«Oh Bradley, you can't, they're far too much, how awfully kind of you but you can't-'
«Why not? It's ages since I gave you a present. I used to when you were little. Come on, be brave.»
«Oh Bradley, I'd love it, and you're so kind, which is even better than the boots, but I can't-«Why not?»
«I haven't any stockings. I can't try them on with my feet like this.»
«I see. I think incidentally that this barefoot cult is perfectly idiotic. Suppose you step on some glass?»
«I know. I think it's idiotic too, I won't do it again, it was just for the festival, it's terribly uncomfortable, my feet are hurting like anything already. Oh dear, what a shame though.»
«Can't you buy some stockings!»
«There isn't a shop near-I had been fumbling in my pocket looking for my wallet. Suddenly as my hand emerged a pile of stuff fell out onto the pavement: my tie, underpants and socks. My face blazing with guilt, I swooped on them.
«Oh look, what luck, I could wear your socks. It's so warm, I don't wonder you took them off. May I, would you mind?»
She put them on immediately, balancing on each foot and holding on to my sleeve. We went into the shop.
It was cool and dim inside. Not at all like the nightmare shop that haunted my sister and myself; and not at all like the remembered interior of the womb either. More like the temple of some old unpassionate rather ascetic cult. The tiers of white containers (perhaps containing relics or votive gifts), the quiet darkly clad acolytes, the lowered voices, the rows of seats for meditation, the oddly shaped stools. The shoe horns.
We sat down side by side and Julian asked for her size. The black-clad girl began to ease the purple boot on over Julian's foot and my grey nylon sock. The high boot enveloped her leg and the zip fastener moved smoothly upward.
«It fits beautifully. May I try the other?» The other boot slid on.
Julian stood in front of the mirror and I looked at her reflection. The boots looked stunning on her. Above the knee there was a piece of bare thigh, only faintly brown, and then the blue-andgreenand-white striped hem of her brief dress.
Julian's delight was literally indescribable. Her face dissolved and glowed, she quite unconsciously clapped her hands, she rushed back to me and shook me by the shoulders and then rushed back to the mirror. Her innocent pleasure would have moved me very much upon a better occasion. Why had I thought of her as an image of vanity? This delight of the young animal in itself was something pure. I could not help smiling.
«Bradley, you do like them, they don't look absurd?»
«They look smashing.»
«I'm so pleased, oh you are so sweet-Thank you so much!»
«Thank you. Present-giving is a form of self-indulgence.» I asked for the bill.
«No, I won't wear them, it's too hot,» Julian was explaining to the sales girl. «Bradley, you are an angel. May I come and see you soon and we'll talk about Shakespeare? I'm free any time-Monday, Tuesday-how about Tuesday morning at your place at eleven? Or whenever you like?»
«All right, all right.»
«And we'll talk seriously and look at the text in detail?»
«Yes, yes.»
«Oh I am so pleased with the boots.»
When we parted company at the station and I looked into those purely coloured blue eyes I could not bring myself to dim her joy by asking her to lie, even though I had by then thought of a fairly ingenious cock-and-bull story.
It was not until later that I remembered that she had gone away still wearing my socks.
Somehow or other it was twelve noon. Returning eastward to my flat I felt a good deal more sober, and I soon regretted my «high– minded» failure to silence Julian. Out of some ridiculous sense of dignity I had failed to take an absolutely essential precaution. When Julian blurted out about meeting me, what would Arnold guess, what would Rachel devise, what would she confess? Trying, and failing, to get the problem into focus I felt a guilty excited painful feeling not unlike sexual desire. Julian must be home by now. What was happening? Perhaps nothing. I felt an intense need to telephone Rachel at once, but knew that this would be profitless. «Knowing the worst» would have to wait awhile.
«Where's Priscilla?»
«Don't take on, Brad. She's back at my place.»
Christian had taken off her shoes, which were lying on the bed. Her trim pearly-silky legs were neatly crossed. Legs are ageless.
«How dare you interfere!»
«I didn't, I just came to visit her, and she was so tearful and low and saying you were going to go away and leave her, so I said, 'Why not come back to me,' and she said she wanted to, so I sent her and Francis off in a taxi.»
«My sister is not a sort of ping-pong ball.»
«Don't be so cross, Brad. Now you can go away with a clear conscience.»
«I don't want to go away.»
«Well, Priscilla thought you did.»
> «I'm going right away now to fetch her back.»
«Brad, don't be silly. It's far better for her to be at Notting Hill. I've asked a doctor to see her this afternoon. Do leave her in peace for a bit.»
«Did Arnold come to you this morning?»
«He came to see me. Why do you say 'come to you' in that meaningful way? He was very upset by your spiteful review. Why ever did you send it to him? Why cause pain just like that? You wouldn't like it if someone did it to you.»
«Did he come to cry on your shoulder?»
«No. He came to discuss a business project.»
«Business?»
«Yes. We're going into business together. I have a lot of spare money, so has he. I didn't spend all my time in Illinois at the Ladies' Guild. I helped Evans run his business. At the end I ran his business. I'm not going to idle around over here. I'm going into lingerie. And Arnold is going with me.»
«Why did you never tell me you were Jewish?»
«You were never interested enough to find out.»
«So you and Arnold are going to make money together. Has it occurred to you to wonder how Rachel might feel?»
«Aren't you after Rachel?»
«What makes you imagine that?»