[pause]
`Do something. . , sexually or I'll explode.'
`You get so tense you feel you must express yourself sexually.
`Yes.'
[Pause] `Don't you want to know how!' he asked.
`If you'd like to tell me.'
`Do you want to know? Don't you need to know to help me?'
`I want you to tell me only what you feel like telling me.'
`Well, I know you'd like to know, but I'm not going to tell you. I've told you about the fuckin' women I've fucked and
how they make me want to puke with their snaky wet orgasms, but I guess I'll keep this to myself.'
[Pause]
`You feel that although I'd like to know, you've already told me about your relations with women sand so you won't
tell me.'
`Actually, it's sodomy. When I get tense - it might be right after I've fucked some white-satin slut, I get … I need … I
want to ram the Goddam insides out of some woman .. . some girl . . . young . . . the younger the better.'
`When you're very keyed up you want to ram the insides out of some woman.'
`The Goddam insides. I want to sink my prick up that intestine into that belly through the esophagus up that throat and
come right out the Goddam top of her head.'
[Pause]
`You'd like to penetrate through her whole body.'
`Yeah, but up her ass. I want her to scream, to bleed, to be horrified.'
[Pause. Long pause]
`You'd like to penetrate her anus and make her bleed, scream and be horrified.'
'Yeah, but the whores I tried it with chewed gum and picked their nose.'
[Pause] `The whores you tried it with were neither hurt nor horrified.'
`Shit, they took their seventy-five bucks, shot their ass into the air and chewed gum or read a comic book. If I tried to
get rough some guy six inches taller than me would appear in the doorway with a sledgehammer or something. [Pause]
I found sodomy, per se [he smiled awkwardly] didn't end my tenseness.'
`You were unable to release, your tension by relations with prostitutes when the women seemed to experience no pain
or humiliation.'
`So I knew I had to find someone who would scream.'
[Pause]
[Long pause]
`You sought other alternatives to relieve your tensions.'
`Yeah. Fact is I began raping and killing young girls.'
[Pause]
[Long pause] [Longer pause]
`In an effort to relieve these tense feelings you began raping and killing young girls,'
`Yeah. You're not allowed to tell, are you? I mean you told me professional ethics forbid your telling anything I say, right?'
'Yes.'
[Pause]
'I find the raping and killing' of girls helps relieve the tension quite a bit and makes me feel better again.'
`I see.'
`My problem is that I'm beginning to get a little nervous ..about getting caught. I sort of hoped maybe analysis might help me find a little more normal way to reduce my tensions.'
`You'd like to find a different way to reduce tensions other than raping and killing girls.'
`Yeah. Either that or help me to stop worrying about getting caught ….'
The alert reader may now be feeling that this stuff is slightly too sensational for a typical day at the office, but Mr. Osterflood really exists. Or rather existed - more of that later on. The fact is that I was writing a book entitled The Sado-Masochistic Personality in Transition, a work which was to describe cases in which the sadistic personality developed into a masochistic one and vice versa. For this reason my colleagues always sent me patients with a markedly strong sadistic or masochistic bent. Osterflood was admittedly the most professionally active sadist I'd treated, but the wards of mental hospitals have many like him.
What is remarkable, I suppose, is Osterflood's walking around loose. Although after his confession I urged him to enter an institution, he refused and I couldn't order his being committed without breaking professional confidence; moreover no one else apparently suspected that he was an `enemy of society.'
All I could do was warn my friends to keep their little girls away from Harlem playgrounds (where Osterflood obtained his victims) and try hard for a cure. Since my friends all kept their children out of Harlem playgrounds because of the danger of Negro rapists even my warnings were unnecessary.