she knew. Question is, why didn’t he leave the body where he did her? Had to be pretty isolated, wherever that was. Why risk bringing it back and dumping it near where he picked her up?”
“Good point,” he said. “If the vicinity of Thirtieth and Fulton is where he picked her up.”
“She went jogging in that area every weeknight, according to her sister-in and out of the park.”
“Well, she could’ve changed her routine for some reason without telling the sister.”
“Could have, yeah.”
“But you don’t think so. What’s the rest of it?”
“She was already dead when he raped her,” Tamara said.
“Jesus.”
“Violent sexual assault, vaginal tearing but almost no blood. Blood on her face, though-busted nose, skin torn by something sharp-edged like a ring. She might’ve been unconscious when she was strangled.”
“Small mercy if she was.”
“Finger marks on her throat indicate a man with big hands, strong. Her windpipe was crushed. But she put up a fight first. Marked him. Skin and blood under all the fingernails on her right hand.”
“No DNA match yet, obviously.”
“No.”
“So he’s either a first-time offender or a repeater who’s never been caught. They find semen or did he use a condom?”
“Semen. But that’s not all. Tear tracks on her breasts and belly.”
“ Tear tracks?”
“He put his head down on her and cried afterward. Cried for a long time-large sections of her skin smeared with dried tears.”
The line hummed in her ear for a time before Bill said, “Sudden remorse doesn’t fit the profile of a violent predator.”
“Neither does this: he put her clothes back on before he dumped her.”
“All her clothes?”
“Everything, including panties and bra. Dressed her real neat, the report says. Laid her on her back on a grass patch inside those bushes, folded her hands across her chest.” Tamara paused to lick moisture over dry lips. Reading and then repeating the words in the reports had built a dry, hot, impotent fury in her. “Sick motherfucker,” she said.
“Psychotic. You see that kind of thing in serial profiles.”
“Doesn’t sound like a serial to me.”
“You don’t believe she was a random victim?”
“No condom, those tear tracks, putting her clothes back on, taking her back near where she lived, laying her out. Obsessive love-hate shit. Somebody who wanted her, nobody else.”
“Stalker?”
“Kind she knew about or the kind she didn’t.”
“SFPD figure it that way?”
“No mention in the reports. Inspectors interviewed her boyfriend, some other friends, neighbors, the people she worked with. If there was anything along the stalker lines, they missed it.”
“Or didn’t ask the right questions.”
“Yeah.”
“Well, I don’t see Troxell as the perp. No indication he ever knew Erin Dumont, and his wife couldn’t help but notice if he’d been marked. But it’s possible he’s linked in another way.”
“What way?”
“Witness,” Bill said. “Either to the abduction or to the dumping of the body. His friend Casement told me Troxell saw something that disturbed him pretty badly, and the timing is right. All Troxell would say about it was that he wished to God he’d gone straight home that night.”
“If he did see something, why didn’t he go to the cops?”
“The usual reason-didn’t want to get involved. Maybe he didn’t see enough to be sure of what was happening, didn’t get a license plate number, couldn’t describe the man or the car. Rationalized it that way.”
“So he reads about it in the papers next day, feels guilty, and starts sending flowers and pays for Erin Dumont’s headstone.”
“It could also be the basis for his obsession with victims of violent crimes, funerals, all the rest of it. Makes sense psychologically.”
Tamara said, “Suppose he did see something that’d lead the cops to the perp? Suppose he’s been keeping it to himself all this time?”
“Everything about him says he’s a responsible citizen, but if he is holding back, then he’s a lot more damaged than we suspected.”
“So what do we do?”
“Just what we’ve been doing. We can’t alert the police without some kind of proof of his involvement. Where’s Jake now?”
“On his way back from seeing Ralph Linden.”
“And?”
“Troxell’s the one renting the granny unit. Jake can get in if we want him to go ahead. Linden offered him a spare key.”
“Offered being the operative word?”
“That’s what Jake said.”
“Does he have the key yet?”
“No. Shouldn’t take more than a phone call.”
Bill chewed on that for a time before he said, “There may not to be anything to find. Then again there may be more in that unit than we’re bargaining for. It’s a risk either way.”
“Only one way to find out. Won’t be the first time a law got broke in a good cause.” Like last spring, when she’d got herself into the mess in San Leandro and Bill and Jake had had to commit a B amp; E on the way to helping her out of it. But she didn’t say anything about that. Didn’t want to think about it. Those twenty-four hours still gave her nightmares.
“Bent, not broke. There’s a subtle distinction.”
“Uh-huh. Tell him to go ahead?”
“As far as setting it up with Linden for the key. Before we go any further than that, let’s see what Troxell does tonight.”
“You want Jake to keep up the surveillance?”
“No, I’ll take it. That’ll leave him free to do the bending if it works out that way. Meanwhile he can follow up on the stalker angle-talk to Erin Dumont’s sister, boyfriend, friends, the people she worked with.”
Tamara sat quiet for a time before she called Runyon. Her throat felt clogged up, as if she’d swallowed a bone. Images conjured up by the reports moved dark and ugly across the screen of her mind; she’d never laid eyes on Erin Dumont alive or dead, didn’t even know what the woman looked like, yet she could almost feel her terror and pain that last night of her life. Always been against the death penalty in principle, but whenever she came up against one of these inhuman scumbags, all her liberal attitudes went slipping and sliding away. This rape-homicide case, even though there was no personal connection, was having the same effect on her as the near-lethal encounters with the lunatic gunman last Christmas, the kid-abductor this past spring. Stalkers, rapists, child molesters, all the sadistic predators who preyed on women-they were the criminals she hated most. Lethal injection wasn’t enough for them. Every first-time offender convicted of a violent sexual crime ought to have his genitals whacked off; then there wouldn’t be any repeat offenders. If they used their dicks as weapons, they didn’t deserve to keep them. Why wasn’t that the goddamn law anyway? Because men made the laws. Cruel and unusual punishment, they said, the same self-righteous, pious bastard politicians who wanted to repeal the abortion laws and let women start dying again in agony and shame in back-alley rooms. What the hell was that if not cruel and unusual punishment?
Real easy, she thought bitterly, to understand why some women hated men, all men. Be real easy right now for her to count herself among that sisterhood.