In April, Sarah and Mary Ford flew to Montpellier, were met by Jean-Pierre and driven to Belles Rivieres. The weather was not good, that is, it was not good compared to the expectations we unreasonably have for the south of France, where in our imaginations Cezanne's and Van Gogh's suns forever pour down an incomparable light. The sky was a cool pale blue, and a wind flung random cold drops against their faces as they stepped from the car into the new town car park, which was large enough for several coaches and a thousand cars. The charming old market had been demolished to make room for the car park. They had a meal inside Les Collines Rouges, for it was too chilly to sit on the pavement, and drove slowly up through the woods on a new wide road that had been built for the lorries transporting wood for the stadium and would turn out useful for the new hotel to be built half-way up the road, with its car park. This hotel had been, was still, controversial. Jean-Pierre was nervous, with a morose tension gripping his forehead, and he had not been comfortable meeting their eyes since greeting them in the airport building. He had a headache, he said, and joked that everything to do with Julie was a headache now. The town authorities had created a committee to deal with these problems, and his — Jean-Pierre's — wishes seldom coincided with those of the majority. He thought the new big hotel — visible now only as a devastated place full of lorries, cranes, cement slabs, excavators, and the wreckage of oaks and olives and pines — was a mistake, and the car park was a mistake too, for it would be enormous, destined not only for the hotel's visitors. As for the stadium, they would see for themselves. They could already see it as a raw yellow-red wood structure towering enormously above the trees. They murmured that it would look better when it had weathered, but he did not reply, only led them through a gap in the structure to the centre of the amphitheatre. Julie's house had gone, and there was a great round of dull red concrete. No trees were visible over the top of the stadium. A cold wind that made them wish they had on warmer clothes shook the boughs outside.
'It is not what I wished,' said Jean-Pierre, almost in tears. 'Believe me, it is not.'
The path to the waterfall had a notice: Julie — Son Fleuve. The three of them took the path. The river was running fast and furious because of rain in the hills. The pool was so full of white water and spray the rocks could hardly be seen. They stood by the railing that guarded the drop where Sarah had stood with Henry and with Stephen. Well, it was a place well suited to ghosts, or at least it was today, so dismal and cold. Was it really ten months ago? No, that was another region of time, seductive and deceiving, and if she turned her head she would see Stephen sitting on the bench, see Henry smiling and hear his low 'It's Sarah'. She cautiously turned her head, assured herself the bench was empty, and walked back past it, talking to Jean-Pierre about the musical. She had to raise the subject, for he was too embarrassed. Yes, he said, the committee did like the musical. Speaking for himself, he thought it was deplorable. But he could assure them that this year at least the authentic Julie would be played here for a full three months. Here he took Mary's hand and kissed it. 'With your help.' The musical would be tried out next year. He was confident everyone would see the musical was inferior. Yes, Patrick had been clever, he had incorporated some of Julie's musical ideas, but in a very ordinary and commonplace way.
But there was good news too, said Jean-Pierre. The Rostand family wanted to take Sarah's and Stephen's version and put it on as part of a fete they planned for the summer. In French, of course, but they liked the shape of Julie Vairon and what Sarah had done. Would Sarah mind? She assured him from the heart that she was delighted, and any help that she could… 'Perfect,' said Jean-Pierre. 'So this summer will be interesting. There will be Julie Vairon in French, as she should be, and there will be Julie Vairon in English. For the tourists. No, we shall make sure that they will not overlap.'
Mary took pictures of Sarah and of Jean-Pierre, separately and together, while they stood in the middle of the stadium, then sitting on the lower tier of the seats, and then on the highest seats, where — if the camera was positioned just so — Jean-Pierre's and Sarah's heads would be seen against a flying scroll, a metal banner that stretched from one umbrella pine to another: Julie Vairon. 1865–1912. Jean-Pierre said it was a pity Stephen's face would not be with Sarah's near the banner, but Mary said it was no problem: she could blow up a picture of Stephen and superimpose his face beside Sarah's on the banner.
Then Sarah told the two she would walk down by herself to the town, for old times' sake, for she could see they wanted to be alone.
On the plane going home, Mary said, 'I thought I had come to terms with everything, but I hadn't, really. So I have to do it all over again.'
This was shorthand for: I thought I had accepted that I would not marry or have a serious lover to live with, because my mother is ill and is getting worse and anyway I am getting old, my hair is going grey, and I was very unhappy, but I came to terms with it, but now…
'I understand perfectly,' said Sarah.
Sometimes women remembering past follies can exchange Rabelaisian laughter, but it was too recent. Later, no doubt.
'And there's another thing,' said Mary. 'I don't care about Julie any more. They've done her in.'
'Yes, she's well and truly dead now, isn't she.'
And that was the moment, frequent in the theatre, when, after months or even years of total immersion in a story — an Entertainment — the people who made it simply turn their backs and stroll away.