«No, you look.» She took his hands again and pressed them, hard. «For me. Would you do me the favor? And I'd do the same for you.»
«Make a wish?»
«We often did, as kids. They sometimes worked. They worked because they weren't really wishes, they were prayers.»
He lowered his eyes. «I haven't prayed in years.»
«Yes, you have. Count the times you wish you were back in the first month of your marriage. That's a kind of forlorn wish, a lost prayer.» He looked at her and swallowed several times.
«Don't say anything,» she said. «Why not?» «Because right now, you feel you have nothing to say.»
«I'll be quiet, then. Let me think. Do you, God, do you really want me to make a wish for you?»
She sank back and sat on the floor, her hands in her lap, eyes shut. Quietly, tears began to slide down her cheeks.
«Dear, oh, my dear,» he said softly.
It was three in the morning and the talking was done and they had ordered some hot milk and drunk it and brushed their teeth, and now, as he came out of the bathroom, he saw her arranging the pillows on the bed, as if this were a special theater in a special new time.
«What am I doing here?» he said. She turned. «Once we used to know. Now we don't. Come along.» She gestured and patted his side of the bed.
He rounded the bed. «I feel silly.»
«You have to feel silly just so you can feel better.» She pointed at the bed.
He got in and put his head on the properly plumped pillow and folded the sheets neatly over his chest and clasped his hands on the sheets. «Does this look right?» he asked.
«Perfect. Now.»
She put out the light and slid in on her side and took one of his hands and lay back perfectly straight and neat on her pillow. «Feeling tired, feeling sleepy?»
«Enough,» he said.
«All right, then. Be serious now. Don't say anything. Just think. You know what.»
«I know.»
«Shut your eyes now. There. Good.» She shut her own and they lay there, with just their hands clasped and nothing in the room now that stirred save their breathing. «Take a breath,» she whispered. He took a breath. «Now exhale.» He exhaled. She did the same.
«Now,» she murmured. «Begin.» She whispered. «Wish.»
Thirty seconds ticked by on their watches.
«Are you wishing?» she asked softly, at last.
«Wishing,» he said, just as softly.
«Good,» she whispered. And then: «Good night.»
Perhaps a minute later, his quiet voice, inaudible, moved in the dark room:
«Goodbye.»
He awoke for no reason except that he had had a dream that the earth had shrugged, or an earthquake had happened ten thousand miles away that no one felt, or that there had been a second Annunciation but everyone was deaf, or perhaps it was only that the moon had come into the room during the night and changed the shape of the room and changed the looks on their faces and the flesh on their bones and now had stopped so abruptly that the quick silence had stirred his eyes wide. In the moment of opening, he knew the streets were dry, there had been no rain. Only, perhaps, some sort of crying.
And, lying there, he knew that somehow the wish had been granted.
He didn't know it immediately, of course. He sensed and guessed it because of an incredible new warmth in the room, nearby, which came from the lovely woman lying by his side.
The sureness, the regularity, the serene rise and fall of her breathing told him more. A spell had arrived, resolved itself, and passed straight on into truthful existence while she slept. Celebration was in her blood now, even though she was not awake to know it. Only her dream knew, and whispered it every time she exhaled.
He rose up onto his elbow, afraid to trust his intuition.
He bent to look at that face, more beautiful than he had ever known it.
Yes, the sign was there. The absolute certainty was there. The peace was there. The sleeping lips smiled. If her eyes had opened, they would have been blazing with light.
Wake up, he wanted to say. I know your happiness. Now you must discover it. Wake up.
He reached to touch her cheek but pulled his hand away. Her eyelids moved. Her mouth opened.
Quickly, he turned and lay huddled over on his side of the bed and waited.
After a long while, he heard her sit up. Then, as if struck a lovely blow, she exclaimed something, cried out, reached over, touched him, found him asleep, and sat beside him, discovering what he already knew.
He heard her get up and run around the room like a bird wishing to be free. She came and kissed him on the cheek, went away, came back, kissed him again, laughed softly, then went off quickly into the sitting room. He heard her dialing long distance and shut his eyes, tightly.
«Robert?» her voice said, at last. «Bob? Where are you? Silly. Stupid of me. I know where you are. Robert. Bob, oh, God, can I fly there, will you be there when I arrive, today, this afternoon, tonight, yes? Would it be all right?… What's come over me? I don't know. Don't ask. Can I come? Yes? Say yes!… Oh, grand! Goodbye!» He heard the telephone click. After a while, he heard her blowing her nose as she entered the room and sat on the bed next to him in the first light of dawn. She had dressed quickly and haphazardly, and now he reached out and took her hand.
«Something happened,» he whispered.
«Yes.»
«The wish. It came true.»
«Isn't it incredible? Impossible, but it did! Why? How?»
«Because both of us believed,» he said, quietly. «I wished very hard, for you.»
«And I for you. Oh, Lord, isn't it wonderful that both of us could shift at the same time, move, change, all in a night? Otherwise, it would be terrible wouldn't it, if just one changed and the other 3 left behind?»
«Terrible,» he admitted.
«Is it really a miracle?» she asked. «Did we wish hard enough and someone or something or God heard us and lent us back our old loves to warm us and tell us to behave, we might never have another wish or another chance again, is that it?»
«I don't know. Do you?»