She said, "She doesn't have to…"
"No, go on," he said. "You'll only start wondering again later."
Frank came out onto the doorstep. "She's in the kitchen," he said.
She went into the house. Its warmth surrounded her. Rock music blared and thumped from upstairs.
She went down the hallway, flexing her aching hands.
Bobbie stood waiting in the kitchen, in red slacks and an apron with a big daisy on it. "Hi, Joanna," she said, and smiled.
Beautiful bosomy Bobbie. But not a robot.
"Hi," she said. She held the doorjamb, and leaned to it and rested the side of her head against it.
"I'm sorry to hear you're in such a state," Bobbie said.
"Sorry to be in it," she said.
"I dont mind cutting my finger a little," Bobbie said, "if it'll ease your mind for you." She walked to a counter. Walked smoothly, steadily, gracefully. Opened a drawer.
"Bobbie…" Joanna said. She closed her eyes, and opened them. "Are you really Bobbie?" she asked.
"Of course I am," Bobbie said, a knife in her hand. She went to the sink.
"Come here," she said. "You can't see from there."
The rock music blared louder. "What's going on upstairs?" Joanna asked.
"I don't know," Bobbie said. "Dave has the boys up there. Come here. You can't see."
The knife was large, its blade pointed. "You'll amputate your whole hand with that thing," Joanna said.
"I'll be careful," Bobbie said, smiling. "Come on." She beckoned, holding the large knife.
Joanna raised her head from the jamb, and took her hand from it. She went into the kitchen-so shining and immaculate, so un-Bobbie-like.
She stopped. The music is in case I scream, she thought. She isn't going to cut her finger; she's going to- "Come on," Bobbie said, standing by the sink, beckoning, holding the point-bladed knife.
Not catastrophic, Dr. Fancher? Thinking they're robots not women? Thinking Bobbie would kill me? Are you sure you can help me?
"You don't have to do it, she said to Bobbie.
"It'll ease your mind," Bobbie said.
"I'm seeing a shrink after New Year's," she said. "That'll ease my mind.
At least I hope it will."
"Come on," Bobbie said. "The men are waiting."
Joanna went forward, toward Bobbie standing by the sink with the knife in her hand, so real-looking-skin, eyes, hair, hands, rising-falling aproned bosom-that she couldn't be a robot, she simply couldn't be, and that was all there was to it.
THE MEN STOOD ON THE doorstep, blowing out steamy breath, their hands deep in their pockets. Frank hipped from side to side with the beat of the loud rock music.
Bernie said, "What's taking so long?"
Wynn and Frank shrugged.
The rock music blared.
Wynn said, "I'm going to call Walter and tell him we found her." He went into the house.
"Get Dave's car keys!" Frank called after him.
THE MARKET PARKING LOT was pretty well filled, but she found a good place up near the front; and that, plus the sun's warmth and the moist sweet smell of the air when she got out of the car, made her feel less bothered about having to be shopping. A little less bothered, anyway.
Miss Austrian came limping and caning toward her from the market's entrance, with a small paper bag in her hand and-she didn't believe it-a friendly smile on her Queenof-Hearts white face. For her? "Good morning, Mrs. Hendry," Miss Austrian said.
What do you know, black is bearable. "Good morning," she said.
"March is certainly going out like a lamb, isn't it?"
"Yes," she said. "It seemed like it was going to be a twoheaded lion."
Miss Austrian stopped and stood looking at her. "You haven't been in the library in months," she said. "I hope we haven't lost you to television."
"Oh no, not me," she said, smiling. "I've been working."
"On another book?"
"Yes.
"Good. Let me know when it's going to be published; we'll order a copy."
"I will," she said. "And I'll be in soon. I'm almost done with it."
"Have a good day," Miss Austrian said, smiling and caning away, "Thanks. You too."
Well, there was one sale.
Maybe she'd been hypersensitive. Maybe Miss Austrian was cold to whites too until they'd been there a few months.
She went through the market's opening-by-themselves doors and found an empty cart. The aisles were the usual Saturday morning parade.
She went quickly, taking what she needed, maneuvering the cart in and out and around. "Excuse me. Excuse me, please." It still bugged her the way they shopped so languidly, gliding along as if they never sweated. How white could you get? Even filling their carts just so! She could shop the whole market in the time they did one aisle.