"I'm not, we were. Seriously."
"Well, tell her you can't. You two send Nelson over. Only send him with some money, I don't see why I should pay for his clothes."
"Buy everything at Kroll's and charge it."
"Knoll's has gone terribly downhill, you know it has. There's a nice little new shop now up near Perley, past that submarine place that used to be Chinese."
"Open another charge account. Tell him you're Springer Motors and offer a Toyota for security."
"Harry, you mustn't be so hostile. You sent me off myself. You said, that night, I'll never forget it, it was the shock of my life, `See him if you want to, just so I don't have to see the bastard.' Those were your words."
"Hey, that reminds me, I did see him the other day."
"Who?"
"Chas. Your dark and swarthy lover."
"How?"
"He ambushed me after work. Waiting in the alley with a dagger. Oog, I said, you got me, you Commie rat."
"What did he want?"
"Oh, to talk about you."
"What about me? Harry, are you lying, I can't tell any more. What about me?"
"Whether or not you were happy."
She makes no comeback, so he goes on, "We concluded you were."
"Right," Janice says, and hangs up.
the days before the Bessemer furnace. Old faded photographs of Weiser Street show a prosperous-appearing avenue of tasteful, low brick buildings with horsedrawn trolly tracks promiwith horse-drown trolley traks prami-with horsed-raven trolleyyyfff etaoin etaoinshrdlu etaoinshrdlucmfwpvbgkqjet
* * *
He asks her, "What did you and the kid do today?"
"Oh, nothing much. Hung around the house in the morning, took a drive in the afternoon."
"Where to?"
"Up to Mt. Judge."
"The town?"
"The mountain. We had a Coke in the Pinnacle Hotel and watched a softball game in the park for a while."
"Tell me the truth. Do you have the kid smoking pot?"
"Whatever gave you that idea?"
"He's awfully fascinated with you, and I figure it's either pot or sex."
"Or the car. Or the fact that I treat him like a human being instead of a failed little athlete because he's not six feet six. Nelson is a very intelligent sensitive child who is very upset by his mother leaving."
"I know he's intelligent, thanks, I've known the kid for years."
"Harry, do you want me to leave, is that it? I will if that's what you want. I could go back to Babe except she's having a rough time."
"What kind of rough time?"
"She's been busted for possession. The pigs came into the Jimbo the other night and took about ten away, including her and Skeeter. She says they asked for a bigger payoff and the owner balked. The owner is white, by the way."
"So you're still in touch with that crowd."
"You don't want me to be?"
"Suit yourself. It's your life to fuck up."
"Somebody's been bugging you, haven't they?"
"Several people."
"Do whatever you want to with me, Harry. I can't be anything in your real life."
She is standing before him in the living room, in her cutoff jeans and peasant blouse, her hands held at her sides slightly lifted and open, like a servant waiting for a tray. Her fingers are red from washing his dishes. Moved to gallantry, he confesses, "I need your sweet mouth and your pearly ass."
"I think they're beginning to bore you."
He reads this in reverse: he bores her. Always did. He attacks: "O.K., what about sex, with you and the kid?"
She looks away. She has a long nose and long chin, and that dry moth mouth that he feels, seeing it in repose, when she is not watching him, as absentmindedly disdainful, as above him and wanting to flutter still higher. Summer has put only a few freckles on her, and these mostly on her forehead, which bulges gently as a milk pitcher. Her hair is twisty from being so much in those little tiny braids hippies make. "He likes me," she answers, except it is no answer.
He tells her. "We can't do that trip to Valley Forge tomorrow. Janice wants Nelson to go shopping with her for school clothes, -and I should go see my mother. You can drive me if you want, or I can take the bus."
He thinks he is being obliging, but she gives him her rich-girl sneer and says, "You remind me of my mother sometimes. She thought she owned me too."
Saturday morning, she is gone. But her clothes still hang like rags in the closet. Downstairs on the kitchen table lies a note in green magic marker: Out all day. Will drop Nelson at the lot. (heart & peace symbols), So he takes the two bus rides all the way across Brewer. The lawns in Mt. Judge, patches of grass between cement walks, are burned; spatterings of leaves here and there in the maples are already turned gold. There is that scent in the air, of going back to school, of beginning again and reconfirming the order that exists. He wants to feel good, he always used to feel good at every turning of the year, every vacation or end of vacation, every new sheet on the calendar: but his adult life has proved to have no seasons, only changes of weather, and the older he gets, the less weather interests him.
The house next to his old house still has the FOR SALE sign up. He tries his front door but it is locked; he rings, and after a prolonged shuffle and rumble within Pop comes to the door. Rabbit asks, "What's this locked door business?"
"Sorry, Harry, there've been so many burglaries in town lately. We had no idea you were coming."
"Didn't I promise?"