A sound has woken me: a creaking floorboard or a whispered voice outside the door. Maybe it wasn’t a sound at all. Dull-headed, I push back the duvet and I tiptoe across the floor, joints popping in my knees.
Turning the latch, I glance along the hotel corridor. Empty. The darkness of the staircase is like an open void. I take a step and feel something wet under my feet. Melting snow, tracked in from outside. Someone has been standing here.
Closing the door, I turn the double lock and go to the window, pulling aside the curtains. It’s still dark outside. Charlie is sleeping. She hardly makes a sound. When she was a baby I used to crouch over her cot, fearful that she wasn’t breathing at all.
I won’t sleep now. I will lie awake and go back over the details of yesterday. I cannot forget the image of the frozen girl. The more I try to push it away, the harder it pushes back. That is the grim inevitability of unwanted thoughts. We cannot empty our heads. We cannot forget.
I wake Charlie just after seven and we eat a quick breakfast before walking to the train station. Supplies for the journey-a take-away coffee, hot chocolate and the Daily Telegraph. Five minutes for the train.
Tires scorch into the station car park and a police car screeches to a halt. DCI Drury is out the door and sprinting up the steps, leaping the ticket barrier like a gymnast on parallel bars. Grievous struggles to catch up, straddling the barrier and grimacing in pain.
Drury storms along the platform. Breathless. Angry. He almost knocks Charlie over, before jabbing his finger into my chest.
“How in Christ’s name did you know?”
I don’t retreat, but I’m concerned for Charlie.
“Are you OK?” I ask.
She nods. I look at Drury. “Please apologize to my daughter.”
He won’t be distracted. “Tell me how you knew. Leece matched the dental records. It’s Natasha McBain.”
“I wasn’t sure.”
“Did Shaw recognize her?”
“No.”
“How?”
“The dog.”
“You’re kidding me! You pulled a name out of your arse based on a dog.”
“It was more than that.” I sound defensive.
“Where has she been? Three years and not a word, then she turns up in the middle of a blizzard.”
“I don’t know.”
A train has appeared around a far bend, the carriages straightening, rails humming. For a moment the platform announcer interrupts. Drury waits, loosening his tie.
“You should have told me. I don’t like being everybody’s prize fuck.”
“I could have been wrong.”
“The chief constable wants to see you.”
“Why?”
“That’s his business.”
“We’re supposed to catch this train.”
“There’ll be others.”
Chief Constable Thomas Fryer is a big man squeezed into a uniform that is one size too small for him. Pink-faced with jaundiced eyes, he has an office on the top floor of Thames Valley Police headquarters. It’s a blue-sky view and daily affirmation that he’s reached the top of his chosen profession.
Removing his rimless glasses, he wipes them with a Kleenex.
“DCI Drury wants to have you arrested.”
“On what grounds?”
“You’ve made him look foolish.”
“That wasn’t my intention.”
Through the vertical blinds, I can see the outer office. Charlie is waiting for me, sitting on a plastic chair, texting on her iPhone. Drury is in the same room, pacing the floor, furious at being excluded from the meeting.
Fryer puts on his glasses.
“He’s a good detective. Hot-headed. Noisy. But he gets results.”
The chief constable takes a seat. The silver buttons on his uniform rattle against the metal edge of his desk.
“Are you a gambling man, Professor?”
“No.”
“But you understand odds?”
“Yes.”
“A true punter might wager a few quid on a long shot just to keep an interest in a race, but he doesn’t bet his house on an outsider without inside information, you understand what I’m saying?”
The answer is no, but I don’t interrupt him.
“A punter doesn’t risk his entire stake unless he gets a nod from someone close to the horse, the jockey or the trainer.”
“What does this have to do with me?”
“You’re a long shot but I’ve heard some good things.”
“Good things?”
“Detective Superintendent Veronica Cray speaks very highly of you. And I’m led to believe she doesn’t say nice things about men as a rule.”
The chief constable has risen from his chair again and walked to the window, admiring his view.
“Hell of a mess, this…”
I’m not sure if I’m supposed to answer.
“We need to tread gently. Under normal circumstances, a teenage girl dying in a blizzard wouldn’t create too many issues, but this is very different. This is one of the Bingham Girls.”
“Issues?”
“I’ll get to that. First I need to ask for your assistance. I want you to hang around for a few more days. Help us understand what happened to Natasha McBain.”
“I have a clinical practice in London.”
“We can pay for your services.”
“It’s not about money.”
Fryer places both fists on his desk, propping his body forward.
“The press are going to have a field day. That’s why we’re not making it public just yet. I’ve ordered a full media blackout. I don’t know how long it’s going to hold…”
“What about the girl’s family?”
“We’ll seek their co-operation.”
The silence stretches out. Fryer brings it to a close.
“I have questions, Professor. Do you think Natasha McBain ran away from home and chose the wrong night to come back?”
“No.”
“I thought so. Where has she been?”
“I have no idea.”
Fryer nods and glances at the folder on his desk.
“There are details that I wish to share with you, but first I need your assurance that you’ll keep this information confidential and that you’ll agree to help.”
“I can’t, I’m sorry.”
Fryer doesn’t seem to hear me. “I want you to review the original investigation. Look for any shortcomings. Assist in the new search…”
“I can recommend a good profiler.”
“I’m asking you. You see things that other people miss. In less than a day you uncovered more than two dozen detectives did in a week.”
“I’ve retired.”
“A man like you doesn’t retire. You answer the call.”
He straightens and rocks back on his heels, holding the blunt end of a ballpoint pen against his clean-shaven chin.
“We have a mutual acquaintance, you and I: Vincent Ruiz. I played rugby against Ruiz. It was a long while ago, of course. We both played in the front row. He once landed a punch flush on my jaw and I saw stars for a week. I deserved it. I punched him first.
“If you need help on the review, call in Ruiz. We can employ him as a consultant, put you both on the payroll: a thousand pounds a day. I’m sure he’d appreciate the money…”
The chief constable has done his research. He knows that Ruiz has struggled financially since he retired from the Metropolitan Police. He has an elderly mother in full-time care and shrinking savings.
Fryer pauses. There’s something else. Resuming his seat, he opens the folder.
“Elements of this case shock me, Professor. I’ve been a policeman for thirty years and not many things surprise me anymore.”
He passes me a photograph of Natasha McBain, naked on a metal bench, her chest sewn together with rough cross-stitches.
“We do some terrible things to people after they die; we cut them open, gut them, stitch them up, but that poor girl suffered more indignities in life than in death.”
He adds a second photograph. “At a stretch, I can accept why some sadistic prick might rape a teenage girl. Maybe he’s anti-social, or impotent, or just plain too ugly to get laid. And I can almost understand why he might keep her locked up as a plaything and beat her around, getting excited by her fear. But this… this is beyond me.”
He adds a final photograph-an extreme close-up of Natasha’s groin area with her vagina shown in all its anatomical detail. Then I recognize what I’m looking at… what I’m not seeing. Her prepuce and clitoris are missing.
This is what Dr. Leece saw during the post-mortem. This is what left him speechless.
“Dead people have rights too,” says Fryer. “I don’t care what you wish had happened in the past. It’s not my concern. I sometimes wish I worked less and was nicer to people and could open a homeless shelter for stray cats, but then I realize that I’m not that sort of person, which is why I don’t give a rat’s arse about you being tired or retired. It’s bogus, a bad excuse.”
The chief constable stabs his index finger at the photographs.
“You’re going to help us, Professor, because there’s a lot more at stake here than a few bruised reputations and a DCI with his nose out of joint. There were two Bingham Girls. The job is only half done.”